gain goal regain How was your 5:2 day today?

[Oregondaisy 2,019]

Acid is a big problem for us sleevers. A lot of people are revising to RNY because of it. I would never do that, although I am having bad acid problems.

I take Zantac in the morning and Nexium before dinner. My son in law was just telling me that he has to switch medicines all the time because they stop working. So he alternates between Nexium and Prilosec.

I don't know what the UK equivalents would be for these medications but I do know acid is nothing to fool around with. It can cause esophageal cancer.

I am still not home and waiting for the baby to come. I may have to drive 4 hours to go home because I need one of my medications refilled and I can't get it refilled here. I tried.

I have no idea how much weight I've gained since I've been here. There is no scale here and it's driving me insane.

[sarsar 824]

Hi Ladies. It's been many many months since I have been here. I went back and read over the posts from the last couple weeks but I doubt I'll go back six months and read to catch up.

Life has been crazy and incredibly sad for me since I was here last. I know it was around the time that we found out my dad had pancreatic cancer that I was here.

He passed away on February 12th, and his funeral was on February 20th.

He passed away 5 months to the day we found out he had cancer and what an incredibly long, heartbreaking 5 months it had been.

Shortly after he was diagnosed he had surgery to remove 1/2 of his pancreas and all of his spleen. They thought they had removed all of the cancer but a few days later the pathology report had stated that there was cancer that had grown out and above the pancreas and it was also in some of his lymph nodes.

He did pretty well for a week or so after the surgery and went home but a couple days after he came home he ended up with complications; a leak where the pancreas was stitched after it was removed so pancreatic Fluid was leaking and was very painful. Back in the hospital he went. That's when the nightmare began.

He was so very sick and just didn't recover well. Day after day something would go wrong. At one point he had 6 drains and also a drain into his stomach for tube feeding. He just couldn't recover from these complications. He developed wounds in his incision and it was all just a awful.

We finally did get him home right before thanksgiving but he was in his bed most of the time, very weak with a nurse coming to the house daily.

He had to recover from this in order get strong enough to have chemo to begin to deal with the cancer that we knew was, at that point, in his lymph nodes.

He never did recover, we had multi visits to the hospital to see doctor and wound care. By this point all he could do was walk to the bathroom and to the car but other than that he was in a wheel chair, he was just too weak to do anything.

In January we found out the cancer has spread to his liver and that he likely had a few more months to live. His oncologist told him he could start a mild form of chemo. My mom and sisters and I didn't want him to do it Bc we knew he was so weak and sick already. He decided to do it and we knew we had to respect whatever decision he made.

He had chemo on a Monday in the beginning of February. He was very tired over the next few days and by Thursday my mom called me in a panic saying he was shaking so bad and had a high fever. I rushed over and we took him to the ER. I should have called 911, by the time we got to the ER he couldn't even stand on his own and they had to lift him out of the car.

The next day, Friday, we found out the cancer had spread everywhere in his body. He decided he would go home on hospice. While in the hospital for a couple days, hourly he was getting worse. The pain was worse. He could actually feel tumors popping up and feel the cancer growing in his body.

He went home in an ambulance on Monday. Hospice started and we were hoping to have a few more weeks with him.

Again, hourly the pain would be worse, we had to figure out pain meds and he was getting so many different ones, every hour, just to keep him comfortable.

By Thursday of that week he went into a coma. He came out of it for just a bit on Thursday night, he and my mom slept pretty well that night together. Friday morning he woke up again for a few minutes but was in much pain. We increased pain meds even more. He went into a coma again and never woke up after that. He died that Friday night surrounded by his family.

It's has been an incredibly emotional time for all of us. From the time he was diagnosed, it was bad news. Non stop hospital/doctor visits. Just one thing after another. I kid you not when I saw we never went more than a couple days and he would go back to the doctor to find out more bad news.

Now we are learning how to grieve. None of my sisters or my mom have ever lost someone so close to us so it's a learning process. We are all a close family.

It's hard seeing my mom so very sad, she doesn't know how to live after losing her best friend of 50 years. I don't know how to help her while I am trying to grieve the loss of a wonderful dad and gramps.

I have good days and bad days and I know I'll make it through.

I've only gained 5-7 pounds, depending on the day I step in the scale. I'm not too concerned about that. The last couple weeks I am finally getting back into my regular exercise routine. This is helping me emotionally. The weight will go back down now that I'm eating normal again. For 5 months every single day was in limbo so my regular exercise and clean eating took a back seat. My whole life, my husband and my kids all took a back seat.

