Hey sleevers,

Idk if anyone remembers me, but I was scheduled for my sleeve 10/14/13 and backed out 12 days before surgery. I told myself I had to give it one good shot, since I hadn't really tried on my own since having my baby in May. Well, I lost 30 lbs but I'm stuck at 260 and I'm back in this vicious mental cycle that I have been in for years.

I called my surgeon today, and most of the paperwork is still valid. My insurance changed from bcbs to healthplus of Michigan which is an HMO so I have to get prior auth and stuff, so that part sucks, but I'm hoping to be rescheduled for surgery within the next couple of months. I'm kicking myself in the ass every time I get an email notification from the October sleevers group. I could be looking and feeling fantastic like all of them by now. It's all part of the process, I suppose.

Anyway I just wanted to say I'm here for good. One of the reasons I backed out is because the Preop diet made me feel like death and there was no way I could take proper care of my patients feeling that way. I know now I will have to take that period of time off from work.

If anyone has experience with health plus hmo I would love to hear about it. I'm glad to be back! Thanks for reading.

Thank you all for the encouraging words. I know I can't be the only wishy washy person to ever do this. I went clothes shopping today, what a horrifying experience. If I ever start doubting my decision again I'll just go try on some jeans

I started looking into WLS more than 3 yrs ago. Was looking into lap band( I had never heard of VGS )At the time, my insurance required a 6 month waiting period. Twice during the waiting period I chickened out thinking I could do this on my own. Fast forward to oct 2013 and a girl I work with was sleeved. Our insurance no longer had the 6 mths. Wait period. Called my dr, went for a visit in on dec 10th and had my surgery Feb 18th. So glad I did not have to wait 6 months for my brain to start giving me negative thoughts and be 20 lbs heavier. Having my sleeve was best decision ever. And kinda glad I chicken out before and didn't get lap band.