I'm having a bit of a tough time

[gamergirl 4,609]

I am about to write something awful. I am slightly scared of a possible backlash, but...... After years of dieting and being hyper focused on food, I have made a conscious decision to not do that this time around. Where I had been successful with dieting and logging my food, I do not do that now. I don't want to think about food that much again! I don't want to name my sleeve because, again, I don't want to give "dieting" so much attention (I'm ignoring that b***ch). I don't talk about my surgery (I ignore that guy,too) I just am living my life, making good choices. It is not my goal nor my intention to be an athlete, a paleo/clean/vegan/gluten free eater. Disclaimer: this is what works for ME. You all do what's best for YOU. AND, I like reading about guys like skippy and gals like Ursula. I guess what I am trying to say is, don't think so much about food and weight loss. Cut yourself some slack. I know you would be sorely missed, but, take a break from this forum. As a host, I wonder if you are internalizing not only your own issues, but others issues as we'll? Because you seem nice like that.

I think your way of not constantly monitoring does work for a lot of people so no backlash at all. My dream for when I grow up is to get there myself.

I did take a 2-week break recently from the forum to refresh myself. Last couple of days have been rough for a lot of people. The "good" news is that I can't eat when I'm upset so...

Nah it's all good. Building mental fortitude is part of the game of life right?

[gamergirl 4,609]

I raised two boys, then raised two girls. The boys in adolescence were sweaty, smelly, messy and they could eat anything ANYtime time and had a great propensity for stoopid decisions. The girls were self-absorbed and had an amazing ability to be shocked at how stoopd their parents (especially Mum) could be. But we survived (barely) and all 4 kids turned out OK. Now my goal is to turn THEIR children into creatures that GROW UP JUST LIKE THEY DID. That'll fix my children.

Tell you what, knowing what I was like as a teenager? I'm sooooo glad I only have boys! They seem much less complicated than we girls were. My son used to have friends come over to play video games for the weekend. It always amazed me how no one cried, no one got their feelings hurt, no one went home all upset....weird

[Arts137 1,811]

Hope I did not upset anyone? That's NEVER my intent, though I am very "un"-serious at times.

[sheilarae 84]

Loving this thread! I see some familiar faces and it's like seeing old friends and love meeting new. I am 7 months out and I am not bored, GG, but I'm so tired of packing food when I go to work or am out running errand all day. I found out I am glucose intolerant so I feel nervous when I don't have things to eat with me. Can't stand that low sugar feeling and have crashed too many times. Don't want to go there again. I haven't lost anything in 2 months...driving me crazy. I was in a car accident 12/13 where my car was totaled. No bones broken but starting physical therapy this morning. I've had so many accidents and illnesses that I'm a sucker for comport food. What with the accident and dealing with the death of my son (although 17 years ago) during the holidays, maybe I should call my fat brain "mommy". Mommy says, " Dont forget your Protein mix and your bar and cheese stick snd a couple pieces of chocolate won't hurt you!" I have 30 lbs to go to have a healthy BMI. Mommy, go take a hike. No, wait , I'd better go with you, but I'm wearing my head phones ! La, la,la,la,...

[sheilarae 84]

...life goes on.

[gamergirl 4,609]

Loving this thread! I see some familiar faces and it's like seeing old friends and love meeting new. I am 7 months out and I am not bored, GG, but I'm so tired of packing food when I go to work or am out running errand all day. I found out I am glucose intolerant so I feel nervous when I don't have things to eat with me. Can't stand that low sugar feeling and have crashed too many times. Don't want to go there again. I haven't lost anything in 2 months...driving me crazy. I was in a car accident 12/13 where my car was totaled. No bones broken but starting physical therapy this morning. I've had so many accidents and illnesses that I'm a sucker for comport food. What with the accident and dealing with the death of my son (although 17 years ago) during the holidays, maybe I should call my fat brain "mommy". Mommy says, " Dont forget your Protein mix and your bar and cheese stick snd a couple pieces of chocolate won't hurt you!" I have 30 lbs to go to have a healthy BMI. Mommy, go take a hike. No, wait , I'd better go with you, but I'm wearing my head phones ! La, la,la,la,...

Sheila! Haven't seen you on here in a while. Welcome back. So sorry to hear about your car accident. Are you okay? Did it start a flare or were you able to avoid that? Is the AI any better for you lately? I took it easy on exercise this month and only had one flare, because I forgot to take my meds. So much better than before.

A 2-month stall has to be frustrating. Hope you're still hanging in there.

[Fluffnomore 1,235]

Hope I did not upset anyone? That's NEVER my intent, though I am very "un"-serious at times.

No way. All good!

