I hate that my before picture looks like a mug shot. My mom made me take it the night before my surgery. I remember being cranky because frankly I was starving after my two week pre-op diet and because I normally avoided full body shots at all costs. Looking back now, I wish I would've taken more before pictures. I am 15 months post-op and I admit that the number on the scale isn't quite as low as I had originally wanted. As a 25 year old with no children, I look like I've had 10+ kids when I'm naked - so I always wear clothes. While I'm thankful beyond words that I had the opportunity to have this surgery, I feel a little disappointment. I prayed my whole life to be "skinny", I felt that this quality about myself is what kept me from being truly happy. If I were skinny, I could make a lot of friends and find a man who wasn't ashamed to be seen with me. Now I get more positive attention from men and more negative attention from women, mainly those whom themselves are currently overweight. Basically, the guys who previously wouldn't give me the time of day are suddenly more interested in what is under my clothes than what is inside my brain and the girls I would normally be drawn to befriend look at me like an outsider. I am terrified to put myself out there and date because inevitably the clothes must come off and I don't think I could bear that kind of rejection. To say it has been an adjustment is a massive understatement. I used to be the fat girl with the cute face that made people laugh... I got along with everyone because I could never say no or stand up for myself. I feel like the same person inside, but I don't want to be that girl anymore.

Sorry this turned out to be kind of ranty.

I just wanted to share my experience with those who are pre-op or considering. Be realistic with your expectations and goals. At first, the physical results will come fast and with little effort. The biggest obstacle is mental and there's no way to prepare yourself for that.

Much love to everyone!

Thank you for Sharing your story . I find your story motivational and comforting as I'm going through a wad of emotions as I await my surgery date September 12. So thank you very much for sharing you look amazing keep up the good work !!!

I hate that my before picture looks like a mug shot. My mom made me take it the night before my surgery. I remember being cranky because frankly I was starving after my two week pre-op diet and because I normally avoided full body shots at all costs. Looking back now, I wish I would've taken more before pictures. I am 15 months post-op and I admit that the number on the scale isn't quite as low as I had originally wanted. As a 25 year old with no children, I look like I've had 10+ kids when I'm naked - so I always wear clothes. While I'm thankful beyond words that I had the opportunity to have this surgery, I feel a little disappointment. I prayed my whole life to be "skinny", I felt that this quality about myself is what kept me from being truly happy. If I were skinny, I could make a lot of friends and find a man who wasn't ashamed to be seen with me. Now I get more positive attention from men and more negative attention from women, mainly those whom themselves are currently overweight. Basically, the guys who previously wouldn't give me the time of day are suddenly more interested in what is under my clothes than what is inside my brain and the girls I would normally be drawn to befriend look at me like an outsider. I am terrified to put myself out there and date because inevitably the clothes must come off and I don't think I could bear that kind of rejection. To say it has been an adjustment is a massive understatement. I used to be the fat girl with the cute face that made people laugh... I got along with everyone because I could never say no or stand up for myself. I feel like the same person inside, but I don't want to be that girl anymore.
Sorry this turned out to be kind of ranty.
I just wanted to share my experience with those who are pre-op or considering. Be realistic with your expectations and goals. At first, the physical results will come fast and with little effort. The biggest obstacle is mental and there's no way to prepare yourself for that.
Much love to everyone!

You are gorgeous (I LOVE that dress!) and you are Enough.

You look so beautiful!

U look so beautiful

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They fix our stomachs and it is up to us to fix our brains.... The latter is soooo much harder! You will get there. Finding the right person is hard and tedious. Be patient it will happen. Let your inner light shine!

They fix our stomachs and it is up to us to fix our brains.... The latter is soooo much harder! You will get there.

I love this


Band to SIPS/SA-DI/LOOP DS 8.8.17
HT: 5'6ish HW: 242 SW: 226 CW: 206 GW: Healthy

Thank you for Sharing your story . I find your story motivational and comforting as I'm going through a wad of emotions as I await my surgery date September 12. So thank you very much for sharing you look amazing keep up the good work !!!

Thank you for your kind words. Good luck on your surgery!! You'll do great. Don't be shy with the pain meds hehe. But it's not that bad, really. I just remember sleeping a lot and hating the people who kept waking me up so I could drink liquids haha

They fix our stomachs and it is up to us to fix our brains.... The latter is soooo much harder! You will get there. Finding the right person is hard and tedious. Be patient it will happen. Let your inner light shine!

You are so right!!! Sometimes I feel like my brain is even more crazy than before lol. Right now I'm dating someone who I know isn't for me... he knows it too. But we both kind of need each other to combat the loneliness. He's recently divorced.

I hate that my before picture looks like a mug shot. My mom made me take it the night before my surgery. I remember being cranky because frankly I was starving after my two week pre-op diet and because I normally avoided full body shots at all costs. Looking back now, I wish I would've taken more before pictures. I am 15 months post-op and I admit that the number on the scale isn't quite as low as I had originally wanted. As a 25 year old with no children, I look like I've had 10+ kids when I'm naked - so I always wear clothes. While I'm thankful beyond words that I had the opportunity to have this surgery, I feel a little disappointment. I prayed my whole life to be "skinny", I felt that this quality about myself is what kept me from being truly happy. If I were skinny, I could make a lot of friends and find a man who wasn't ashamed to be seen with me. Now I get more positive attention from men and more negative attention from women, mainly those whom themselves are currently overweight. Basically, the guys who previously wouldn't give me the time of day are suddenly more interested in what is under my clothes than what is inside my brain and the girls I would normally be drawn to befriend look at me like an outsider. I am terrified to put myself out there and date because inevitably the clothes must come off and I don't think I could bear that kind of rejection. To say it has been an adjustment is a massive understatement. I used to be the fat girl with the cute face that made people laugh... I got along with everyone because I could never say no or stand up for myself. I feel like the same person inside, but I don't want to be that girl anymore.
Sorry this turned out to be kind of ranty.
I just wanted to share my experience with those who are pre-op or considering. Be realistic with your expectations and goals. At first, the physical results will come fast and with little effort. The biggest obstacle is mental and there's no way to prepare yourself for that.
Much love to everyone!

This is super inspiring, thank you! I'm going into surgery in just a few minutes im 26

This is super inspiring, thank you! I'm going into surgery in just a few minutes [emoji4] im 26

Good luck!![emoji256]


Band to SIPS/SA-DI/LOOP DS 8.8.17
HT: 5'6ish HW: 242 SW: 226 CW: 206 GW: Healthy

You look spectacular !

This is so amazing. I am currently 4 months post op and I hope one day I will be where you are. It's crazy because I still feel like I was before :/ but, I am down 102 pounds. What was your starting weight(if that's okay to ask!) I love this post and you look amazing!

This is so amazing. I am currently 4 months post op and I hope one day I will be where you are. It's crazy because I still feel like I was before :/ but, I am down 102 pounds. What was your starting weight(if that's okay to ask!) I love this post and you look amazing!

That is amazing! How much of that did you lose pre-op? Thank you so much. After about 4 months I remember the loss slowed down quite a bit. Just keep getting your protein and water in and hang in there! Time totally flies, especially that first year. Every once in a while you will wake up and have lost 2 pant sizes it seems like. I kept my wardrobe small, bought clearance items and bought whatever I could find that was reasonably cute and in my size at goodwill. I was constantly running out of clothes that fit me appropriately. I still have a hard time tossing some of my old stuff, can't figure out if it's because I'm scared of seeing just how little clothes I have or I'm scared I might need them again.

Height: 5'5" HW: 280 SW: 268 CW:162