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Candra don't be to jealous my head hunger is playing mind games with me. I really need to stick to liquids nothing is staying down.............I tried again today to eat and it came back up. I need to go several days without a PB.........at this rate with my head hunger I am not winning the battle. I want to eat something not drink something. MOnica the port will hurt for awhile but it gets better. I also slept in a recliner for about 2 weeks........I was mostly just really tired and sore for almost a month. Now I feel fine.........Of course I am six months out now. But by 6-8 weeks I was totally back to normal.......not just getting fills and losing slowly. I really, don't think a fill is a good idea. I am thinking 5.5ccs is it for me...............I think I am done. I am 202 this morning so two more pounds and I am under 200....... I keep telling myself that at 198 they band will loosen up so that is my goal...........hopefully the liquids don't mess with my metabolism!! So far it is helping though...... Me and this crazy band........

Hurts to much to eat right now...........letting things settle. I had the flu this weekend and all the throwing up made my stomach swell. So my band is really tight. I don't want an unfill so I am trying to chill and let the swelling go down............if it doesn't in a few days I might need to get some taken out..............I think it will go down. The flu and the band don't mix well though.........

Hello All Just working and trying to stay on course. My band is to tight the last few days. So weird it suddenly tightened up..........it has been three weeks. But doing the liquid thing. I have lost 5 pounds but I need to lose more so I can loosen this thing up a bit.... They announced more layoffs today. 45 in CPS. But no forloughs. I think I will survive this cut too. But barely and I probably will get another transfer..........this is riduculous all this moving from job to job. Well headed for a bubble bath and bed soon :-) Hang in there Tamra I totally hear ya girl!! Try to call Kaiser and see what they say..............

Have fun Pam!!

Hello Wantshealth. You and I started out at the same weight!! Same BMI too. YOu must be about 5'5 or 5'6 right?? Exciting your on your way. Yep you said it. Work is uneasy. Perfect word. Fits exactly. More layoffs will be announced on Tuesday this week I think. Forloughs or layoffs on the talble. I don't know what they decide but I think forloughs might be better. But like Jes said I have no control over what happens..... Well I am home with the flu today. I was thinking the band was being picky but after two days of nothing settling right I have decided I have the flu...........Hoping it gets better I don't went to slip my band. Just nothing staying down so I am giving up and going back to fluids for a couple of day........yuck, yuck yuck!! But at least it is the weekend so I can rest and sleep it off!! Have a great weekend all!!

popsicles and jello here too!! Other than that I didn't want anything to eat.......................mostly slept all day the first few days and ate a bite or two when I got up. Truthfully I was to sore to wanna get to the frig so that deterred my eating too..........getting up and down was a pain so I tried to stay put as much as possible...

LOL!! Candra I am down to a 36 from a 42 but cup is still the same too!! LOL. Sadly everything doesn't shrink!! I am so tight today I can't eat anything. Protien shakes I guess. TOM so not a suprize. Nothing staying down at all today. I just don't think a fill is a good idea for me....if I was any tighter Water would be a problems. Nicole hang in there girl!!

Heather I don't know but I won't re elect them!! LOL. I am just sorta watching the mail for my layoff notice. I am already ready for the forloughs but I am actively looking for other jobs too........... I am sorta just sitting on it and seeing how it goes. I am pretty mellow right now. Just sorta chilling and seeing what happens I think there will be lots of changes for me in the next year..........I am losing weight again!! Happy about that. This celexa has me totally mellowed out.............:-) Feeling pretty good about life at this point. Just know changes are a-coming for me........... Off to the hospital tomorrow to see two pos tox babies. Both for marijuana so not gonna take the kids but gotta try to get the mother's into some kinda of treatment......wish me luck!! :-)

Oh I got asked to be back on the leadership commitee at my new office.............I guess my reputation as an advocate preceeds me!! Not sure yet if I want to get that involved............

