Today I feel like maybe I should leave well enough alone. I have only ever been hospitalized for my 3 totally perfect pregnancies. Beautiful labor and deliveries with no drugs and no stitches. My A1C is perfect. My blood pressure is 110/70 on average. I have energy. I don't have heartburn or nausea or frequent headaches. The only thing that's wrong with me is appearance. I look like shrek. Let's face it, I'm doing this for selfish reasons. What If I go prodding and cutting and stapling and then have to deal with throwing up and malnutrition and hair loss and passing out and feeling weak and being cold? Will I really be happier then?

I'm 25. I know things could go downhill fast. My dad is diabetic. Also my maternal grandparents. As a nurse I've seen the devastation that diabetes can have on a body. But should I just leave things alone until there's a legit medical reason for this surgery and not just how I fit into clothes?

*to become a*