donaldlovindaddy

I don't think she is having sex yet and made me promise to have safe sex if I decided to go outside our marriage. I totally blame myself for having neglected her and I miss her so much. I have told her all this but I think she still wants out. I am planning on going to a church counsellor myself right away. She has been away last night and today gambling ( yes I paid for that too) I know that I am making it too easy for her, but I have always spoiled her.

Help me if you can! I love her so much, but she now wants to seek attention and possibly sex from other men. She wants to co parent. I have sleep apnea and have slept in basement for 4 years. Now I have cpap machine and dont snore. We have grown apart and I have negleted her sexually. Now that she has cut me off I am DESPARATE to have some physical contact. I would like sex, but a real kiss would mean so much more. I have been going to gym for about 45 days and have lost 20 lbs. I am 6' tall and weigh 250 now. I have given her freedom to seek this attention in the hopes that she will realize what we have. She says that she loves me. I do most household chores, work full time, have 2 boys. She also works full time. I know that she is getting attention because she is so beautiful. That is the person I married 11 years ago, and the weight surrounding her never bothered me. I have always loved her, and even if we don't make it through I will be her best friend. I am so proud of her weight loss and compliment her all the time. I have NEVER complained about numerous complete wardrobe changes. If nothing else will you say a prayer for us? I have given this over to Him, because I am not strong enough to handle this burden. I have been in the gym everyday for almost 2 months and I feel great about myself. I don't have a great self esteem tho. Any advice would be helpful. She wont go for counseling, I have begged her. Thank you