Bettina

I have been up since 6:45am......yesterday. This is frustrating. When my husband got up for work at 4:30am...I quick ran in the kitchen and pretended I was doing dishes. I will make it a point today to take a nap. I can't wait to get my sleep mask and get back to normal...ugh.

Finally its over, I had my fitting last night. OMG I asked for the nose pillow head piece. And while it is skinny....I felt like Warf from Star Trek...big bumpy ridges along my nose. The air was doing 90 up my little nostrils...lol Okay so I calm down ---I put it on...sitting on the bed watching "Jaws". Its blowing air out the front like nobody's business....I am thinking hubby is gonna have a fit, I'll never be able to sleep in bed again!!! :notagree The worst part was the freezing. The tech told me it would be room temp air....umm no, my teeth froze, my nose froze, my ears were starting to ache.....and now I had to pee. (i never ever get up in the middle of the night for anything!!) The air was so fast that my cheeks were filling with air....for fun, I'd open my mouth and a big bunch of air came out...too funny. Twice the nose thingy's pressed against my cartiledge of my nose and the air stopped...lol. :painkiller: I was gonna call the tech, but she was watching me....lol. So she came in and gave me a plain hose with two little nose things...with a strap for my head. She put the humidifier on too. OMG I am cured (not really but you know what I mean) Finally found my C-Pap "happy place".:clap2: And, it doesn't make me sound like Darth Vader (like the first one did) I was laying in bed snickering like an idiot thinking "Luke, I am your father" Ugh. So the tech was really sweet and I was explaining "nurse-zilla" (prev Journal) to her and she said "you know what you are done with that...I am putting a rush on this and you'll be done....it says you need your surgery in August in your file, and we are gonna make it happen" OMG I wanted to cry!!! So they are reading the report asap...I will have my machine two days later and then I can call the doc and say.....Sign me up!! I am afraid that he might be booked for August:nervous ....so it has to be done early Sept before my classes are too hot and heavy into work. That should be that for the hurdles!!!:clap2:

I highly recommend anyone that has questions to view this webinar. :clap2: It is lengthy (2 hrs) but well worth watching, if for nothing else, you can use it to know what questions to ask your doctor!

http://www.or-live.com/AtlantiCare/weightloss/skin/rnh.cfm?language=english

:ermm Still haven't slept since last week...its killing me. But I know I will get it under control..still on for Tuesday's fitting. Discussed putting feathers on my mask with my sister (having a moment of insanity) she advised Rhinestones...LOL...I can always count on my sister to help me out of a funk. Ya ever hear anyone say that they would pinch you or stomp on your foot if you were saying that something hurts you? (you know ...my arm hurts...okay I'll stomp on your foot to make you forget about your arm....LOL) well, that is how I feel...the sleep apnea thing is making me forget that I was so ansy to get the banding! I had the strangest dream last night during one of my cat naps....I dreamt that the doctors office handed me this fancy envelope shaped like a pink pocketbook -even had a fancy handle on it, and I opened it up and it said that I was approved for surgery......LOL ! Maybe its a sign that I will def be approved...lol. (my sis would be proud of the pink pocketbook envelope...thats her speed, she is a total girly girl:cheer2: , I am more of the earthy one :hippie: ).

I want to thank Teresita and MoOrLess for their comments of support to my last post....thanks so much you guys are great!!!!

Happy Birthday! And, you are doing great! Keep up the good work. Oh and how was the cake? My b-day is in a few weeks...yikes!

ugh....I hear ya....going thru the same thing!! I'm thinking the longer they take the more weight i am gonna gain.

So it's official...I have sleep apnea...and I haven't slept since I found out...only catnapping since. UGH. At this point, I am not even thinking about the lapband...I just want to sleep. I have checked out the horrors of sleep apnea...double ugh! I went to the sleep apnea online support site...not as user friendly as LBT..boo-hoo.

Anyway, Tuesday is when I get fitted for my lovely "headress"..hey maybe I can glue feathers on it...LOL :whoo:

I laid on the couch :couch2:the other night to relax...all alone in the livingroom...and my throat closes...OMG...sat bolt upright...told myself to relax and I'd be okay....hmmm not! Went to the kitchen to get cold water from the cooler...took a sip, and the swelling went down! Yay! Luckily that was the only time that has happened to me.....but honestly I do find myself holding my breath a lot...esp when I am driving...Its comical when I think about it...I'll be driving along:car: and start to feel faint...and I am thinking...crap what is this about...then I realize..."Dummy, you are holding your breath!!!!! I take a breath and immediatly feel better. :drama: ugh the drama!!

