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Ah Jes that will be fun to see you............ Ok I am headed back to my office today to get more paperwork done. Trying to fit a months worth of work into two weeks has been crazy.........yep my office is packed up and all my boxes are home now. Still on a plateau and I am hungry all the time. I need a fill. NOthing gets stuck at all I barely know I have a band right now!! LOL. I will check in later. Tamra water always helps me lose quicker. I drink like 120 ounces of water for a few days...........no CL just water and it always works!! MIght want to try it!!

Riley excited to see you too..............I am missing my pink slip party to come!!! LOL. I so didn't want to go to that so I am glad...........seems morbid to me!! I am losing alot of really good friends to the layoffs...........

Hey All Heather I also really laugh about my Diet Coke pencil......:-) I think it is hilarous!! Jes we will be at Pinole at 9am on Thursday morning. A group fill........ I am just chilling this weekend getting used to the idea of a major job change. The longer I think about it the more I think I like the idea.............babies might be more fun that dealing with all the teens But not sure yet where I am gonna be till I get there.........I heard two of us got assigned the same position. Hmm...........Also the budget meetings this week could change my spot. I will be back in my original position if they get additional money........so interesting to see where I actually end up!! I guess I will know 100% next week.........:-) I am not sure I wanna give up the babies to go back to where I was..........LOL..........but again that is not my choice!! LOL.

Hey everyone Up and around this morning...........headed into work to get my caseload closed. I didn't meet my deadlines since I was home sick on Tuesday............so going in now to make up my time and hopefully get it all done........I want to have an easy week and just go to training and chill before I start my new job.........so hopefully I can wrap it all up today............ So what is everyone up to this weekend?? How is everyone feeling...........Jes, Candra?? Donna you out walking again!! April I hope to get off my plateau here soon too. Nicole what are you guys up to this weekend? Riley your quiet?? can't wait to see you this week.....

I can't sleep. This Celexa is keeping me up........ok now I see that it says to take it first thing in the morning!! LOL. So catching up on ready everyone's posts. It has been a few days since I have been able to read them all.........

I am relieved tonight!! I might even get a re assignment back to an office closer to my house! ER has two offices one a block from my house........so eventually I am gonna try to stay in the same unit but get a tranfer to the North area!! It is all good..........:-) This is a really good assignment :-) Now just hoping no layoffs in January cause than I WILL be gone..............not gonna worry until after the new year my mind needs a break.......... Just knowing is better than not knowing!! At least I know where I end up ........... Next week I am in training MON-WED and than pinole on the 24th..........Friday pink slip party to say good bye to my co workers.......how crazy is that?? Your suppose to where pink ............I think it is sorta weird to have a party. So basically an easy week before I have to get retrained and on to a new job......... Hope everyone is doing well!!

I can eat to much too. On a serious plateua since I got my unfill 6 weeks ago...........going for a fill this week!!

Hey Ladies I did get re assigned today :-( I wanted to stay with my deparment but that didn't work out. I am going to Emergency response and will be working with Pos-tox babies. Drug babies!! A good place to go if I have to go..........if the budget changes next week I will go back to my Department..........only bad thing is that my office is in Rancho Cordova and I live in Roseville.......... We will see what happens next week with the budget but sounds like this is where I am staying. I don't expect much money to come back to the Department.......

Hey Maria how do I get on that list? I need to be on every list I can be.......Maria your strong already going through a layoff and job searching. I don't know how you do it I am stressed after a month of all this......... Candra and Jes how you guys doing?? Heather still losing my hair. I am hoping it slows down here soon. I have all these spikey hairs growing in everywhere now.........LOL. So there is hope!! Well busy, busy......should get reassigned today sometime but still waiting. Don't know if it will be email or phone call or mail...........could be in my work inbox on MOnday I guess...........no one knows.

I like Dr. Baggs too!! I go for a fill next week.......

Hmmm Pam. I think maybe I need to call around to other Kaisers than. I think two months is crazy too. Ok thanks for the kick I am gonna call a couple more locations and see if that helps!! So how does the Celexa work for you. I just started today. I know it takes awhile........I already feel better knowing I am addressing the issue. Ok gotta get off. Deadlines and all ya know.........LOL. As if I care at this point!!

Yea back down 4 pounds this morning. TOM gets me everytime.......now if I can get a couple more down before next week maybe I can still get a fill!! Can we say no restriction right now!!

No more nightmares Nicole!! LOL. Ok well off to meet my deadlines!! Too funny we still care about that when the whole Department won't exist in ah.......6 days now!!