Deep down, when I found out he had cancer, I didn't think he would make it long. When he developed complications after the surgery, I knew in my heart, it was going to be a downward spiral.

I am so thankful I was able to devote my time to be with my mom and dad and to help. I went to every single doctor appointment with him and I was at the hospital almost daily with him. The last week I was with him at his house day and night.

I was able to say everything I wanted to say to him. My children and husband were able to say anything they needed or wanted to say to him while he was still alert and knew what was going on.

He was at peace with dying and the only thing that made him sad was that he didn't want to leave my mom alone. They loved each other so very much, a love I am so thankful to have witnessed through the years.

Thanks for reading, if you read all the way through, I know it was a long one. It felt good to type it out.

I needed some time away from here but I am back now so I'll try to post more.

[UK Cathy 977]

Sarsar I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you had sufficient time with your dad to tell him the things you wanted to say. Please take care of yourself XXX

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

Sarah, I am so sorry for your loss. I am so happy you had such a wonderful father -too many of us didn't!

Take care of yourself.

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[feedyoureye 3,087]

Oh Sarah, how awful for you and your family! I am glad to hear you all got to spend time with him, and say your piece... and that you got to give it your all for the past few months. I understand about learning how to grieve.... I finally went on a light anti depressant... I just couldn't beat the sadness at one point... and that has really helped so much. I can still feel, just not so hopeless. Much love to you.... the human experience is really a bumpy ride some times. Spring is waiting for you when your ready!

[Georgia 2,908]

Sarah, so glad to hear from you but not about your loss. I know exactly what you are going through. I lost my Dad and my Mom and she really never truly made it back to a full life. Just too many years "joined at the hip" so to speak. I'm so glad you got to be there for him and WITH him too. Love and hugs. It will come in waves now. Grief. After a while, the memories and love are at the forefront and the sorrow behind. [emoji173]️[emoji173]️.

Denise, get that Grandbaby here so we can see the pics!!!

[coops 1,790]

Sarah, I am sorry for your loss. Your post really touched me and brought a tear. My parents are both elderly and their health is getting worse, especially my mother. They way you speak of your family and closeness is a true reflection of your dad and I am sure he is watching and feeling much pride in you all. Thanks for touching base ... much love. x

[UK Cathy 977]

There is a birthday girl here. happy Birthday @"coops"

[CowgirlJane 14,259]

Happy birthday Coops!!!!

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Crud I am up 2#, maybe some of it is Water retention after a party filled 3 days. It was worth it!

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[feedyoureye 3,087]

Happy birthday coops!

Im back to where I started (only one day off!).... the stall is alive and kicking! Back on the 5 day test then 5:2 again.....

[UK Cathy 977]

The extra week off work was good for the mind but not the scales. I didn't put any extra weight on (still got the holiday weight though) but didn't knuckle down to weight loss like I thought and hoped I would. Well another week and another try at it looms.

[coops 1,790]

thank you for the birthday messages... it was Monday and we had a great day - well, after work!

I turned 45 and Betty - the daughter - turned 18! She bought half a cider! We went out for tea, and my Dad paid, bless him.. we had a good night.

x

[Oregondaisy 2,019]

Sarah, I am so sorry. I can relate to all of this. My bf had stomach cancer and it was just like you said. Everything just went downhill from the day of diagnosis.

My heart goes out to you. I was there for my dad when he died, and my heart is heavy for you.

I hope you'll continue to post, if typing it out felt good to you. We are here for you!

[Oregondaisy 2,019]

I am in Portland and have been since Sunday. I went home Thursday and drove back Sunday.

It breaks my heart to hear my DIL yell and cuss at my little 6 year old granddaughter. I don't know what to do about it. I know if I said one word to her about it, it would put a strain on our relationship forever. I've talked to my son about it, and he's not happy about it either. I told him they have to get family counseling and she is damaging Lexi's self esteem. I am going to talk to my daughter as she and my DIL are close. My daughter has gone to counseling with her 8 year old son, and her patience with him amazes me.

I've been eating everything and anything I want. I expect a huge gain when I get home. I'm probably going to do Protein Shakes for a few days when I get home, before I even start 5:2.

I need to get to the gym as soon as possible too, for stress relief.

[Georgia 2,908]

thank you for the birthday messages... it was Monday and we had a great day - well, after work!

I turned 45 and Betty - the daughter - turned 18! She bought half a cider! We went out for tea, and my Dad paid, bless him.. we had a good night.

x

Sorry to be late, Coops! happy belated birthday. I'm glad it was a great day!!!