Butterflysc

My current weight is 365!!!!! This is the highest my weight has ever been. It is so shocking how I have let my self go. I use to be so active but a bad break up and 7 years later this is what I am. When my ex and I broke up after 5 1/2 years and 1 1/2 of that engaged I got real depressed. I thought my life was perfect but wow does God have a way of turning things around. I was 245 when that happened not bad after a child. Started gaining weight had another child and up to 323 I went. Hated myself for that and I ate and ate. See I have come to realize that food is my friend (so I thought) I have been using food as a way to hide my pain and I have to stop. I want my life back. I am choosing Lap Band because it will help me make a change slowly and I think that is best for me. I am spending a lot of time in prayer asking God to help me on this journey be cause without him I am nothing.

My current weight is 365!!!!! This is the highest my weight has ever been. It is so shocking how I have let my self go. I use to be so active but a bad break up and 7 years later this is what I am. When my ex and I broke up after 5 1/2 years and 1 1/2 of that engaged I got real depressed. I thought my life was perfect but wow does God have a way of turning things around. I was 245 when that happened not bad after a child. Started gaining weight had another child and up to 323 I went. Hated myself for that and I ate and ate. See I have come to realize that food is my friend (so I thought) I have been using food as a way to hide my pain and I have to stop. I want my life back. I am choosing Lap Band because it will help me make a change slowly and I think that is best for me. I am spending a lot of time in prayer asking God to help me on this journey be cause without him I am nothing.