DeLarla, How are You Feeling?

DeLarla · February 18, 2005

Marie, did you answer my thyroid question somewhere? I can't find it.

Francesca · February 19, 2005

Lisa,

I have lost your phone #. can you email me and give it to me, please!

I have been reading all about your port problems.I am so totally shocked and sad for you.

I have that pic of us from the hospital and my before and after pics I want to post. Maybe i can mail them to you?

I havent lost much weight wither. I have been at 203-205 baCK and forth for months. I am eating alot more with no pbs.yahoooooo

I have been eating alot of junk to. I need to get on the stick..

the good news is that after almost a year I have started working out.. I was so scared to mess something up that I chose not to work out,, But I feel that I can now with no problems..

well girl keep your chin up and write me soon.

Francesca

DeLarla · February 19, 2005

Francescaaaaaaa! I always get so excited when I see you. I've been through so much but then I come here and find my friends and it makes the boo-boo a little better. My friend, Mary, was changing my wound every day till this week when I finally started changing the bandages. She's going to check it weekly, which is tomorrow. This way she'll be able to see if it's getting smaller. I hope she looks at it tomorrow and tells me it's better. Lots of deep sighs lately.

I haven't even mentioned the weird cramps in my belly from the tubing. It feels like there's a tube in my abdomen... oh yeah, there is! Creepy alien girl.

tammymaybeband · February 19, 2005

I hope you feel better really soon. You are not alone. Doctors should not be worshipped and your situation is exactly why I believe there should be NO tort reform. As long as the foxes are watching the hen houses and there is no resources for patients...well long story short they NEED to get their asses sued! Hang in there...I feel ya girlie...

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DeLarla · February 19, 2005

Thanks, Tammy. It was a little lonely here this Friday night, so I'm glad you're awake with me. Keep me from going back to the evil kitchen.

I'm usually the tough broad that moves mountains and gets things done, but this experience even wilted my petals. I'm not sure if I have any fight in me this time.

live2canoe · February 19, 2005

Lisa -

I read every word you write, I have watched your struggles since last August, and am always amazed at your strength. I also enjoy all the humor in your posts.

Thank you very much for everything you do on this board. I know it is a labor of love and very time consuming. Thank you for sharing all your triumphs and tragedies. I don't think you really know how many lives you have touched (and all the other contribtors to this board)

Lurkers everywhere are thinking about you and sending positive thoughts your way.

DeLarla · February 19, 2005

Kim, good thing you're not here now cuz I'd be hugging you and bawling all over your shoulders. I don't feel very inspiring, I feel like a big whiner. I guess I'm gonna have to accept the fact that this wasn't my fault. I keep thinking there's something I could have done to prevent this. But as hard as it's been, the fact remains that I've lost a lot of weight. I was at rock bottom wanting to die last year. Today I just want my belly to heal so I can stop worrying and start being thrilled with my success. The irony is that I can finally fit into smaller sizes and cuter clothes, but the only thing comfy are stretchy pants since anything with a wasteband bothers my wound. I finally have more than 3 pairs of pants, but I wear the same black stretchies 3 times a week. Isn't it ironic, as Alanis would sing.

I'm hoping for good news tomorrow. Mary hasn't seen the wound for a week, so I hope she sees some progress... I hope.

Thanks, Kim. I'm going to bed warm and fuzzy now cuz of you. Thank you.

TrishS · February 19, 2005

You are definitely one heck of a girl!!! I read all what you have been thourgh or going thourgh and yet I look at your Before and After Pictures and you have a smile!! High 5!!!!! for goodness.. you have a hole in your tummy and you still are able to laugh!! wow! Keep going strong!!!

Zoe · February 19, 2005

I'm not sure if I have any fight in me this time.

Aww, come on. Maybe just a little teeny tiny fight? No? Well, there are a lot of angry women out here -- and a few men, too -- who are mad as hell and will be glad to do the fighting for you for a change. (I think if someone could harness the power lying dormant in years of anger in all of our fat cells, the US could stop worrying about dependence on foreign oil.)

Kim is right: you are a big help and inspiration to a lot of us out here in bandland ether, so if you need support you can rely on us. Get some rest -- and here's hoping the wound looks better tomorrow.

DeniseG · February 19, 2005

I am so sorry to hear about your story, I hadn't been on the board in awhile. People like him make me sick. The good part, I notice that lapband talk messages pop up in the search engine. Maybe, by you mentioning his name in your post, if someone was thinking about getting surgery from this guy and typed his name in the search engine, your story will pop up, and make them look elsewhere.

paula · February 19, 2005

Lisa, I know this is may be a lame idea... but have you tried vit. C ???

Vit. C helps heal and it increases the immune system.

When my kids get sickly, I give them up to 5000mg a day till they are better! Walmart (anywhere) has the chewables - cheap too!!!!

Heck, it wont hurt to try em.

DeLarla · February 19, 2005

Can't a girl get through a day without crying? You guys rock my world, I swear you do! Zoe, I'm trying to cry and laugh at the same time. Energy crisis answered, someone hand her the prize!

Paula, I've had so many suggestions about Vitamins and herbs that I can't think straight, so I decided to stick with a beefy multi-purpose vite that's got lots of Vitamin C and 2 tablespoons of Collidal Silver (sp?) which is supposed to help you heal.

I'm worried about the wound, I think infection is setting in. Mary will confirm it today, and we'll most likely call Dr. Billy, who will probably prescribe me another round of delicious antibiotics. Mmm, maybe he'll tell me to start taking Iron too (anybody that has to take Iron for anemia knows that you'll never poop again - ever.)

Another deep sigh, another deep breathe. Thanks for keeping the fight alive - maybe it's in me somewhere and will explode like a raging bull once this boo-boo goes away. I'd be scared if I were them.

Ya know what I love? I love lurkers! Those of you who pop in after all this time rejuvinate me. I honestly mean that. Thank you.

claraluz · February 19, 2005

Lisa, I've never met you, but one thing I know about you: You're a survivor!

As a hospital social worker, I see a lot of people who are facing health challenges. Even the strongest ones sometimes feel weak, sometimes feel like giving up. Your feelings are important, but they don't define you. What makes you you is that no matter how bad it gets, no matter how many times you are knocked down, and no matter how many creepy doctors you have to deal with, and no matter how puny you may sometimes feel, you never give up! You always come back to fight another day! And you do it with humor, which is even more amazing. That is a rare and wonderful quality and I hope you give yourself credit for it.

It sounds to me like you are going through a period of grief over the loss of your former body and the way it looked. And that's normal. It's hell while it's happening, but it's also part of a healing process, so it's healthy.

As far as the creepy doctor is concerned, one of the most shocking aspects of the whole thing for me is that he would mention your lapband in a public place. I feel that is unethical, even if he is not your doctor.

Hang in there, Lisa. We're here for you.

Nancy