june13sleever

No regrets. I love watching at the people be stuffed after eating and I am just slightly full. I still have great restriction after a year and two months. My doctor's goal was 180, my goal was 170...I weigh 165 and I am still losing. I lost 4 pounds last month! I do not see it. I know I am waaaaaay thinner, but I still feel thick. I take pics...that is the way I notice. I hope to lose another 15, but where I am is pretty fabulous!

No regrets. I love watching at the people be stuffed after eating and I am just slightly full. I still have great restriction after a year and two months. My doctor's goal was 180, my goal was 170...I weigh 165 and I am still losing. I lost 4 pounds last month! I do not see it. I know I am waaaaaay thinner, but I still feel thick. I take pics...that is the way I notice. I hope to lose another 15, but where I am is pretty fabulous!

I eat it all! I didn't really eat anything bad for the first 7 months because therms wasn't enough room. Maybe some ice cream, but it was like a spoonful. I love movie theater pop corn with butter. I eat it! I tell them only to fill the bag 1/2 way and I can eat about 1/2. I don't take it home. But normally when I eat that stuff it is my meal. I don't eat popcorn then have a hamburger later

Started at 291
Weigh 171 now
120 down
1 year and one month out
5'11"
Want to lose 16 more, but ok where I am.
Will start to finally work out this week coming up. I hope I stick with it. Skin is pretty bad. Going for consult in August 3rd for inner thigh lift. Wouldn't have the surgery until January.
I want to enter the whillimeana 30+ model contest. I actually want to model...which is what I should have done had I not been fat.

I miss my butt

I miss my butt

My skin is horrible...Probably not as bad as some people and probably worse than some. My butt is all saggy. Looks like a granny butt. Then my hair has not grown back. My thighs are all wrinkly. I am just have a bad day. No regrets at all, but it just sucks. I lost all my muscle. I can't even lift what I used to. Pity party for me today. I wore a bikini on the beach and still felt so self conscience. I don't think I can go through a lower body lift or thigh lift or tummy tuck. I want them, but surgery is not easy. What if the scars look terrible. I wish I never got fat when I was a little girl. All the damage, stretch marks...It sucks.

My hair has not grown back yet. My skin is yucky yuck. I am a little over a year. But neither of those things make me cry like being a fatty did.

My hair has not grown back yet. My skin is yucky yuck. I am a little over a year. But neither of those things make me cry like being a fatty did.

My hair has not grown back yet. My skin is yucky yuck. I am a little over a year. But neither of those things make me cry like being a fatty did.

In my pics I seem almost tiny, but I don't see it in the mirror - just in pics. I feel like I could lose more, but I am somewhere between 168 and 174 and 5'11". Something like 70% of the population at my height is heavier than me. I will just keep looking at the pictures and hopefully something will click. I look down and still feel like I could lose a lot more and that is JUST NUTS. I am not sure it will ever really click.

Smitty I will ride your bike for you until you can ride

When I lost weight in 2003 and moved back home from Miami to DC I lived with my friend Rebecca. Apparently she thought I was hilarious and made a book of quotes over the years and I filled a lot of her book. Well I try to keep in touch with her so yesterday she told me that I was the first quote in her book... " the only way to lose weight is to eat nothing all day for about six months" funny that is basically what we all do.

When I lost weight in 2003 and moved back home from Miami to DC I lived with my friend Rebecca. Apparently she thought I was hilarious and made a book of quotes over the years and I filled a lot of her book. Well I try to keep in touch with her so yesterday she told me that I was the first quote in her book... " the only way to lose weight is to eat nothing all day for about six months" funny that is basically what we all do.

116 pounds down! From a size 20/22 to an 8! And I am 5'11"! Check out my profile for my before and after. I will take more pics this weekend! I think I am done losing anything big. If 10 more come off I am ok with it. If I stay at 175 I am ok with it. I just need to work out!

I am probably feeling a little I LOVE THE SLEEVE TODAY! I fit into a size 8 dress!

I also really love the fact that I am a former fat girl turned super model! My issues of low self-esteem contributed to my need to compare myself to skinnier women. Why can't I be that size? Why can't my legs look like that? Why do I have a muffin top? I mean it is a big problem for me. I know alot of fat people do this. So I would feel so super awesome to have someone look at me and think...I wish I was skinny like her and then I would get to say...YOU CAN BE SKINNY! YOU CAN BE THIN! YOU CAN BE HEALTHY! I WAS YOU! I AM YOU! AND YOU ARE ME! I want to tell everyone. I am so glad that I don't give McDonald's & Taco Bell my money anymore...I am so glad that no one is now profiting from my obesity. I was a regular customer to the McDouble Crack House. I want to tell Coke and Pepsi to shove their sugary drinks up their wazoo. We are proponents of change and really some of the strongest people to make this decision. Most people are not making this decision. I feel like not telling your story is doing a disservice to the one person that maybe needs to hear it.

116 pounds down! From a size 20/22 to an 8! And I am 5'11"! Check out my profile for my before and after. I will take more pics this weekend! I think I am done losing anything big. If 10 more come off I am ok with it. If I stay at 175 I am ok with it. I just need to work out!

116 pounds down! From a size 20/22 to an 8! And I am 5'11"! Check out my profile for my before and after. I will take more pics this weekend! I think I am done losing anything big. If 10 more come off I am ok with it. If I stay at 175 I am ok with it. I just need to work out!

116 pounds down! From a size 20/22 to an 8! And I am 5'11"! Check out my profile for my before and after. I will take more pics this weekend! I think I am done losing anything big. If 10 more come off I am ok with it. If I stay at 175 I am ok with it. I just need to work out!

One year later I am pretty thin! I think everyone would have thought I was smoking the pipe.

One year later I am pretty thin! I think everyone would have thought I was smoking the pipe.

One year later I am pretty thin! I think everyone would have thought I was smoking the pipe.

This is why I want to make a documentary on these shows. I love them, but at the same time I think some of them are just plain hogwash. The whole industry is manipulating you into a false reality and then selling you apps, diet pills and more. It is all about $.

I have been weighing myself weekly for one year. I never really stalled, just had a blip in December that I now attribute to having a really bad cold. Tomorrow is my one year anniversary. I am going to go weigh myself on my doctor's scale just to get a more accurate reading. I am also going to try to weigh myself every other week moving forward and hopefully getting to a place where I weigh in once a month. I weigh myself mostly in fear of losing too much. I am liking the thinner me even more than I thought and don't really care if I lose another 10 over the next couple of months. I have weighed the same for the past two weeks, and I am happy with that as well. I think weighing yourself daily is a little extreme, but we all need to do what makes us happy.