Okay the Pulmonary Doc called today to discuss the outcome of my sleep apnea test 10 MINUTES BEFORE I GOT HOME TODAY....do you think any of my family members told me!!! No, I found out at 5:45pm......he called at 3:30pm...now ya know had they told me, I could have actually spoke to him and then called my surgeon to discuss my surgery date!!!!!! Agghhh they are all fired at my house.....no more message takers, they are slacking on me!:help: So now i have to wait till Monday and ya know I am gonna have to talk to nurse-zilla..........ugh shoot me now please:laser: :Cry: ....lol.

To get even with my family i made sad "poopy" face for the rest of the day...lol :Dancing_biggrin: :confused_smile:

Okay that was enough whining :faint: for now ......gonna go do my spanish homework. :ranger:

LOL.......that is too funny. Bi Polar -no ...multiple ---lol perhaps....but if that is the case, we are all in agreement on this decision...LOL

Okay so first I get the bloodwork done locally (it was faster). Then came the nutritionist, then the psych eval....lol I am a psych major--I interviewed myself several times already.....didn't they know that???....LOL:lalala:

on the 30th of May I had all the other fun stuff done...xrays, ultrasounds...drinking that puky stuff so they could xray me again:spit: .

Next stop....pulmonary specialist to make sure I do not have sleep apnea :sleep . Omg Nurse-zilla and her faithful followers work in the NJ office!!! What a twit, I try to arrange the test after the doc swore to me that he would speed me thru and get me a bed in the next day or two......yeah they gave me an appt 5 weeks later!!!!!!! Then i called around to get a better deal...same sleep center company just a different location and one I knew for sure was covered by my insurance---and Nurse-zilla had a fit. Hello-----its my right as a patient to make sure I am getting the best medical attention I can!!!!!! :heh: Ugh I was sooo mad...she had the nerve to tell me that getting an appt quicker would not get my surgery quicker...omg did she even hear what she was saying??? My surgeon told me the faster the test, the quicker i get my surgery date!!!! But no, I was nice to Nurse-zilla because I figured she had something I needed----I will bitch slap her later!!!!:devious So after a week of "convincing" her i get my appt....I did the sleep apnea test :notagree on July 2nd.

This Tuesday, I get the results from the doc. (If I am lucky -nurse-zilla will be on vacation).

Getting so excited now.

Okay so as previously stated, I decided in April (2006) to do something about it (the dreaded pounds). I called my sister and asked her about her surgeon. She told me how to look him up online. I did:paranoid . I found his webinar. I tried to register online but they were having problems so I called him. I decided to at least go see the doc and see what he had to say :paranoid. Oh did I mention that I watched that webinar four times!!!:behindsofa: ?? Yeah I wanted to know exactly what I was getting into .

I decided on lapband surgery, it seems safer...just better all around. Plus recovery time is faster which is for me as I cannot miss too much school! And the weight loss is slower which is great for me also because I cannot afford to have surgery to remove excess skin :confused_smile: . I called my husbands insurance to see if the doc and the procedure was covered...OMG it is:clap2: !!!!

My first appt was April 24th...:Dancing_biggrin: I was so excited!

The doc said I was the perfect candidate...not too too heavy, no co-morbidities, and my age. so excited!! Gotta do the tests...no problem I'd do what ever they wanted to get this done. (the doc was impressed that I watched his webinar 4 times...lol)

One Day in April (2006) I decided that this weight gain has gone too far. I hated feeling "sick" all the time. I def do not feel my age, and didn't want to look older than my age. My sister had gastric bypass surgery done 4 years ago. I was a huge supporter of this as I do not want to see her die young (she is younger than me).:faint: At the time I was no where near the weight you have to be to have WLS. Last year I went to Europe with my oldest daughter for two weeks...we literally "walked" europe. I came home 17 lbs lighter:D , I vowed the weight would not come back. I lied. :phanvan It not only came back, it brought 30 of it's friends with it......ugh:cry . Oh I didn't mention that I am not a big snack-attacker....I am a full-time student whose husband cooks like a gourmet and I am at his mercy at dinnertime:hungry: . I also have three kids, three dogs, two cats....busy house.