ok ... i am supposed to be back on track today. ate a balance bar for Breakfast, had a south beach wrap meal for lunch today..

my 'snack' ?? 2 pieces of pizza. 2 pieces from a 14 or 16 inch pizza .. what the hell am i doing????

this weekend went ok ... no major drama with my parents, why am i eating it? we actually pitched the rest of my daughter's birthday cake because i was petrified that i would finish it (1/4 sheet cake). so why did i eat the pizza? well, i guess the logical answer would be because it was there ...

i knew i was doing the wrong thing as i was eating it, but i didnt stop.

i thought i was past that point to where i had to get rid of food so i wouldnt eat it. i feel so discouraged... :cry

You sure you want to get a fill right before Christmas? I got my 2nd fill last Tuesday, and I'm still struggling trying to get back to solid foods. I almost went in for a slight unfill, but am trying to tough it out. I've had to redefine what a "small bite" is, and what it means to "eat slow". I thought I was doing both, but this fill is kicking butt.

I don't know about you, but I'd hate to be overfilled at Christmas, or still doing mushies.

Tami

hi Tami,

I figure I have eaten enough the past 34 Christmases to be able to not pig out this one.

i have a very aggressive goal and if i am on slight mushies for Christmas that is OK. the plan will be liquids Wednesday, mushies Thursday and progressing to solids after Thursday.

i am going to have to learn to not associate that "OH MY GOD, WHAT AM I GOING TO EAT" mentality with the holidays. i figure this will help me do that.

I'm going in for my second fill on wed too! I have had the exact same feelings you have...why are we so hard on ourselves?? There is definitely a feeling like I'm grieving for the loss of food. I'm also able to eat A LOT! I can't wait until I reach the sweet spot. Good luck on your fill tomorrow!

I'm going for my 2nd fill tomorrow!

I can eat just like pre-band, not fun!

This time of the year with all of the office parties and family dinners makes things very tough. I too am struggling and feel as if I am losing. I have had 3 dinners in the last week and have gained 4 pounds. I am trying to get back on track today. I actually emailed my nutrionist to see about getting a fill before Christmas to make this stop. In her words... focus on the protein and leave the Christmas cookies alone (easier said than done). That the cookies, candy, cakes are going to go down easy so a fill wouldn't help much if I continue to eat that way (which she is right) So Today Is A New Day I Am Going To DO THIS.:zip: