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Yea I hear ya on the head hunger stuff.........I have been dealing with that all day today. I know it is head hunger. I am going to bed cause I am tired of fighting it. THat is the good thing about having restriction the head hunger fades out........for me at least. When I don't have restriction it kicks back in. I have been reading a book on mindful eating and it has alot of the same idea Riley. So far I have learned to slow down, never eat and drive or watch TV and never skip lunch at work........:-) It is important to set time aside to eat..........ok on chapter 3 and reading a bit everyday. But a good book............I think it is called Press Pause before you eat or something like that........good, good book.

Yea Pam I hear that. I think that is where I am at. I can have more of a fill but I have to prove I can lose without it first. Sorta like pre op. I know I won't be going any higher that 5.5cc's unless I lose a ton of weight. But I have 44 to lose now and by the time I lose that and could have a bigger fill I will be at goal. So yea Pam I hear ya. I feel like in some ways I am on my own too. Well and the thing is we have to always be good or we could gain it back with sliders that is scary too.

Ah Tamra I am losing slow too but we will both get there!! I hear ya, I hear ya....................but stick it out and don't give up. It is worth it to be banded :-) I say that even with all my ups and downs. You have been under alot of stress give yourself a break!! Perfection is not expected just get back up and start again :-)

Yea Pam I am getting strict again but I started today........darn it!! :-) I have to get done five pounds at least and I don't want to have to drink water for three days before I go!! Better to start now............and have a bit of a cushion to work with!! night all!!

I am off and on and and that Pesto egg things sounds really, really good.............I love Pesto!! I got this egg thing at starbucks that had pesto instead of mayonaise and it was so good. Gave me the idea. Oh Robin things I am not losing fast enough. She thinks that my band has been to tight for a long time and I am eating sliders. I am not 100% in agreement with that. But I am doing a food log for her voluntarily. I was to tight after having the flu and it didn't get better to I got an unfill. She says two unfills means I have been to tight for awhile and got to many fills to fast.............in other words she is saying I can't have a fill until she tells Dr. Baggs I can. Dr. Baggs argued it a bit from what I heard but anyway. She said 10 pounds he said 5. I am not that worried. I am sure it was having the flu and throwing up for three day. I just wanted a break and to get rid of the flu and this croupy stuff. To hard to be sick and so tight. I am trying not to enjoy this time to much!!! But anyway it forces me to be more motivated which is not a bad thing!! :-)

Carbs are NOT my friend. I tried to stay away from them. Nothing white for me, flour, sugar and flour. If I do eat carbs it is whole wheat...........but hmm I don't even do that much. I have not eaten pasta in 7 months. Bread off and on but I ate what I can "fat bread" the kinds that has lots of roughage in in so it is sorta thick and .........oh yes lets me honest dry!! My biggest problem was snacking/sugar and diet coke. Snacking is still hard. Diet Coke. Well it has been 7 months and I don't miss it anymore. Now Vitamine water 10 orange or peach flavor. I drink that stuff instead and LOVE, LOVE, LOVE it!! I am vegetarian so things are a bit more complicated for me since I don't eat animals!! LOL!! I am suppose to try meat this week!! But I could gag and slip my band!! LOL. NO really I am gonna try it so I can tell Robin I did. I made this Egg McMuffin thing tonight. So good. And mostly protien. 1 egg, Morning star farms veggies sausage, reduced fat cheese and Hearty grain ENglish muffin. It was so, so good. I wanted two but only had one!! Tomorrow morning I know what I am gonna have!! This is my new breakfast thing. I am hating eggs but need to eat them again after talking to RObin this way they don't taste so yuck. I could add some salse or pesto to for a condement!! Hmmm.........but it was good plain too!! Ok I gotta clean............:-)

Ah fun pictures!!! And I would have been under the bridge too if I was there. That is so, so funny!! LMAO and was not even there. 12 pounds in 10 days?? That is great. I am going back the 1200 although Robin said I should not be able to eat that much with the band. Ah I think I can............... I need to drop fast again so I can get a fill!! I have just a tiny bit of restriction but nothing like before. I am know I can eat at least 1200!! ;-P But I think I can be more than full with 1200!!! And I lost well that way before. Today was a good day, yesterday ah nope. I had frozen yogurt which I know is a no-no and some popcorn!! Work is going good. Liking my new job better than what I was doing before. Finally settling in :-) I have had only one 10pm night in a month so hopefully my luck holds. I am finding out I was very, very bored at my old job. Here it is quicker and faster and I have to think on my toes..............kinda liking the faster pace!! Well back to cleaning my house. Yep I wanted until last minute :-)

Robin wants the 10, Dr. Baggs said 5. LOL. Typcial!! Robin said at least 5 for a fill but 10 would be better. But that is two 1/2 weeks so it might be more like five!! :-) Nicole your right about it getting worse and worse and worse..........once it starts hurting if you don't address it than it does start hurting worse.

