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I will sound like an asshole for saying this but honestly the thread got way too big way too fast and I got overwhelmed to read and respond to it all. I know exactly what Im doing wrong and its basically everything. Im not following their directions. It's gotten to the point where lately my diet has consisted of shitty Cereal, tortillas and Peanut Butter. I have the cereal in the morning, I have the peanut butter burrito for an easy togo snack, and if I have a banana I slice some up in there too to make it a little bit more nutritious. I feel like I cant talk about this with my psychologist because shes never worked with a bariatric patient, and she doesnt know what lines to cross (I think). Im not sure if she knows when she should call the doctors (for the surgery, not general doctor I'd see for a general health check up, if i was feeling sick, etc.), and when she should call my mom. Im an adult by law, but I havent been an adult for long, by mentality/emotionally. Its so easy to get discouraged and do bad things. I dont take my Vitamins because they taste like shit. I dont drink my Water because the tap here is horrible in the general area Im living. I drink the alcohol I bought because its present, even if it was at 10am like today which shocked me. I guess me posting on here is me reaching out saying I need help. I only come here when Im desperate. When I spent 20$ on an Applebees meal (applebees appetizer sampler and a diet drink with like 3 refills), I know I fucked up.

I'm failing my surgery. I'm doing everything they said not to do. I'm not taking my Multivitamins. 'm drinking with a straw (since the stomach pains went away like 1 month out) I'm drinking carbonated drinks. I'm drinking alcohol. Typically beer or long islands. I'm a little worried about that because I had a beer and napped at 10:30 this morning. Never did that before. I'm eating shit. I just went at Applebee's and had myself the full appetizer sampler. I feel like I'm going to explode. I swear I shouldn't have gotten that surgery. I went from 315 to 268 now I weighed myself at 280. The fact I can't cook and living on my own doesn't help. I can't turn to my mom because she'd just freak. She invested a lot in this, but sometimes she forgets I have too. I don't know what to do. I'm not maintaining anymore. I'm worried

Can I overdose on emergen C if I drink 2 or 3 a day? I just got a cold and I want to nip it in the bud. Any other advice, home remedies with things I might have in the house?

Then in this case anything is a slider...

In that case...yepp..

Oh...yeah...I have had maybe 5 bags of Mission tortilla strips (not all at the same time, spread over the course of like 2 weeks) but I can typically finish the bag within an hour or two.... What do you mean by sliders? Just like snacks?

1) My problem is Im f**king up my sleeve. Done.....theres no denial. 2) Like what? :| 3) I am?

It makes me happy that you remember me. Im scared because my mom has anxiety disorder and will want to do everything in her power to get me back home. I'm going to PM you for the sake of my "identity".

I did that but when I had cooked it, it tasted rubbery. tasted perfect, but the chicken my mom always made tasted like really dry and tough. Not a bad thing, just two different textures, and the only time I have had "rubbery" chicken was like...at a fast food place (PRE-surgery.....cut me slack) when I would get chicken tenders.

So Laura you're saying you can (right now) physically eat a box of cereal? See I thought the whole point of the sleeve was for you to NOT be able to do that! Unfortunately for me, Im living by myself so I dont have a husband (or in this case..a wife or s/o) that can cook me food

A george foreman grill sounds nice, but I have no idea when things would be done. I had a scare the first time I cooked chicken via stove (put butter-Pam on it) and wasnt sure when it was done or not. I dont have the expenses to do a lot of things so beef, rice and eggs are all cheap..

@Tink 22, no I am more like 3 months out now, maybe more around 4. * How can my surgeon tell whether or not my stomach has streched without opening me up? * Does hair fall out, regardless of whether or not you take Vitamins? * Im in counseling right now but I feel like I cant be open to her, because she will think of me binge eating as an act of self-harm which it isnt. And then she will want to talk to my mom about it, or have me talk to my doctors which Im not comfortable about it!!! Indecision, I am eating crap. I mean sometime Im not. My diet as of late has consisted largely of ground beef, rice, and eggs. Usually put together in various proportions. Easy to make, easy to package, easy to take to school. I dont know how to cook so it doesnt help....

