sunshine64

The separation of the cats is horrible. I had my solicitor draw up that he had to agree to half of all the medical bills for our cat.As long as my lovely cat needed attention medically I could not cover 100%. That was agreed to. I had to leave the house fully functionable until the house was sold. A solicitor may insist goods are left until the date the lease is up. I made a list of what to take immediately and what I wanted later. I also explained the law would force him to give me half of the belongings. He ran out of steam fast. We sat down and agreed on what he would need and what I would need. My x threatened to burn down the house with me and the cat in it. He was nasty, but now it is different. We talk once in a while.There is no longer a hold of power over me. Every day I sat with no carpet and boxed up stuff in a tiny flat, but I was free. I binged a few times throughout the ordeal. Thankfully I got the band. It gave me a lifeline. I came out the other end sane and able to rebuild slowly. I wish you every good thing for your future. You sound stronger. Well done.

Believe in something better ! I just needed to get that out there. Even if the universe is the only thing that heard me I feel ready to deal with the need to speak up and reclaim my right to say no to abuse and make healthier choices. I just noticed the WLS MAGAZINE ARTICLE.......................GET THAT ANGER OUT !........................YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYaaaayyyyyyyy.

HI folks.This is my first post. I was taken into hospital last year and had my gastric band removed at the same time as my gall bladder . I am flying with no safety net. While I was in hospital all my vitals were checked. I was in for 3 weeks. They needed to prepare me to take out the band and gall bladder. The surgeon that fit the band was in England uk. I live in Scotland uk. The band had fill in it and the surgeon thought it had been empty for two years or more. just didn't reach the sweet spot,ever. I ranged from not eating at all (one of my sore points ) to eating once a day. I couldn't keep much down. Now I am 352 pounds and previously I was 403 pounds. The weight loss is recent since the band came out. Those 3 weeks saw me stay in my room. Paranoid and hoping for a gastric bypass. The dr cant take me in the NHS as the funding only covers diabetics. I am back on the hospital diet. It allows me to eat nutritious food. I have my groceries delivered. I am an addict. If it is not in the house. I can't eat it. I don't know what to do. Anger is my burden. I turn to food when I am not able to speak to a person that has hurt me. I let most things go but ive had 3 days of pushing my boundaries with food. An accident left me with 3 damaged discs in my spine. I walk with 2 canes or a walker to sit after 15 steps. I need to address a bad relationship with an x. The anger is eating away at me. He wont acknowledge my need to walk away. He doesn't take no. I have an injunction but he is cunning. I am going to go under. I live on my own and find it difficult to go out. I am on my own. In pain and cant exercise much. I find walking difficult. I know other dr's would operate but I spent all of 11,000 pounds on a gastric band. So more savings. Insurance doesn't cover bypass in this country and I wasted 11,000 pounds on a band years ago. I am frustrated and know I have limited choices. I hope someone understands. I want to deal with the anger and move on from being manipulated. Does anyone have insite to the not eating and the anger issues.Sorry for the pity party. sunshine 64.