So last night went to cookout, drank a few margarittas which completely throws my "you should really stop eating" voice out the window and I ate about 1/2 a bag (family size) of M&M's, chips, hamburger, potaoto salad, macoronni salad, 2 pieces of cake!, and then a few glasses of full sugar iced tea. I came home so miserable and depressed wondering why on earth I do this to myself?!?!?! And we have a vacation in two weeks and I'm already depressed on being the largest person there and having to wear a bathing suit. I am really hoping that the band will STOP these insane episodes. Am I right to assume that knowing if I eat too much I will throw up will keep me from doing this? I HATE to throw
up! I really wish I had done this months ago. Hopefully I will be scheduled for surgery around the 20th of July. I just keep thinking...this will be my last vacation at this size!