Jesus I feel like you all think Im an alcoholic or a soon-to-be.....

I threw up once when I had Cookies and Water, and I probably took too big of bites. I have had scares, but the only time anything has came up was once. And I learned my lesson to limit my drinking and eating at the same time. What are some dense Protein foods that can keep you full? eggs are apparently dense protein, dont do **** for me. Doesnt help that I cant cook. Doesnt help that I can eat a full bag of cereal and not feel a thing. I dont know how to take personal responsibility when I THOUGHT that was the point of the sleeve, to help me out. All it did was make me hurt like hell for two days, hurt bad for another 7, then be sore for another so and so weeks. TJL, Im mid summer. I have been taking my Vitamins once a day, maybe three days a week or four, when I want to be taking them twice a day seven days a week....Maybe thats why Im losing hair so fast. Its a bit disgusting. And guys Im not an alcoholic........I dont know why you got that picture. Alcohol now gets me soooo drunk that before I used to control myself, now its harder. I remember taking a shot of a 100 proof vodka and almost immediately felt it. It just goes through me.....

Im posting this on another account (because my "identity" was compromised) but I actually remember talking to you Laura...and I remember you specifically telling me that once you move to full-foods its harder to eat. It was for the first week but it is nothing, anymore.

Also, the whole "Im not an alcoholic because Im in college" is bullshit too, anyone with a brain can know that. Its like saying just because Im a professional gambler doesnt mean I have a gambling problem or something like that. Regardless, the alcohol isnt the problem, its the food. People told me I would be stuffed. People told me I wouldnt be able to eat, that I would throw up if I pushed myself. And guess what? I threw up once, and that was enough to know that I should not drink (Water......) after eating a whole lot, and I should definitely chew a bit better. Other than that....yeah nothing is really working. I wonder if its possible to see how much my stomach stretched.

Oh no, i like drinking. Its not about me not being judged, its about wanting to unwind and lose my inhibitions. But so far the sleeve has failed me, or i have failed it. I kind of hate going back to those checkups with the doctor where I can pretend to be open with him and the nutritionist.

Last night I drank a whole bunch for halloween, and during the past four days or so I have gone through like almost 4 boxes of Cereal, and not the good kind. I see people post on a support group Im in (not sure why Im in it..like...it does nothing for me but see people succeeding...yay them...) All this surgery did for me was make me drop like 60 pounds in the matter of 6 weeks or so, and made me not handle my alcohol at ALL. So I'm THAT guy when I go to college parties. And by THAT guy, I mean the guy who is the most drunk. I dont want to be the most drunk. I wonder if my stomach stretched all the way out? I never feel full anymore. My hair is falling out at an alarming rate, my shower/bathtub is a mess because I have like tens of dozens of hair strands just all around... yay life.

Weird. Did you stop taking them like me, or did your body stop absorbing them, even postop? I wonder how much of an effect Ill feel if I start taking thm. Honestly I stopped because it felt like a chore for something Im not sure if I needed....

Youre sure? Tired and fatigued is a sign of lack of vitamins/minerals?

My diet has been pretty **** to begin with, I go cookie galore....but in general I have just stopped taking my Vitamins. Still take my meds though. See, I stopped taking my vitamins for like 3 weeks, and Im..say...a little shy of 3 months post op.... And medically I havent felt much of a difference, but I notice that I am just TIRED and always feeling parched/dehydrated. I feel, ironically, the only time I can get hydrated is when I take liquid through a straw, because I gulp my liquids and that causes me to burp, versus a continuous stream... But tired is my main thing. Im not sure if thats just because I stopped taking them a week before school starts, but I notice Im just always tired. Its not even a depression thing either. I know when Im depressed, I get apathetic as f**k, I just dont care. This is just more like mental exhaustion/fatigue....