Hey everyone!! Riley I love the new picture!! I really need that head hunger class. I can't find anything like that here in Sacramento. I got put in an anxiety/stress reduction class. Which is a good think but I think the head hunger would be even better. Ok I talked to Robin for a long time today. I am not getting anymore fills until I am down 5-10 pounds and I am doing a food log for her. We both agreed that this up and down stuff is no good. We talked about RNY and she told me she is glad I didn't do that one!! She said being vegetarian it would have been a problem. We talked about eating some meat for protiens. But nice to have her to myself even if it was only on the phone. I think she thought I was gonna argue the weight loss before a fill but I agree. I am tired of all this up and down. I have to get back on track and get really strict again. Oh yea it is 30x chewing your food NOT 20!! " LOL. So I hope I am down at least 5 by December 4 so I can get a fill. But truthfully I think I have to just keep losing fill or not. I have 40 pounds to go I can't lose momentum now!!

Ah my gym has zumba it is fun stuff. I also go to the glow aerobics and hip hop classes..............I just joined again yesterday and trying to find a class that fits my work schedule. The gym closest to work doesn't have any classes after 10am..............I might try to find a class after worker closer to home. My daughter likes the hip hop classes so I might try to find another one that she can do with me.............

Riley you are basically at goal!! :-) I joined the gym today. I have my bags packed so I can go during lunch break tomorrow. I absolutely have to start exercising again. I did snack today. Ahhh...........I am always fine until nighttime. Ahhh....popcorn today. That is what did me in. Chris so glad your back around :-) Pam I am so glad faces is not just a gay bar. I have alot of gay friends at work and they all hang out there. LOL. I wanted to make sure you were not getting a surprize. I hear thay have a drag queen fashion show there!! Have fun and tell me about it. Heather I wanted to do walk to feed the hungry but I am going down to LA to see my sister..............work says no time off next Thanksgiving so I will plan for next year!! Maria just a few more days!!

Feeling a little better!! Thanks Jes!! I have a bad cough that I can't get rid of but it is not keeping me from work and errands :-) Looking at gym options right now. I have got to get back on track. Eating good stuff but to much!! Been really, really thirsty all week so drinking until I float!! Have a great weekend all!!

Oh Riley I did eharmony once and thought it was very well done. Just expensive..........so make use and meet everyone you can before your membership expires!! I think that is a GREAT way to meet people cause that quiz you take in the beginning is very through. I thought it was a good compatiblity test they do!! I have your shirt too Riley. I am down another size now so it is too big. But sure loved wearing it!!

Pam so glad you joined a singles group. Sounds like your giving up on Mr. Non commitment. BUT...........Faces is a gay bar?? Are you sure that is where your going?? Spanx are the best!! I have them and LOVE them. Wore them today. I hear ya all about running trying to catch up with the band wagon. I had a bad day today. Ate to much sugar. I am going to sign back up at the gym tomorrow. THat is the only way I am gonna exercise. I am determined not to gain weight even with this unfill. I really only needed like .5cc's out and I would have done good. But I just decided I don't have to have a great fill to lose weight. LOL. Talked to Nicole this week. She is really busy. She might need an unfill I think she was working on that. She was PB'ing to much like me. I call Kaiser quicker cause I am not into toughing it out to long.........I don't like being to tight as you all know. But she is doing ok. She is really, really happy she left..............things are going good. I miss Chris too. I know she is busy she is on facebook alot. Been wondering about Candy?? Anyone hear from her at all??

Candra you can tell you have lost 40 pounds!! Ok Dr. Baggs has not said much to me about what NOT to do EXCEPT.........don't gulp water. I am waiting for the next appointment cause I think I am gonna hear it a bit after my unfill.......... I still have restriction today. How strange is that ...........I am sure it will fade. I gained two pounds back :-( Gotta hold it there and not go higher. Seems like getting rehydrated adds some pounds. I drank so much water the last two days............. Ok so I went to my stress managment appointment today. I am officially stressed out and in need of stress management. I start a class on Monday than for 12 weeks one night a week I will go to anxiety managment. I don't need counseling!! LOL. I had six years of counseling before and she said she thinks the group is better. If I think I would one on one counseling later I can call her. She specializes in anxiety and stress so I am excited to go to her class and see what I can learn!! She was really nice!! I sorta wonder if all my stress makes my band get so tight?? It is an idea.......... Ok off to bed ladies and gents!!

