Feeling like a failure

10/31/2011

So today is my birthday. I woke up this morning and lay in bed feeling depressed. Hopeless. Like a failure. I had so many hopes pinned on being successful with weight-loss after my sleeve surgery. But I am 5 weeks since surgery and I haven't lost anything to speak of. I go up and down the same few pounds.

Pre-surgery I lost 25 pounds in about 8 weeks. Post- surgery I haven't lost more than a few pounds.

I am now trying to figure out what I am doing wrong and how I can make this work for me. I am getting my protein everyday. I am getting the fluids. I am taking my vitamins. I am not eating refined carbs -- mainly I eat fruit and vegetables and fiber cereal to keep my colon moving properly. Unfortunately I am hungry pretty often. I keep appropriate foods on-hand and drink lots of Crystal Light. But if I am hungry, I do eat something.

I need to move everyday. I have not yet made daily exercise a routine. I exercise in starts and stops -- not with regularity. I am going to focus on working on this part of the equation.

If anyone can relate to this I would love to hear how you found your way to weight loss. This is an unbelievable process to go through to find that it isn't working for you. I am really disheartened. I don't want to fail.

Ms. C

Surgery date 9/23/2011