jbhedge2

Hello to all Fellow Bandsters,I have been overweight all of my life.  I can remember when I was in second grade, my mother got my pediatrician to prescribe weight loss pills for me. I did gyms, diets, and even a Weight Watcher member when I was in high school…   I fully understand all the risks that are part of being obese.  I am living them right now.  I have high blood pressure, sleep apnea and severe snoring, fibromyalgia, high cholesterol, joint pain, rapid heart rate, and depression.  Theses are several of the diagnosis’ that are results of being obese.  There are others that luckily have not struck me yet, like diabetes and heart disease.  I do realize that I am just barely away from these also.Exercise is very difficult, because of the painful joints, and I get out of breath so easily.  I have finally realized that if I continue on the path that I am heading, I will not be here in 10 years.  I have anticipation of a grandchild sometime in the next year or so, and really want to be around to watch him/her grow up. There are going to be so many obstacles in front of me just now, less than 2 weeks from surgery!    I guess just putting it out there, FOOD will be the largest obstacle.   I LOVE FOOD.  I love to eat it, I love to sneak it, I love to cook it!!!  I know that I don’t have to have it in the amounts that I have been consuming, but in that brings me to an additional obstacle, my will power….As I am going thru this ‘getting ready phase’, I have been reading the information, booklets, blogs, advice and get so excited  I can hardly wait.  Then I stop and think about the little moments…. Going to dinner with my husband, we will have to learn to compromise on what we eat, because I would be eating from his plate.  How long will it take before he gets tired of that?  Will he begin to resent me?  Dr Walsh says that sometimes saving your life can destroy a relationship….will he be ready to step up?  What about dinner parties, etc… I have so little willpower,  I will need a monitor to keep from eating.   But then, won’t I have my small stomach as a monitor?  It won’t let me get out of control without horrible results…. I am counting on that being my monitor!Then there is exercise….I am very LAZY…been that way most of my life, but I need encouragement for that.  Will I be able to figure out how to get the required amount of exercise in each week?  So many of the bloggers say that the couldn’t wait to exercise…I just can’t hardly believe that could be true.   But, I will try my best….Then there are the good lifestyle changes…. Clothes!  Being able to buy clothes in a regular size is something that I can hardly fathom!!!  I don’t ever expect to see myself in a size 8 but just to be able to wear a size 14 will give me such a feeling of success that I won’t know how to act!!!   Being able to bend over, get in and out of a chair without effort, getting down on the floor to play with my future grandchildren, and even being able to get up!!! Sitting in a booth in a restaurant and not having to worry about the space, not being winded when walking at the mall, not feeling my body pulse when I stop walking!!!  These are the thoughts that keep me going and knowing that for all I am giving up, I am gaining life!!So, there you are....me, all exposed and vunerable.  Wish me luck folks!  I am scared to death!!!  I am just 9 days away to a whole new life.Any and all advice will be greatly appreciated and would love to know all the tips and tricks of the 'tool'!  Thanks, Jayne