I have paid my deposit & paid for my airline tickets... all that is left to do is to wait. Tick tock... tick tock.

I am worried about the recovery time. I am feeling guilty about spending that much money on myself. I am worried about the burden I will be on my family as I recover... and learn to eat again. I hate making my family worry about me... ugh. I am the one who is always the caregiver... now its their turn to care for me... I don't like that so much.

I have great support from my family. My husband (who loves me the way I am) is supporting my decision. My children support my decision, although they don't think I am "fat".... My mother is crazy worried about the fact I am going to Mexico to have it done, but says she supports me no matter what. I love my family so very much. I am doing this for ME. And honestly, that is the hardest part for me.

I know I am worth it. I know I deserve it. So why all this damn guilt?

5'2" 200 lbs. I need a change. I turn 39 on Dec. 8th and I REALLY want a "new me" for my 40th birthday present.... I just don't want to carry all the guilt for being so selfish.

:/

sometimes, you need to be selfish! ppl have a misconception that being selfish is a bad thing. its not! we need to be selfish and take care of our selves! youre investing into your future, your marriage & your kids lives!

I have paid my deposit & paid for my airline tickets... all that is left to do is to wait. Tick tock... tick tock.

I am worried about the recovery time. I am feeling guilty about spending that much money on myself. I am worried about the burden I will be on my family as I recover... and learn to eat again. I hate making my family worry about me... ugh. I am the one who is always the caregiver... now its their turn to care for me... I don't like that so much.

I have great support from my family. My husband (who loves me the way I am) is supporting my decision. My children support my decision, although they don't think I am "fat".... My mother is crazy worried about the fact I am going to Mexico to have it done, but says she supports me no matter what. I love my family so very much. I am doing this for ME. And honestly, that is the hardest part for me.

I know I am worth it. I know I deserve it. So why all this damn guilt?

5'2" 200 lbs. I need a change. I turn 39 on Dec. 8th and I REALLY want a "new me" for my 40th birthday present.... I just don't want to carry all the guilt for being so selfish.

:/

Your definitely not being selfish...just think of how much better a healthier you will be for your entire family. Congrats on making this life-changing decision, good luck with your surgery, i'll be sleeved in December too!

Thank you, ladies. I appreciate you taking the time to read & respond to my post. I think this is a great way to work through some of my worries & concerns.... talking to other wonderful people who are going through the same process, or have already been through it.

Good luck with your sleeve in Decemeber!! I would love to know how you are doing pre-op .... maybe we can be "pen pals" through the process? I am excited... scared... and of course dealing with the aforementioned guilt.

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i am also praying to be sleeved on december 20th!

Good luck with your surgery. There is nothing wrong with doing something good for YOU! You are worth it! The sleeve has been one of the best decisions of my life. I wish you the best!

I don't think you are being selfish. I, personally, wish I had done this years ago. I'm not sleeved yet and don't have my date yet, but I do think that it will not only make me healthier and happier...but feeling better about yourself help you be a better person, mommy, wife, daughter...everything. Think about it. How many activities have you avoided because of your weight? Because you feel frumpy and fat in anything you wear? I think if had had this tool years ago, when my children were growing up, I would have been a lot more active with my kids. So look at this as something you are, once again, doing for your family. Because they WILL benefit, too. God Bless!!

Good for you! I can totally relate! I am already 39 and I just started the process to get sleeved on November 7, 2011. I wished I could get sleeved before the end of the year. I'm hoping at lease by the first of the new year. I have been wanting to lose my weight before my big 40th birthday! But that only gives me till first week of June. I'm looking forward to hearing how it goes for you