Hey Ladies and John :-) Problems with the band? Not many. My problem is that I get tight fast. Some people have fills up to 8cc's. I am good at no more than 5.5cc's. Anything more is to tight for me. If your to tight you just can't get enough fluids in and you dehydrate. Also you can PB alot and that tightens up the band for me. So you get caught in a circle if your to tight. Dehydration and PB'ing together make you tight. When you are tight you can't drink alot and PB which makes it worse. That is why I called for an unfill before I got to that point. I know how it goes. DON'T try to deal with to tight get some out..........throwing up and dry heaves and the flu are in my opinion a reason to get an unfill :-) Other than that no problems with the band for me. I lose slower than most. But I don't exercise everyday just about 3-4 times. I think I could up my weight loss if I change that. So I can't complain. Planning to get back into the gym since my WII fit is not my favorite way to exercise. I rather do that treadmill. First week after surgery was the worst for me. Just really sore. But it fades out. Very tired but that fades out too. About the port............hmmm I don't even notice it. I mean if I think about it I know it is there. And I can feel it if I touch it. Well sometimes jeans touch it and than I feel it but it doesn't hurt. Ya know hard to explain you feel it but you don't............LOL!! I checked out the sleeve last night. Oh dear they take out 60% of your stomach. Now that is just as dramatic as the bypass. I don't get why/how that is less invasive than the RNY? Maybe the malabsorption issue? Hmm....I thought it was something a little less invasive........Nicollie what did Dr. Fisher say about the sleeve? What did that paper say. Do they offer it or just for special patients? I don't know much about it. Well headed out to work today. I think I am feeling better but well see as the day goes on.............:-)

Hey Pat It wasn't that bad. I think the ER thing makes it sound bad. I just know that water is a huge issue. If I could get fills in town it would have been no big deal. But since richmond is so far I feel like I have to make quicker decisions..........I was a bit embarrassed to be in ER actually. THere were some seriously sick people. I was just thirsty!! LOL. I kept telling them that....:-) But I guess it is the best way to get seen and the quickest. I didn't want to take another day off work.....I got home by 6pm so I did good. ER was not very full.......but lots of waiting and lots of questions about the band and bariatric surgery. Everyone wanted to know how much I had lost ect. THey said other people come in for unfills and they don't get why we go through ER when it only takes 5 minutes!! They all were very postiive about the band.........and so was I. They aske me even when it gets to tight and was like I will be fixed in a few minutes!! I walked out of there and drank like 30 ounces of vitamin water before I left...........LOL. I kept telling them I AM OK!! But liability I guess........I was a liability. Oh yea I got a mental health and vital signs exam before I could leave. No I am not suicidal I am THIRSTY!! Nice nurses one was in the post op room and remember me. Oh dear that might be a bad thing............LOL. So no I think it sounds worse than it was. At least I know I can always get an unfill if I need to. Just darn drive over there...............so happy about vacaville!!

Ok so I am talking to people on the other forum. They are saying I should get an x ray or barium swallow to see if I slipped my band?? Are you serious? I don't think things are that bad. If they were wouldn't Dr. Im have ordered an X ray in ER. He did tell me that at some point it might be a good idea if the band tightened again....but seriously he acted like it was probably the flu that caused the swelling!! Should I be worried?? Ah Disneyland in two weeks. Last year I could barely walk the whole day and was to tired to walk back to the hotel that night. I mean I barely, barely survived the day and was happy when it was over..........Disneyland and the day was to long!! Seriously!!! IT is gonna be so different this year.

I could use an emotional eating class too!! Holidays are coming and I think I will be ok but maybe not?? I have a stress management class tomorrow. I forgot about it I was signed up in September when I was so stressed out with work. Now with a little Celexa and a month at the new job I am chilling!! LOL. But I am gonna go cause that is how I can get referred to counseling!! I am still on the waiting list. I sorta want that lady Pam had........but I am going to see who Kaiser refers me to tomorrow. I can't believe it has been a year since I started this journey!! Wow alot has changed!! Down sixty pounds and a new job. Been to Africa and back. Had surgery. Ended my love affair with Diet Coke.......I feel so much better and am in a much better place than a year ago!! Going back to work tomorrow!! Feeling alot better. I hate being sick!! Stupid cough but I actually ate something tonight so I declare myself cured!!

