Please forgive me for sounding ignorant, but you have lost your motivation? 35 lbs is a measureable amount. Get help with the problem in your head, if that is what you think it is.....I am not ashamed to say it, I go to counselling. Not for my problems with food, but other things, that help me to turn to food. I too occasionally get stuck and throw up...more than others! Take your time, think about what you are doing...keep a journal. Stop eating JUNK. WORK YOUR BAND, it wont work for you. Use the tool that you spent 20K on, and good luck!