This is the longest I've ever stayed away from the board since banding. I guess I've come back now because I need the support that I've received in the past now more than ever.

I was trucking along with my little band pregnancy and everything was going great. We even had an ultrasound and saw the heartbeat. That was awesome. I had maintained my weight so far and had every reason to be so estatic about this whole experience.

This past Monday morning I woke up cramping and bleeding. I went to the ER and found out that I was miscarrying. I was at 10 weeks. I'm devastated. Even though I know this is God's way of taking care of things that probably weren't right, I am having a terrible time dealing with this. I feel such a loss. I want our baby back. I loved feeling pregnant. I feel like someone took something away that belonged to me. My husband has been wonderful. He's been very comforting and loving and has even let me use him as a punching bag a time or two.

I try to stay positive and think to the future and that we'll get another chance. But every ounce of me is greiving for this child that I had already fallen in love with inside of me.

Sorry to be such a downer...

Hey girl, I can't find the right words, but I want you to know you're on my mind and that I'm here.

I am so so sorry. My Prayers go out to you and your husband that God comforts you Both.

Grieve and know that your LBT family is here.

Daisydoodle-

I'm so sorry for your loss. I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers.

Be kind to yourself- lots of rest.

Take care.

I will say the same thing I just said to Kimber-lilly, Give your sorrows over to God and make peace with this. I know this is a hard time, but I also know that God will give you a baby when the time is right. Everyone at LBT is here for you, just know that you have an extended family right here waiting for you, to feel your pain, listen to your grief and send you love. ~Mandy

My thoughts and prayers are with you!

I have not personally been throught it but you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers. I can only imagine what you are feeling right now. Take your time we are are all here for you!!!! Big HUGS yours way!!!!

Oh Daisydoodle-bug, I'm so very sorry. I cannot begin to understand your pain, but I share it. I"m so sorry. I know how excited you were. Peace be with you dear one.

Nicole-

So sorry for your loss. I'm glad you came back here for support...let us know how we can help.

Thinking of you,

Megan

I'm so sorry, I can't even imagine what your going through

Dear God please comfort and give Nicole strength during this healing time in her grief.

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} Keep your little one in your heart and know that God takes care of all His children. I lost one also, and she is always in my heart. {{{{HUGS}}}}

Nicole, I'm so sorry for your loss. I don't have anything deep or spiritual to say -- just that I'm another bandster who's thinking of you. Thanks for letting us know what you have been going through.

(( Daisydoodle)) -- I've been through it a few times, I know you are really hurting. Hang in there honey.

Nicole- I am finally reading your sad post. Your angel is watching over you & your DH now & will forever be a pillar of strength for you. Its so sad to say that these things are common place now but they seem to be. The GREAT news is that normally when this occurs most are pregnant very soon after & all goes perfectly & a healthy little one enters our world.

My thoughts & prayers are with you & hope you heal mentally & physically quickly. I just know you'll be feeling that wonderful feeling again soon:0) (((Hugs)))

Thank you all so much for your kind words, thoughts, and prayers. I'm dealing with this much better this week and I have a more peaceful acceptance of it all.

I'm trying to focus my energy back on my band. Yes, it's time to jump back on the "bandwagon." My weightloss was put on hold and if I'm gonna look super hot for NYE I need to go back to being a good little bandster.

Thanks again for your support and encourgement. Everyone that posted brought me comfort.