Oh I got the H1N1 because I work in hospitals alot now. And I got the mist. Thinking about it I could have gotten sick at work/hospital too......I forget how much time I spend at hospitals nowdays. Doesn't matter. What matters is I need to keep losing. I don't want Dr. Baggs to take my band because of all the ups and downs. He said we were chasing our tails to keep going back and forth with fills and unfills. So I am a bit worried about that.......I know we both decided no unfill than five days later I need one. Sorta wonder what I am doing wrong?? But feeling better tonight and all my water is down. Boy does a bit of water make a huge difference!!! :-)

Hmmm.....I was at Pinole with alot of sick kids while we waited for our shots. I don't know. I might have been explosed in sacramento too. Yucky stuff.....I am going to LA in two weeks so I gotta get better!! I like Dr. Im he was really nice and seemed like he knows what he is doing!! I think he is a bit more conservative with fills than Dr. Baggs though. He wanted to take out more than I wanted out. But I still have alot of restriction today so maybe he was right on. I was impressed with him though!!

Maria get banded. The good thing about the band is that you can get an unfill if you need to. Oh I didn't know about the acid reflux and sleeve. I had GERD really bad before surgery but nothing since. The band cured my acid reflux. The only reason I said I might eventually have to convert to sleeve is if I keep getting to tight than Dr. Baggs might think that band is not working for me. I am waiting to hear what he says at the next appointment. Like he said we want me to lose weight not keep playing around with fills and unfills. Which is what it FEELS like I have been doing.......I have no idea why I get so tight so fast. I just do.....but other people go and get unfills. That is how you deal with it, it is fixable. And I didn't need to go to ER I just needed an unfill. Lots of drama for something that wasn't a big deal. But now I can say I tried out ER.........:-) First time!! Nothing like I expected. No rushing around or bring red lights or dying people or anything!! :-)

I went and got an unfill yesterday. I got to meet Dr. Im who I really liked!! He was really nice!! I have the flu and can't keep anything down. I thought it was the band but seriously I am still throwing up today and have the runs (TMI i know). So I am just plain sick. But my band swelled until I could not even drink water on Monday. I waited until Tuesday and realized I had to get some water in since I was throwing up so much. So I called over and asked them to take some of the fill out until I can get 100% well. I also have the whole chest congestion and cough. Pretty miserable and so glad to have some fluid out so I can focus on getting better. I still have restriction today and everything is sore. Throwing up (not PB'ing this time, really throwing up)and the band don't mix to well. I don't want to gain though I am liking being under 200. So I am doing the water. Right now I have no appetite anyway since nothing stays down. So far I am still doing ok but once I feel better I will have to be strict with the 1200 thing again. I am waiting until after Thanksgiving to go back. Sorta tired of the fill/unfill routine but don't wanna slip my band. I sorta wonder if I should revert to the sleeve at some point. My body seems to fight the band for some reason. I should have got the unfill when I saw Dr. Baggs last week but I wanted to try and make it work............. The carafate was a great idea but I could keep it down. The taste was making me naseaus so it didn't stay down. I had to go to Richmond ER though to get the unfill cause everyone was in surgery or down in Vacaville yesterday. ER was worried about me and I kept telling them this is NOT an emergency I just need some fluid out.......LOL!! But Kelly told me that was the quickest way to get an unfill :-) She actually came down and saw me in ER too which was nice!! My first trip to ER. I had to wear a mask cause of the flu thing. I am seriously hoping I don't have that pig thing!! LOL. Did I mention I got the flu shot on Thurday for H1N1 and regular flu and promptly woke up with the flu on Saturday?? I know, I know they SAY you can't get the flu from the shots but I wonder........this is the second flu this month. I must be immune by now and I hope my band forgives me for all the trauma!! LOL What a day!! I guess I got my trip to Vallejo yesterday ladies!! Sorry I didn't get to see anyone!!

I can't come but if I could I would vote Vallejo since it is closer to me!! :-) Weekends are crazy for me right now. My daughter has tutoring on Sunday. And I hang out with family on Saturday and try to catch up from the week. I lost my 9/80 so I don't have the extra day anymore and I am feeling it!! :-) Happy to have a job and nice to go home at 5 instead of 6 so there are trade-offs :-) I was out until 10pm last friday night working. I got a late ER call. So that sorta bites into the weekend. But OT is nice!! So I can't come and join in this time!! :-)

Hey Ladies and John I am around. Reading and keeping up with the posts!!:-) Been really busy at work and with my daughter Volleyball Team. Worked late Friday night and didn't get home until 9pm. Not much going on. I am losing. Now officiall down 60 pounds. This band is to tight but I am losing like crazy so I know it is gonna loosen up here anyday............ I think I am like 14 down since the end of September. So isn't that enough for things to loosen up a bit?? By the next fill I will be down 20 easy........... So things are going well. Just wish I could eat some salad but give me a couple of weeks and I will be able to again!!