Hey everyone...I have been lurking here since right before my surgery on 9/15 and I have to say that you all are all inspirations and support in many different ways. I now am joining the ranks--officially... And I need to confess. I know that I deserve to get blasted-- I made a really stupid mistake and I could have hurt myself etc- I am not here to justify my actions but I am moving on from it but I think that in order to so I need make sure that I hold myself accountable. I know you all understand and have been there/here.

I made a really bad food decision today. Twice. I am cleared to eat solid food (had appointment yesterday) and haven't had any issues with drinking, eating, etc since my surgery. Only gas pains and some random port incision pain. Mostly everything that I have eaten since my surgery-except cottage cheese---almost tastes like absolute poo--kind of metallic. eggs, Jello, pudding, all Soups, all juice-sugar free and non sugar free-doesn't make a difference. All thru the liquid, mushie--it all tastes gross. Not that I have really been actually hungry. Warm tea with lemon tastes good so I have been drinking TONS of it.

So- I fell onto old habits in sheer want for the taste. I had 2 soft shell tacos from Taco Bell for lunch that I ate really slow. Tasted gross and I was disappointed in myself but learned that they are not worth the effort. Kind of felt sick cuz I am pretty positive it was more than my 4 oz max. So what do I do? Go after work and get a MCD's cheeseburger and small fries. I havent had MCD's for like 6-8 months, maybe more. And I feel REALLY sick to my "stoma" and very full. Didnt taste worth it either.

Hopefully, I didn't hurt myself--kind of freaks me out but I just needed to get it out there.... No more food secrets. Thanks

Surgery 9/15

200/190/130

Actually a kids cheeseburger with only the smaller bottom half of the bun has become a staple for me. It's just the right amount of food, high protein, easy to get down, reasonable amount of calories. Kind of high in fat but if the rest of the day balances it that's ok.

Don't beat yourself up!

About the metallic taste, I had that issue too, for about a month after my surgery everything had a funky bitter taste. Thank goodness that has passed :crying:

thats awesome we are banded on same day. good luck with your fill. :crying: i go for my first on oct 29th. right before halloweeen. mmm wonder if its planned?? lol anyhoo keep me updated how it goes for ya. im dying to see how a first fill is