Well I don't know what is going on with the county right now. They are going to start forloughs in two weeks. I am suppose to get a lay off notice by the 23rd...........I have to accept a part time position or quit. Not sure how it will all turn out............they are layin the whole county off and hiring them back part time only.......... So I am considering my options. ............I will probably stay until something better comes up but I am sorta tired of not knowing from day to day if I wil have a job. That and CPS really is messed up right now without 222 workers................things are falling apart. I think the political games are just as stressful as the actual job. I am sorta getting to old to get involved in all the drama.................I think the county lives the drama. They keep sending us more layoff emails and telling us to tell our unions to back down immediately.......again like I said stupid games!!

Yea even with Baggs I sorta felt a pull to go RNY.......but he didn't really push me either way. Just the statistics made me think I should go that way. But Dr. Baggs did say being a vegetarian that RNY could be a problem for me..............but even when I asked him to pick he said no.........you pick!! I wanted Dr. Fisher for the reasons Candra said. HE started bariatrics at Richmond and that impressed me......but I am glad I got Baggs his personality fits mine better..........

I loved Baggs!! But orginally I wanted Park or Fisher.......I took Baggs because he was the first appointment and I lucked out!! TOM for me too and I am cramping like crazy too!! Hoping my weight drops after. No wonder I was craving sweet the last couple of days. Where is everyone!! Or course I am on finally and now no one else is here............****feeling sorry for myself****

Job hunting right now............checking out Kaiser. I don't know I am sorta liking my new job too. But I am not sure about the long hours..............to be honest things have been slow lately at work. I was bored yesterday. No pos tox babies born so I sat and waited all day!! From what I hear when things speed up you get 2-3 babies born in one day!! Feast or famine I guess. I asked for more work yesterday cause I was bored and my boss said we have no new cases yet today so I waited until 5pm and still nothing...............but I am waiting for that feast day where I have to much to do and to many babies to deal with..........

I bet you get a fill Candra.....I lost 12, gained back 4 .....So lost total of 8 and still got a 2cc fill the first time..........so up to 5cc's pretty quick...........I am 5.5cc's right now and at my sweet spot......I will see what happens in a a couple weeks ................but right now I can't handle another fill. I am down 5 right now.......another 5 in two weeks?? I don't know but if I keep losing I will want a fill .................. Missing everyone. I am home with a sick kid so I am catching up on everything..........yea!! I so needed to catch up and get my place clean............ I agree this band is a good thing for me!! So glad I did it!!

I have to eat slow and pause between each bite..........that is the only way I stop in time. IF I get to talking to much or eat to fast............I PB every time. What is really hard is eating out. Like last week I ate to many chips and salsa before my food came. I only took two bites and was done............my friends were like you don't like it........I did but I boxed it to take it home. Akward to sit there and not eat with food in front of you and people worry your not eating..............I try to remember to pace myself so we all get done the same time. Geez I didn't think the chips would fill me up..........wrong!! Really awkward moment.............since they don't know about my band!! Anyone else have that............I couldn't even take tiny bites to try to fit in...........I was to close to a PB to chance it........... learning new stuff all the time..........

Yea broccoli gives me trouble even when I didn't have a great fill........... Yea Candra. I have to pause between each bite and sorta "feel" if I can eat more.............there is this "feeling" like one more bite and your gonna PB........don't know how to explain it but I certainly do know when to stop..........sometimes I push it and pay for it though. I get the hiccups but after it is to late. LOL. I wish I got them before like you Pam. Candra I am six months out now and I think the last 6 weeks or so I just started to realize when to stop. I mean I just sorta have got the hang of it...........takes some practice I think and learning the signs and just knowing your body.........and I found the post op diet hard too.........I started salads way to soon I know that for sure...........I didn't do to well on mushies and softs......once you get a fill you will be good!! LOL. You just can't eat much even if you want to...... I was mad a few days ago cause I bought subway and only got 4 bites before the full hit.............I felt I wasted my money..............and I wanted more than that...........but I truly was full............head hunger. I ended up eating a few more bites for dinner and.........took me all day to eat a 6 inch...........maybe I should have given up............but I did eat it in a day.....before I could eat a foot long in 15 minutes....... So the band does work even when it pisses me off it does...........LOL!! :-) No more subway for me though. Waste of money I don't really have...........

