jojocath

I am 60 years old and have been struggling with my weight since I was a child.  I was a normal weight up to the age of six when my tonsils were removed. After that I was always chubby and different versions of fat to obese.  I have tried many diets and been successful at all of them. I just cannot seem to keep the weight off.  As some of you will know (not being aware of any one's age) the older one gets the more difficult it is to lose weight. That compounded with health issues that arrive in your 50's and 60's (diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, etc).  My doctor is actually the person who suggested I consider the lap band.  That was a strong message to me that I had to do something soon about my weight or I would not be living to the ripe old age of 80.  I began to research and read everything I could get my hands on about the lap band. I went to the surgeon my doctor recommended and after a battery of tests and of course insurance approval, met with the surgeon and scheduled my surgery.  A week from today I start my new life.  I have read so many testimonies on line and I am so excited to begin this journey.  I actually met two people in my pre-op testing that have had the lap band and were very supportive and excited for me. They both told me how happy they were to have done this procedure and would do it again in a heartbeat. that was very encouraging to me. I must admit that I am anxious about next week and getting nervous.  Two of my three children have been very un-supportive and do not want me to do this.They are afraid I will die. I am trying not to let that get into my mindset. My husband is extremely supportive and my sister as well.  I only have one sibling so it is very important to have her on my side.  All of my best female friends that I have confided in are equally supportive. I am blessed in that way.  The one big issue I am having with this surgery is telling people about it. I am trying to get past the embarassment I am feeling.  I would like to be able to tell everyone but I am so afraid that I might fail and then everyone will know.  I am trying to stay positive and upbeat. I am looking forward to becoming more physical. I have always been moderately physical (golf, walking, playing outside with grandchildren) but my weight and age have become prohibitive and I hate huffing and puffing not to mention the total disgust with myself when I get on the floor to play with the little ones and need help getting back up.  I will not miss that.  I am also looking forward to going shopping and not have to go to the big girls store.  Oh to buy off the rack and look in the mirror and be pleased at my reflection.  I am to largest women in my group of friends (which is nothing new) and I am sick of it. I long for the day when I can borrow a sweatshirt of sweater from a friend knowing it will fit me and not just hang on my shoulders. Anyone who reads this and wants to email me some words of support and encouragement I will be thrilled.