Hey Nicole thanks. I am trying to chill which is why I called for counseling and got meds yesterday. This whole work enviroment is not healthy. I have to be there right now and stick it out so I am just trying to take care of myself and just survive work as long as I can. I don't want to be on stress leave right now :-) Timing would be bad!! Heather: I think anything county is scary right now, but I do think your position is ok. I just wonder where all the money is going? Jes and Candra?? HOw's it going banded girls?? Candra I thinki the third day I was the sorest so thinking about ya girl. Jes your banded!! Tamra your going to see Dr. Baggs today?? Let us know how it goes. Riley: looking forward to the clothes Donna: how did your meeting/coffee go? Ok well off to work and than a three day weekend. I hope no one asks me if I am gonna meet my deadlines today!! :-) DRove me crazy hearing that yesterday.

I like this story I was told...... A woman in an airport took her Bible and planned to doctrinize someone in the airport...........she was praying for her chance........sitting in the airport she was praying that God would help her find someone to preach to.........all she kept seeing was an old man with matted hair in a wheelchair........she kept feeling the urge to go brush his hair but kept fighting it.........it didn'nt have anything to do with preaching and she was sure God wanted her to preach to someone so she waited............finally she got up and went to the old man and asked if she could brush his hair..........the old man started to cry and said he had been praying all morning someone would come and brush his hair so he would look nice for his wife........turns out he had been in the hospital for six week, almost died...........his wife was in another town to ill to come see him..........no one has fixed his hair for 6 weeks and it was long and matted.......he wanted to look nice when he saw his wife but was to weak to care for himself........so to me the point is we shouldn't be preaching to each other we should be treating each other like we want to be treated that means more..............so this woman thought she knew what God wanted from her but she assumed wrong.........all he asked her to was answer an old man's prayer and that had nothing to do with preaching to anyone........... I just really liked this story!! This is my kind of religion....LOL!! Ok, ok I am a social worker and have a soft spot to a good story.............I loved this one made a valid point. The rules are not as important as the love.........

What are PM's?? Should I check mine too?? LOL. Hey Nicole every religion is different. Don't feel pressured just hang out and see what you thinka bout each different thing. Hopefully your friends aren't trying to make you figure it all out. Just got to MOPS and hang out. You will know what works for you and what doesn't feel right. I think going to MOPS is a great support system for ya and just see where it goes........... I go to church too. Not as much lately as I want to which might contribute to my stress levels.....:-) But I think it s a huge help and a great support system for me and my daughter...........been going to the same church for..............ah 22 years so it is a good support system and being a single mom I like that backup............been involved in religion for all 38 of my 38 years...........sometimes I hated it as a teenager but now it works for me.............meets alot of my ongoing needs for some foundation values and a a support system..........I grew in in church and I like to think I took the best of my religion and left what doesn't work for me behind...... As I always like to say religion is a groups relationship with God but spirituality is about my relationships with God. Religion without spirituality doesn't mean much to me. I worry about people who focus on religion over spirituality. But religion should not confuse you it is suppose to be more of a support system..........only thing I can say is be careful of people who try to push a certain religion on ya to much. I always get concerned when someone is trying to force me to see things the way they do!! I am also considered one of the liberal people in my church so maybe you shouldn't listen to much to me!! I am willing to talk about religion on here..........obviously!! LOL!!

Did I say I am upset about the animals getting killed in 3 days and not getting their full five?? Oh dear that has me as upset as my possible layoff..............makes me naseaus really!! I mean CPS need the money but OMG all those babies in the cages..............ok I just can't think about that anymore!! I can't stand animals being treated like that!!

my eating is not great right now either Reggie........that is why I am still checking in cause I don't 'feel like checking in the last week!! LOL. I just wanna chill when I get off work but I am afraid where that will lead............... Down two pounds today. But that is 2 of 4 I was up...........I don't know if I will get a fill or not since I am not losing. I will be luck to be back where I started. GEt this stress and TOM and still not tight...............wouldn't even know I have a band!!

Thanks Reggie I know a couple of months from now this will be a memory!! I have been through worse before.........I know the good and bad cycles around!! I think this is my chance to make a career change and do some stress reduction. Dr. Baggs and Liz have and Dr. Schue........is that the pyschologist name at Kaiser bariactrics.......they all have talked to me before this and changings job......stress is not good for health. Riley: I am a legal writer you betcha I am putting in a legal disclaimer on all my cases. "Due to the budget Social worker Paxton has been instructed to close out this case without completion of six months of services. It is the assessement of said Social Worker that the family would have benefitted and the safety of the children would be better addressed if the families were monitered the full six months. However worker has been instructed by supervisor and PM that cases MUST be closed out on this date with a safety plan in place. It is the assessment of said worker that this is not adequate plan to protect the children in the home. Due to lack of funding it appears the children will be a greater risk of abuse and or neglect in the home. SW Paxton is not in agreement with closing the case at this time but is following through on order from upper management." Not sure how it will go over but I am not up for a lawsuit right now. Alot of my co workers are doing the same thing.