Yep that was a PB candra!! I can't eat broccoli at all just doesn't work. Wait until you get more of a fill!! LOL. I am also realizing I need to stop with the bread again. It is back to bread not working again. 5.5 cc's is a great fill for me I guess!! I am way to full right now.........I barely ate this morning. My band is really tight the last couple of days with TOM and all. I don't know if it will loosen after but if not I DON'T want a fill this month. I will wait until next week to decide but I don't want to get to tight again. Well best wishes to all!! Welcome beatrice. Everyone is right you'll be fine. Worrying before hand was much worse than the actual surgery for me...............all that worrying for nothing!! :-) But I do tend to be a worrier anyway. I find I worry about stuff I can't really control and it stresses me out. Seriously it was nothing like I imagined..............

WAtching the Kaiser website for medical social worker jobs the last couple of weeks...........nothing close to home yet unless I want to work per diem.............I might do that one weekend per month just to get my foot in the door........... ok melatonin just kicked in I am gonna be out here really soon!!!!

Oh next weekend is out for me. I have plans already!! But the 24th I am there............. Donna will be glad to have you back home!! Riley I am doing ok. Truthfully I am. Lots of changes the last year and I feel more coming. Seems like when I stared this journey a year ago I was just preparing for a total change in other ways too. So glad I have my health so that all this choas the last month has been easier. A year ago moving jobs would have killed me.........now I might kill someone if they don't stop playing games with my job I just think alot o changes are coming and who knew a year ago how much things would change for me...........I had no clue this has been surreal. I started the journey on NOvember 7, 2009...........so almost a year and a world of difference in alot of ways. Next year?? Big changes too I just feel it.............funny thing was a year ago I was trying to find another job and finally gave up in April after the county went on freeze.......ironic in September I got a new job..........so I got what I wanted in a twisted way...........just thinking about all that tonight.............weird stuff.........

Hey everyone.........headed to bed. My job is fine don't get me wrong. Just really different and not sure I want to stay here forever. Gonna try it out but also thinking about other options. I sorta feel unsettled right now. Like this is just a stopping point to another destination. I don't know exactly why I feel that way.....maybe I don't totally trust what the county is up to and I sorta know more moves will come along after Christmas and that could again change my position if I don't get laid off. The county is talking massive layoffs in January so hard to feel settled anywhere within the county right now.........Maybe that is why I sorta feel restless like this is not my final destination. I am not unhappy where I am at. Just not sure about it yet...........certainly alot more time consuming even if not really harder. Sorta the same but different enough that I have moments of confusion!! Candra I was exhausted for about 6-8 weeks. Even going to the store wiped me out I would have to take a nap. I slept 12-14 hours a day for a month than early nights after work........but my energy came back. But I felt weird to being so wiped out all the time..........it is normal for us Prius's I think...... Great week to all. I put all the Halloween candy away today. Cleaned my house and back yard. Getting ready for the storm.......put my patio set away and the umbrella down for the winter. Ready for fall to hit now!! I have a few blisters but my yard looks great and totally winterized.

Nicole I fixed your ticker...........you go girl!! Back to journaling again today!!

