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If someone would have told me a year ago today that I would weigh less than 300 lbs I would have laughed at them and thought they were crazy I mean I weighed in at almost 400 lbs and felt horrible about myself and wasn't going anywhere until that night I went to bed thinking to my self I have my whole life ahead of me what am I doing why am I killing myself with food I realize now how selfish I was being I wasn't caring about anyone not even myself I was denying my family the daughter, sister, niece, aunt, and granddaughter they deserved. I was also denying my future spouse who ever he might be a wife and future children. I couldn't sleep that night wondering if I was going to wake up the next morning I was scared to close my eyes because I didn't want it to be the last time I did. I prayed to God and asked him if he would give me the answer I was looking for something to help me. Weight loss surgery has always been in the back of my mind but I was to embarassed to say something to anyone not my family or friends. I was scared of being judged because for some reason someone was going to think she didn't try hard enough or she is taking the easy way out. The next morning I opened my email at work and the first one I came to was an informational email about Lap Band...and my story to a new life begins there. I registered for a seminar the first I could go to was in Orlando with Dr. Weir...I went to the seminar I met him and his nutritionist Nadia and they were both AMAZING people for the first time I felt like I had a future. I will never forget the first time I met Dr. Weir I immediatley felt at ease with him....That night I filled out all the necesarry paper work to get the process started towards a better life. The next morning I called my primary care physician and made an appointment for what would then be a series of 6 appointments over 6 months. Everything went smooth from there....I had decided to change my procedure to Gastric Sleeve at first my family didn't understand why but once they understood they were behind me 100%!! Most everyone on my team at work was aware of my surgery and to my amazement noone judged me for it they were all so supportive. Once I got my approval from insurance I was scheduled for surgery in 5 weeks August 8th!! I have to admit that when I found out in January that I had to do 6 months of prep I was upset and thought GOD it is going to drag on FOREVER...But then I started counting the weeks days hours and minutes til surgery and my excitement was building I have to admit there was some anxiety but I just absolutely couldn't wait!! My Dad Mom and Grandparents were the only ones I wanted at the hospital and they were all SO supportive....I remember my Papa staying with me until the ABSOLUTE last minute he could and he was the first one there when I woke up. My hospital stay seemed like it took forever but 2 days is nothing compared to a whole lifetime of opportunity! Now here I am a few days shy of 4 months out from my surgery and I weigh 295 lbs, I know I still have a way to go but Damn I think I look AMAZING!! I am getting compliments from people I didn't think knew I existed, and I am not afraid to tell someone I had surgery I am so proud of it. I am now doing things I haven't done since high school I run 3 miles a day I work full time I go to school and I still have energy left!! Its amazing!! I am so excited about what my future holds!! Sorry for any misspelling lol!!

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wow that is amazing. so wonderful that you chose to restart your life. keep up the good work!

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Kayla -

We are sleeve sisters! I often think about January when I went to my seminar, I try and remember what exactly prompted me to even sign up for it. Could be the pictures from my daughters wedding on 1-1-11 or maybe all the prep leading up to the wedding, including shopping for a dress for myself and hating how I looked. Like you, I started out thinking lap band and switched when I heard about VSG. I can't believe where I am weight wise, down 78 lbs since January, with a little more than 40 lbs to goal (I'm short, 4'11''). I've had a rough time of it the last few months and hoping I am on the upswing.

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I'm so happy for you! Congrats sweetie!!!

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Kayla, Congrats and it sounds like you are really working that sleeve!!!!

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Awesome story, made me cry a little. My daughter is also overweight and she went with me to Mexico for my surgery. I am hoping she will consider this while she is young and have all the healthy years ahead of her.

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Fantastic work!! It's not easy but it is worth it. :) CHEERS!!!

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Incredible. Less than half way there and look how different life is for you already. What a bright future ahead for all of us!

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You are a true inspiration. You have so much to look forward to and I hope you continue to share so we can see you to the finish! I can not wait to be sleeved!!!! I am so happy for you!!!

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Congrats Kayla! I'm so happy for you. It's a great way to start the new year. Can't wait to see you progress in 2012!

Lynda

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Awesome story, made me cry a little. My daughter is also overweight and she went with me to Mexico for my surgery. I am hoping she will consider this while she is young and have all the healthy years ahead of her.

hi bikerchick - You went to Mexico I see, and ever, thing went great. Terrific

I alway wondered though, how and where do you get your post-op check-ups. Does mexico Dr. have a "connection dr" in America that he will send you to?

I was always curious.

thanx

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