Riley I am really close to stess leave. I am on a waiting list to see a psychiatrist though!! 2 months so it won't happened real soon. Seriously I might not have insurance by than.......but I could easily get stress leave at this point. We have two people in our office out..........seriously someone died this week in our office.....she got laid off Friday and dead monday morning..........she was stressing big time.........they don't know what caused it but stress didn't help......another lady out with a stroke. She ended up in the hospital two hours after her pink slip..........of course all overweight and health issues before........I am glad I at least have some weight off me and I am feeling better physically..........I don't want to end up on stress leave if I can help it!! Maybe whe the dust settles if I am still so stressed out........... I made sure I got the Celexa today. Asked Dr. Baggs he said he couldn't do it. But I chased my PCP down and diagnosed myself!! LOL. I know what I needed to say to get it done today. I wanted Paxil but ok I am gonna try this other one cause it is suppose to NOT cause weight gain which is always my concern. Effexor did nothing but bloat me up so I stopped................50 is six months ah no thank you!! I know the kids are not my responsiblity. But if one dies I get fired immediately. And I can be sued. We were told to get liability insurance this week cause things are gonna get crazy and the county can't defend/protect us against personal lawsuits......everyone is gearing up for the worst. I started the Celexa tonight. Still on the BP meds too. I have been having heart pain all week and still the light headedness. I was home from work yesterday. I think the fainting has alot to do with all the ups and downs at work and the frantic pace we are trying to keep.............not getting enough sleep and my house is a daiaster right now!! Letting that go...... Found out today the job I applied for is in my mom's unit so I can't get hired. I have to wait until another position comes up. My mom and I can't work for the same supervisor.............but hopefully something opens up in November in a different unit.......... I have a three day weekend and I need it!!! Than training next week Mon-Wed and than Thrusday a group fill. So tomorrow and next Friday are my last days at my current office. Suppose to get my reassignement letter on Friday than my forlough letter on the 25th. We are going to forloughs two days a week starting November 8.............. Going to bed. I am not on as much cause I am to tired but once I get my second wind or the Celexa kicks in.........:-) I will be back online more!!

Talked to Dr. Baggs today......he said fills in Vacaville start in October!!! I am also gonna take Celexa for anxiety. I seriously can't tell with the ups and downs at work. Yesterday I had a job today maybe not..........it has been six weeks of them pushing and pulling all of us this way and that..........also they are on us all day to hurry and get work done becuase we only have a week left of full staffing............we have 1000 kids to shut their cases in 6 days...........I don't know what will happen cause to all these kids.......probably some of them end up in a morgue.......I hate to be gruesom but I am closing things out that have no business being closed.......really scary stuff!! But I have to take care of my stuff and I can't function at this stress level so getting an anti anxiety med tomorrow.............hopefully that will help me get through all this craziness..............

Hey Heather I think it is 2.9 million that your Department is losing. Just came out today the updated information but Sheriffs had someone at the BOS meeting to argue it. Something about the losses would be when people quit they would not rehire up to 23 positions........they said field deputies is where they would pull from!! I don't know much more than that........so maybe not layoff but frozen positions and no rehires for up to six months to a year. Again I only sorta heard all the details..........I think they are hoping people re-tire Upset to hear that they plan to only give animals 3 days and not 5 to find a home...........makes me sad but I get why that has to go........... I am way to stressed out right now!!

Yea Jes!! The budget deliberationswere put off until September 22 now. Turns out the budget got 8 million dollars worse int he last six weeks and instead of restoring services they plan to lay off additional workers in the next two weeks......than planned cuts again in January. So who knows. They wanted the weekend to figure out what to do...........I know the Sheriffs department is up for another hit now!! Heather you hear anything?? So I don't know. I do know I gotta get outta here as soon as I get another job. I think CPS in Sacramento County is not gonna exist in a few months.......... They did say the had the 3 million to help CPS out this morning but a last minute budget/state update showed them that tax revenues fell another 14% in the last six weeks. So they said the 3 million restoration is off the table now due to being another 8 million in the hole....... I don't get it but I am worried about Sac County. They are now talking about laying off field deputies again so you know it is bad.................. Not sure what else to say!! I am taking the first job I am offered to get outta here though. I will get cut later this month or January if the budget and tax revenue doesn't increase at some point..................our county is bankrupt!!

Thinking about you Jes!! Your just about ready to get banded!! Will be checking the clock today and waiting for an update to hear your doing ok?? So excited for you!!

Good luck Jes!! You'll be fine!!!