Little Green getting little(r)

[Laura7 334]

On 02/04/2018 at 00:03, Little Green said:

Thank you, for the compliment and the book recommendation! I know I checked this one out of the Kindle library but can't remember if I read it or not. I will go and download it again for sure!

Read it! It’s amazing!

[Little Green 582]

10 hours ago, Laura7 said:

On 2/4/2018 at 12:03 AM, Little Green said:

Thank you, for the compliment and the book recommendation! I know I checked this one out of the Kindle library but can't remember if I read it or not. I will go and download it again for sure!

Read it! It’s amazing!

Thanks! I actually don't think I ever did so I'll check it out now

[Little Green 582]

Going to try a Protein Bar today, these were allowed at 4 weeks but haven't experimented yet as I was sick of them from pre-op. We can only eat half at a time and are supposed to chew really well!

[Little Green 582]

Yesterday was six weeks post-op and I weighed in at 308 pounds! That's a full fifty pounds lost since the morning I started the liquid diet on April 27. Fifty pounds gone in two months! I know it won't keep going that fast, but if it did I'd be at goal of BMI 23 in only 6 more months hahaha. A girl can dream!

NINE pounds to go until I'm under 300. Going to try and avoid the scale for another two weeks, see if I can keep my resolve against daily weighing up!

Edited June 29, 2018 by Little Green

[Little Green 582]

I ended up having my first experience with dumping last night, I believe. I was feeling very lonely, emotional, restless... a classic night where before surgery I would get in the car, drive around listening to music, and stop in at a fast food place for some fatty food, a soda, and a dessert. I tried hard to resist but ended up going out anyway. I was still full from eating supper (tuna with sesame crackers) and really did not need to eat, but I wanted to eat so badly and tried to justify it by telling myself it had been four hours since supper so I could have something if I wanted. I stopped at Wawa and picked up some food (some BBQ chicken with cheese).

Within 2-3 minutes of eating the first few bites I was milliseconds from vomiting. I was doubled over in pain, nauseated beyond belief. I tried to wait it out but eventually had to drive home, slowly, sweating and an instant from puking the whole time. When I got out of the car I almost threw up on our carport but managed to hold it together. I never did throw up, I think I was just so determined that I wouldn't, didn't want to know what it felt like... after 20 minutes or so the threat of vomiting passed and I got the slimes for the first time. Slimes meaning my mouth filling up repeatedly with excess saliva... eventually it passed and I dissolved an anti-nausea tab on my tongue and started feeling better.

What an awful, awful feeling. I will never, ever do that again. I could barely eat today at all, just half a Protein Shake this morning, until I finally had supper a couple hours ago. I need to figure out what to do in the event of that insatiable, irresistible pull toward late night restless, reckless eating... clearly my coping mechanisms are not fully in place yet.

NOT a good experience, but I'm glad it happened.

[Little Green 582]

Aaaaaaand another not good experience tonight. Russell Stover SF candies... just one, JUST ONE! 10 minutes later and I was... well, let's say if I had been constipated I wouldn't be anymore. That thing was more effective than the damn bottle of magnesium citrate the day before surgery. I seem to be unwittingly testing the boundaries of my RNY and it is answering with a megaphone. Well, good to know, RNY. Good to know.

[Little Green 582]

Doing better. My follow-up urinalysis still showed dehydration, but much closer to being normal than before. Working on getting all the way there!

Recently incorporated toast back into my life! Sooooo happy. I chew really carefully and take my time, the bread I eat is full of grains and seeds so I want to make sure they're all easily digestible. One slice of the bread (which is Dave's Killer Bread 21 grains & seeds variety) is five grams of Fiber and five grams of Protein. Add Peanut Butter or hummus for more fiber and more protein. Perfect and highly nutritious plant-based meal! I also want to try a recipe for copycat Zoës Kitchen braised white beans... I've been getting those a couple times a week and man they are SOOOOOO GOOD. They never get old!

Since I've been able to start swimming I am also doing much, much better in the stamina department. I still feel weakness in my quads pretty early on but I no longer feel faint or like I'm going to pass out after 15-30 minutes of activity. I might start a bodyweight squatting routine since my knees are doing better with the weight loss. When I get under 300 I'm going to start skating again in the hopes of playing roller derby in the next year or two. Now THAT will get my quads in working order in no time

[Little Green 582]

I just realized I posted my issue with dehydration on my status, not this thread. So just as an FYI for anyone reading, I went to urgent care for a possible UTI and my urinalysis results showed signs of dehydration. Not severe enough to need to go to the ER for fluids or anything, just a clear indicator I wasn't hydrating like I should be (with, potentially, the intense heat as a confounding variable). I also had bilirubin in my urine which possibly indicated an issue with my gallbladder, but the follow-up only showed trace bilirubin so my doctor said it's more likely that was also a result of the dehydration.

[Little Green 582]

I missed my 8-week update, so here's a 9-week update. 63 days, wow! Where has the time gone?

I've lost 41 pounds since surgery and 57 since the liquid diet. I'm hitting my goal of average loss of 20 lbs per month and I'm pretty happy with my progress. I'm 301 pounds today so hopefully in the next week I will bid goodbye to being 300+ forever!

