SlimJill

I had food dreams A LOT in the beginning... in one I went in Walgreens and took one of every candy bar and then got up to the register and thought "Are you nuts, you'll get SO sick if you eat even one bite of all these!" and put them back... but I also had dreams where I cheated badly on my diet and woke up for a split second thinking "ohmygosh, I've messed up all my hard work!"

Before: 250 lbs After: 178.8 lbs I'm not done yet, but I'm loving this "after" already

WANT to be a food addict?? WANT?? *deep breaths* My entire life I've felt powerless to food, cravings, and impulsive bad decisions... I could never figure out why this was so hard for me. Why could other people put the fork down, but I ate until I puked? How could people turn down dessert and I couldn't? Why did I hide food? Why did I constantly feel guilty for everything I ate? One day the light bulb went on! This is an addiction like anything else. That is why this was so hard for me... why it is still hard. It's an everyday battle but the surgery has helped tremendously! I found the article to be a bit... condescending. Of course I recognize my own screw ups, I take responsibility for my actions, I seek solutions to my ADDICTION. That doesn't make me a "wanna-be" addict or some weak person looking for an excuse! It takes a strong person to admit they have a problem/addiction, it takes an even stronger person to fight their addiction head-on instead of living in what is 'comfortable'. I could have continued the life I was living, eating to replace love, friendship, and hobbies... I could have gained more weight... I could have stayed where I was comfortable, stuck with what I've done my whole life. Instead I confronted my addiction and changed my life! If anyone thinks I or anyone else wants to be a food addict they can kiss my ever shrinking ass!