I am in the pre-op stage right now. I have went to my initial consultation and am going for my second visit with the surgeon on July 11. I have struggled with my weight my entire life. When I was around 14 years old I hit my highest weight of about 320lbs. I managed to get myself down to 132lbs by the time I was 16 years old. I felt wonderful and have to say that one of the few times that I have truly felt like "myself". I had my first child when I was 19 years old. I had gotten up to 210lbs with her but managed to get back down to 162 lbs and maintained that until I got pregnant with my second child only a year later. I gained 90 lbs with him. So, I hit the 250 lb mark and managed to lose 20 or 30 lbs here and there but always gained it back. I had my third child in 2009, and went up to about 300 lbs with him. Last year I managed to get back down to 249 lbs. But sadly, gained it all back. Right now I am at 306 lbs, and honestly I am miserable. I am trying to get back into using the eliptical but I feel like my body is fighting me every step of the way.
I am having a really hard time finding time for myself, which I am sure is a very common issue for everyone. I am in college full time, I have three children, and work a full time job. My husband is very supportive, but, unfortunately he can't exercise for me .
I was told that the surgeon would like me to lose about 20 lbs before surgery, I am trying to keep the mind set that I can do it, and I would really like to lose more than that. I am only 5 foot tall so all this weight on this little frame makes me achy and tired everyday. I am determined to have the "real me" back! I am looking forward to talking to everyone. It is hard to talk to very many people in my daily life because a lot of people have the idea that having surgery is cheating. I don't think people truly understand what a life changing commitment this is.