LBSept09

I was banded in 2009, and am truly happy with my band. My problem is the head games I play with this life long struggle. I did so well for the first year, but lost very very slow. I got to the 199 spot, and never lost any more. I gained some of the weight back, and do not eat well at all. I now need to start from scratch, right back to the presurgery prep, because I am not eating right, not taking the correct time, or eating good foods. Carbs are evil little critters! I want to be eating correctly, but obviously not enough to actually get on it. My big problem is, the way I think. I can rationalize why I willl "do better tomorrow" every single day. I always start the morning thinking this is the day, I am going to eat great. Why do we not think this at 6pm?? I have a trip coming next week, and I know I willl have dinner out alot, and a few drinks, so I eat terrible now, knowing there is no need to eat good and blow it next week.... UGH !!!! I do not drink often (a few times a year), but it is like cutting a limb off, or no presents at Christmas, for me to go on this trip and not have the drink that comes with the meal. I need to have the Men in Black guys flash me with that little flashy thing, and tell me I like only bland boring diet food and very little of that. Eat to live, not Live to eat.. :-)