[sheilarae 84]

I'm ok except soft tissue damage, thus the physical therapy. My fibro did go in a tail spin. The stress is unreal. I've been renting a car but I don't have rental ins. My agent said the at fault company would pay for it. Three weeks later I find out there's a Texas law that says if the car is totaled they're not refpondible to pay for a rental. Do I'm out $550 and on my way to buy another car. My car only had 17000 mes on it. I'm not happy. I got some muscle relaxants yesterday and a 10 day supply of Xanax because I've been having panic attacks. Glad to hear you're still out there. You've been an inspiration to me. I thought if I starting communicating again it would help me get over this slump. Off to pt.

[playlikeworldchamps 595]

I am about to write something awful. I am slightly scared of a possible backlash, but...... After years of dieting and being hyper focused on food, I have made a conscious decision to not do that this time around. Where I had been successful with dieting and logging my food, I do not do that now. I don't want to think about food that much again! I don't want to name my sleeve because, again, I don't want to give "dieting" so much attention (I'm ignoring that b***ch). I don't talk about my surgery (I ignore that guy,too) I just am living my life, making good choices. It is not my goal nor my intention to be an athlete, a paleo/clean/vegan/gluten free eater. Disclaimer: this is what works for ME. You all do what's best for YOU. AND, I like reading about guys like skippy and gals like Ursula. I guess what I am trying to say is, don't think so much about food and weight loss. Cut yourself some slack. I know you would be sorely missed, but, take a break from this forum. As a host, I wonder if you are internalizing not only your own issues, but others issues as we'll? Because you seem nice like that.

No backlash from me! I decided this time to track everything - no exceptions - all the bad choices in MFP too. I decided that if I tracked it I would feel no guilt about any of it. So even though I track I don't think of this life as a diet. I also hated tracking and obsessing over food prior to the sleeve. It was just so stressful and depressing and yes - so boring! I just wanted to be normal - and not think about it like my husband who eats anything and never has to think about it.

But for some reason this time I don't feel like I am obsessing and I don't mind the tracking. Maybe because I am still losing (slowly). Maybe because I am not super strict/clean/locarb? I don't know. So I am using same attitude as you but I do track. I have a lot of nice sleever friends on MFP that are very supportive.

I also do not exercise! I walk 2-3 times a week a couple miles. I fit it into my commute to work or shopping or maybe if I feel like it on a Saturday morning. I decided this time not to start something I knew I would not like and never stick to and then feel guilty for quitting. I do not want any guilt for some silly reason!!! Some people love exercise and training. I am not one of those people! I am thinking I will start some exercise this year to ensure flexibility and maybe some toning but nothing major - no big goals. Maybe take up tennis 1X a week again.

I took a break from this forum when it switched over as I needed my ID reset. It was a good idea. Now I enjoy it more.

I guess what I am saying is that there are many ways to take this journey. Everyone needs to find theirs and make it fit their life.

-Eileen (kenmj11 on MFP)

[gamergirl 4,609]

Hope I did not upset anyone? That's NEVER my intent, though I am very "un"-serious at times.

Omg no. You're fine

[RJ'S/beginning 5,357]

I am about to write something awful. I am slightly scared of a possible backlash, but......

After years of dieting and being hyper focused on food, I have made a conscious decision to not do that this time around.

Where I had been successful with dieting and logging my food, I do not do that now. I don't want to think about food that much again!

I don't want to name my sleeve because, again, I don't want to give "dieting" so much attention (I'm ignoring that b***ch).

I don't talk about my surgery (I ignore that guy,too)

I just am living my life, making good choices.

It is not my goal nor my intention to be an athlete, a paleo/clean/vegan/gluten free eater.

Disclaimer: this is what works for ME. You all do what's best for YOU. AND, I like reading about guys like skippy and gals like Ursula.

I guess what I am trying to say is, don't think so much about food and weight loss. Cut yourself some slack. I know you would be sorely missed, but, take a break from this forum.

As a host, I wonder if you are internalizing not only your own issues, but others issues as we'll?

Because you seem nice like that.

I think a lot like you..although I did name my sleeve I do not spend a lot of time worrying about caloric intake or what I am going to eat this day....I am hoping for the day that I no longer think of it all as it has consumed my life for 3 decades+. It appears to be working because I weigh myself rarely and so have never worried about stalls, too many calories, too little you know what I mean.......

To me it is exchanging one addiction for another...I will always be conscious of my choices when I do eat...But no logging it down no obsessing over it....No worrying about the 5 food groups...

I need food to replenish my body...Not my life..And so for me it is always at a distance..Not like before when I thought about it continuously...Been there done that!!!!

[longtimecoming7 390]

RJ, great minds think alike! I DO get on the scale daily, however, but it does not "break" me when it doesn't move.

Happy new year!

[RJ'S/beginning 5,357]

RJ, great minds think alike! I DO get on the scale daily, however, but it does not "break" me when it doesn't move.

Happy new year!

You as well HUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!