Utter sadness and pure joy

I had my surgery Monday Feb. 11, 2008. This whole week I feel I have been in mourning, just truly sad. I feel like I have given up my best friend... food. Food has been there happy, sad, bored, excited. It didn't matter what emotion I had, food was there. It sounds bizarre I think, that I'm really upset about missing food, but I am. This week has been hard... so hard.

This morning I woke up at found I lost 21 pounds since starting my pre op diet. A HUGE SMILE went across my face. Everyday is a struggle, but that few moments of looking at the scale made it all worth it. I am actually excited, for the first time ever, for exercise and being active! I can't wait to do things with my husband, travel, play, explore!

This is all! Onward to freedom! Freedom of food!

I researched the whole milk and band issue today and from what ive read your not suppose to be drinking it cause of the fat in it. Thank you for responding to my blog it helps alot to know other people feel like me and im not just going crazy!

Thanks,

Mandi