I'm not 100% sure exactly what's going on with me, so I'm going to try my best to explain my situation.

I got the RNY 2 months ago almost to the day (my anniversary is tomorrow) actually and I've experienced struggles like nausea, lack of appetite, etc. which is pretty par for the course so far.

My issues with nausea, getting in fluids, Vitamins, and Proteins, etc. had me feeling weak and tired constantly. Having to get IV fluids earlier this week helped put into perspective that I have to do better.

My situation was eye opening, but it wasn't particularly scary or traumatic. I've definitely been in the hospital for worse things and I've felt worse physically.

But I can't stop thinking about the future and the consequences of continuing to not get in enough fluids and Protein. The thoughts are literally scaring me to the point of having issues staying relaxed and sleeping well.

It's almost as if I think that I’m in immediate danger or that I’m going to die or something soon. I think the idea of suffering and THEN dying is giving me more anxiety than actually thinking about imminent death itself.

This probably sounds silly, but every day I feel scared and worried. I'm doing better about things but I'm not quite meeting my Fluid and protein goals yet.

I'm sure this is all exasperated by the fact that I don’t have a job or a regular schedule (I stay at home all day) so I have a lot of time to spend alone with my thoughts.

I have experienced this mortal terror twice.

My Mom died of a blood clot. Her doctor said it was superficial, nothing to worry about. Take an aspirin and see me in the morning. Clot broke loose and killed her before morning.

2 years later I was giving birth to my son. Right after he was born I had some red, tender veins in my leg. The hospital checked me for clots. They told me it was something that sounded like clots, and the nurse said not to rub it because they could break off. I FLIPPED OUT! I was gonna die, leaving my newborn baby. I lived in mortal fear for several days until I went to my OB, and they explained that I didn't have clots, it was just inflamed veins, and they kept me on heparin to make sure I wouldn't get them.

The 2nd time, I was on the phone with my brother, he was coughing, and I was coughing. A week later, he was dead from blood clots in the lungs. I was still coughing, so before climbing on the plane (he got the clots from flying) to go to the funeral, I went to the ER to get checked out to make sure I was ok. My cough was just a cold, but having the doctor tell me that really helped.

Mortal Terror is the WORST. Try to figure out what you need to hear or experience to put your mind at ease. (Obviously talking to doctors helps me ).

Edited February 14, 20179 yr by Berry78

Hello
I just wanted to say that I suffer from anxiety and yes it's awful and the fear can be very tough, so tell your doctor it's important you do and with the right therapy you will see this through, deep breathing in and out is one of the most powerful tools to overcome anxiety and relaxation music too, be kind to yourself it's the bodies way of protecting you and in some it manifests in anxiety and it needs to be addressed by a professional. You will be ok darling x

Hello
I just wanted to say that I suffer from anxiety and yes it's awful and the fear can be very tough, so tell your doctor it's important you do and with the right therapy you will see this through, deep breathing in and out is one of the most powerful tools to overcome anxiety and relaxation music too, be kind to yourself it's the bodies way of protecting you and in some it manifests in anxiety and it needs to be addressed by a professional. You will be ok darling x

Thanks!

I chickened out and told my doctor that I changed my mind about going on an antidepressant.

I see a therapist for the first time tomorrow and I hope it helps.

I already feel better now than when I first made this post, but I’m still having sleep problems.

Thanks!

I chickened out and told my doctor that I changed my mind about going on an antidepressant.

I see a therapist for the first time tomorrow and I hope it helps.

I already feel better now than when I first made this post, but I’m still having sleep problems.

I have terrible problems with anxiety and depression. It took me a year before the doctor could talk me into taking antidepressants. That was quite a few years ago and quite frankly the best decision I ever made.

After WLS I had about a week of struggling with anxiety, but it eventually got much better.

The therapy session should help you and if it doesn't then you either need to find a different therapist or consider taking the antidepressants. I tried biofeedback at one point and that seemed to help quite a bit. Sometimes it's just a matter of redirecting your mind to happier thoughts.

Another thing that has helped since my surgery is coloring. I cannot read due to my lack of concentration right now, but I could color for short stints at a time and it helped me to relax. Just food for thought!