Oh I didn't get the other job I applied for. Turns out my mother got the position and we can't be in the same unit. I didn't know she applied. It sorta irratated me since she told me to apply too. But I guess her old position will be posted in two weeks and I can try again. Just don't know I sorta want to try to make this other job work if I don't have to to tons of overtime.................hard to make a choice went you haven't been on the job long enough to know what your walking away from. But again I am working Emergency response.............so that does indicate late hours at least sometimes during the week.............you can't control when an ER call comes in than you have two hours to get out to the hospital or home.............and ah working with pos tox babies...........well they could be born ANYTIME!! I went to a home last week that smelled strong on THC. It was crazy. They guy was high as a kite but tried to deny it. I was going to tell him that his wife and baby were pos tox in the hospital and he was the safety plan. Ah yea right.................so that blew my plans and I had to start with a new plan at 4pm. That sorta stuff is what worries me cause you can't plan or control it. I like to work fast than go home. But that seems to be out of my control. I did ask for more work last week cause they had me sit for two days and I can't sit for long. I need to be out moving or the day drags to long. They looked at me like I was crazy!! :-) But seriously one family to work with in two weeks. Boring!! :-P I am used to having 22-25 families to deal with a day!! LOL. I hate sitting not doing anything..............I guess my old job ruined me!! I start on the official rotation tomorrow so we will see how crazy it gets. They let me relax the last two weeks but it hits full force tomorrow...................wish me NO LATE NIGHTS this week!! :-P

Evening all.......... Riley I hear you on the balance. I think that is what I have had to do lately with the new job and all the changes going on. I am still doing ok with the weight loss. Slow but steady. But I have had to really focus on learning a new job and getting use to getting up earlier and the commute. The weight loss was my focus over work all summer and I had to balance things out a bit to survive. For awhile there it was all work but now I am back to a little bit of everything. So I totally hear the learning to balance. Heather I quit school several times. Got married, had a kid got divorce and went back at 24. When for 7 years straight while being a single mom. graduated at 31. So it is all good. I took about 6 years off before I went back. I don't recommend the divorce and single mom thing... but don't stress to much. And what I heard from the county is that it will take 2-3 years before things stablized again. I am on the supervisors list but until things stablize I can't move up either. Reggie: Glad your back. :-) MIssed ya. Of course I haven't been around as much either but ya know it is all good. I read up on the forum even when I don't post...... Candra and Jes: Doing good ladies. Can't wait to see you again. Jes I have an appointment on the 29th at Pinole. Where is yours? Pat: welcome to the group!! NICOLE: where is nicole?? I am worried about her. she hasn't been online much lately or chat. Well down 5 pounds this week. I guess my fill took awhile to kick in. I really can't eat much. I get stuck easy. I think that 1/4 cup thing is what works. 4-6 bites and I have to stop or PB. Again don't know about a fill on the 29th. Well see if I lost another 5 next week than maybe..........I am just perfect right now. I am at the sweet spot and so glad to be back. Maybe .25 at this point .5 would be a problem..... Pam: YOur who I forgot. Yep I lose slowly too. But I am feeling really good lately. Like being in 14's and some 12's. I just feel good so whatever else I lose is a bonus for me. I am already feeling more comfortable being me. I still want to get down another 25-50 but I am ok with slow. That unfill slowed me way down. But back on a roll since the last fill. 4 more pounds and undert 200..........I am hoping for that before the 29th......than my next goal is 180 after that.....................from there we will see since I will be under 30BMI......... Well wishing you all

My ticker is back to normal again!! It is actually telling the truth once more!! LOL. Jes and Candra your in bandster hell I went though that too. I lost 12 after surgery gained back 4 and settle in at 8 until I got enough of a fill than it started to come off again............I am the slow loser of the bunch. But I am down almost another 20 since than so it does come off...........but I was pissed off that I went through bandster hell for so looooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggg..................my luck!! :-) It will get better!!

Good luck to all those walking today.............have fun!! I am down three pounds this morning and I ate alot yesterday. I guess I needed to :-) But probably not the Halloween candy ;-0 I do have restriction but starting to feel it slide away. So I guess a fill on the 29th is probably a good thing. After than I probably won't go back until December......I am pretty close to my sweet spot right now. Maybe I will only need .25 this time?? But I need to see how much I lose in the next two weeks.........another five would be really nice~~ Oh off to spend the day with my girl.............