In the last couple of weeks eating has become much more difficult. As anyone reading this thread knows, for the first 6 weeks or so I had literally no issues with food from the first day post-op, no nausea or vomiting or pain at all. I was thrilled! Lol. Unfortunately that is no longer the case. I can't exactly pinpoint what is causing it - whether it's the food itself, or eating too fast, or eating too much... often I'm totally fine, so I don't think I have a stricture or any other medical issue. I'm sure that I will eventually be able to identify a pattern and adjust accordingly, but for now, I get pain and some sliming about 30-40% of the time I eat. I even threw up after eating a salad the other day Overall I'm happy, but sometimes I feel frustrated and wish I didn't have the RNY and I could just eat normally without worry of pain and cramping.

My biggest issue is still hydration... some days I do great and some days I'm just behind. Trying to work on that as much as possible for health AND weight loss reasons.

[Little Green 582]

12 week update! I've lost 52 pounds since surgery and 68 since the start of the liquid diet.

Eating is better, but not by much. Still get sick-feeling fairly often. I went on vacation and it was absolute hell trying to eat AND having to pay for a full meal that I could only eat a fraction of and would never be able to finish all the leftovers while traveling. Still eating a lot more meat and cheese than I would like to be, I find myself having a bit of food aversion in the sense that I just want to eat whatever will meet my goals in as little quantity and fuss as possible. So the easy Protein in animal products just works for me right now. However, it is still my goal to move toward a fully plant-based diet.

I'm noticing a big difference in clothes. I was able to wear three dresses that I could not fit into when I bought them! NO MORE buying "hope" clothes in my future. My underwear is all too big and my above-the-knee dresses are getting quite long, lol. I've bought a few things but unless it's marked way down I am loathe to spend money on something that will only fit for a couple months. I need to hit up Goodwill soon!

And best of all, I am under 300 pounds now! Goodbye, good riddance!

[Little Green 582]

14 weeks out from surgery and I'm 75 pounds down from the first day of the liquid diet, which I started about 4 months ago. I've gone from 358 to 283 and, if I include the pre-op diet, I'm losing about 18-19 pounds per month on average which I'm very happy with. July was sort of meh for weight loss, not exactly sure of the stats but I know I stalled for awhile in the low 300's. August has been better, I've lost the last 10-15 pounds pretty rapidly here in the last two to three weeks.

I saw my surgeon last Friday for my three month follow-up and she was really happy with my weight loss. We discussed "goal weight" sort of, I said I'd like to be normal BMI but would settle for 29.9 BMI. She said it might be more realistic to be around 30-31 BMI. So that puts my "goal" range from 164 (24.9 BMI) to 210 (31.9 BMI). I think I will set my goal as 29.9 BMI which is 196 pounds... so basically anything under 200 will be good for me. Although I doubt I will keep losing 20 lbs a month, it's crazy to think that I could, hypothetically, be to that 196 pound goal in 4-5 months!

I discussed my issues with getting sick with both the surgeon and the dietitian and they suggested avoiding any foods that I know for sure are irritating me - the dietitian assured me again that my tendency/desire to eat more carbs than most bariatric patients is totally fine and that she encourages the whole wheat toast, cereals, fruit, brown rice, etc. for health reasons (and especially if that's what I'm able to tolerate vs. beef and chicken). She also recommended that I refocus on chewing really well and honestly since trying to take that advice I think that was the problem all along - going too fast because I wasn't chewing enough. In the last week since seeing her I've only felt ill a couple times and they were mild, not as bad as the intense nausea and sometimes heaving/vomiting I had been getting. Yay for eating with proper bariatric etiquette!

[Little Green 582]

So I thought I'd ramble about Hair loss in its own post.

I started losing my hair around 11 weeks out, when I was on vacation in Florida. My mom was putting sunscreen on me and kept dragging pieces of hair all over my back and that's when I first noticed it.

I am very fortunate that I have a large volume of hair and it's medium-bodied and curly, so the loss is not yet highly visible. However, to make the constant shedding easier to deal with I did cut my hair up to my chin.

My hair is usually all the way down my back to the top of my butt. I cut it in December to my shoulders, that was when I thought I was having surgery in February. So it wasn't a huge drastic cut from its original length, but it is extremely difficult for me emotionally to have such short hair right now.

I was fat from around age 7 and as anyone who was a fat child knows, the "compliments" adults give you are very different when you are overweight vs. not overweight. So growing up one of the only things I was ever complimented on was my hair. Over time this led to my pride and vanity in my hair especially when I became extremely obese as an adult. My hair is like my security blanket - the one thing I can always rely on to make me feel feminine and beautiful.

Having it sheared off was almost physically painful and the sadness reverberated for days. The day I got it cut I had a therapy appointment afterward (coincidental but I'm glad it worked out that way haha) and I told my therapist I'd rather weigh 400 pounds than lose my hair. That's obviously not true but that's how sad it makes me. I'm finally starting to feel better, about 9 days later lol, but it's still hard. I feel very exposed and "naked" for lack of a better term. I will keep my hair short until the regrowth catches up - so maybe six months to a year? And then I'll start the ~3 year growing out process to have my long locks back.

Just a part of the body image issues we all have to deal with as we go through drastic changes in our bodies, images, and self-confidence. I'm trying to get through it by reminding myself of the reasons I had this surgery - long life, mobility, and health.

[Frustr8 7,886]

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