livinhealthy72

Letting go of your home is hard, my ex and I are going through the process now. We listed our house about a month ago with the understanding we would be taking a loss. We got very lucky and found buyers within a week of the listing. We have requested a short sale from our lender and are waiting to hear back. I'm not sure of your situation but can tell you it is a huge relief to be out from under that kind of financial stress. It is so not worth the deterioration of your relationship with your partner which is what happened in our situation. Starting over is very hard but ultimately the price we paid emotionally was by far worse than the financial impact. We should have let the house go a lot sooner and not let it take such a toll on us.

Tina you look absolutely F-ing amazing! I am so happy for you, figure out who you are, love you and live life!

Here I am Friday night it's after midnight so technically it's early Saturday morning I guess and, I'm alone. I spent my evening watching all of Season 1 of "Sex and the City". Watching these old episodes brings to light that I possess a lot of the same qualities of these women. I am a neurotic over-thinker like Carrie, a cynic like Miranda, being in my mid-30s at my sexual peak brings on Samantha like cravings and, like Charlotte still manage to have that starry-eyed hope that Mr. Right is going to sweep me off my feet and yada yada yada....happily ever after. I have spent the past month trying to figure out how I'm supposed to be, I don't even remember who I was prior to my ex. How is it that we change so much without even realizing it is happening? The initial qualities and interests that attract us and bring us together somehow get stepped over, lost somewhere along the way or perhaps just seem unimportant. Then one day we wake up two completely different people and wonder what in the hell happened? How did I get here? The truth is I still have no idea who I am right now. It is so hard to learn how to separate yourself and just be an individual again. It's hard to remember there is no more "we" it is just single, no more plural. How is it I find myself longing for what I chose to leave behind? It has been SO much harder than I ever realized it would be. I still just hurt, and being alone sucks.

Here I am Friday night it's after midnight so technically it's early Saturday morning I guess and, I'm alone. I spent my evening watching all of Season 1 of "Sex and the City". Watching these old episodes brings to light that I possess a lot of the same qualities of these women. I am a neurotic over-thinker like Carrie, a cynic like Miranda, being in my mid-30s at my sexual peak brings on Samantha like cravings and, like Charlotte still manage to have that starry-eyed hope that Mr. Right is going to sweep me off my feet and yada yada yada....happily ever after. I have spent the past month trying to figure out how I'm supposed to be, I don't even remember who I was prior to my ex. How is it that we change so much without even realizing it is happening? The initial qualities and interests that attract us and bring us together somehow get stepped over, lost somewhere along the way or perhaps just seem unimportant. Then one day we wake up two completely different people and wonder what in the hell happened? How did I get here? The truth is I still have no idea who I am right now. It is so hard to learn how to separate yourself and just be an individual again. It's hard to remember there is no more "we" it is just single, no more plural. How is it I find myself longing for what I chose to leave behind? It has been SO much harder than I ever realized it would be. I still just hurt, and being alone sucks.

Thank you, need all the help I can get!

So here I am, on my way to gettin' "sexy back" and my relationship with BF of four years comes to a screechingly painful halt. I figure it was doomed to happen because it is Murphy's Law after all when one thing in your life starts to look up another falls in the shitter. I moved out of our gorgeous historic home into a two bedroom duplex that has no architectural detail whatsoever. I had to leave my English Mastiff behind because as a now "rentor" most places around here frown at 150 pounds of slobbering dog. I miss him terribly!!! It has been a full 30-days now and I made it through the 1st holiday with just a few tears. It is so hard to pick up and start a new life when you feel like half a person all of the sudden. It is more difficult than I remember and have dedicated 2009 as the "getting a handle on my life" year.

So here I am, on my way to gettin' "sexy back" and my relationship with BF of four years comes to a screechingly painful halt. I figure it was doomed to happen because it is Murphy's Law after all when one thing in your life starts to look up another falls in the shitter. I moved out of our gorgeous historic home into a two bedroom duplex that has no architectural detail whatsoever. I had to leave my English Mastiff behind because as a now "rentor" most places around here frown at 150 pounds of slobbering dog. I miss him terribly!!! It has been a full 30-days now and I made it through the 1st holiday with just a few tears. It is so hard to pick up and start a new life when you feel like half a person all of the sudden. It is more difficult than I remember and have dedicated 2009 as the "getting a handle on my life" year.

I understand your feelings are hurt but you have to understand most men are very good about separating what is real vs what is fantasy. Men are very visual and are going to look at other women, no matter how fabulous and hot you look. Do NOT take this personally, they are men.....they like looking.....they can't help themselves! Addiction to porn can cause devastation to a relationship that is true. But honestly it sounds to me like he just likes to look. I would gauge it by this; does he spend money joining porn sites, does he spend money on 900 numbers, does he go into porn type chat rooms? If the answer is no to all, I wouldn't sweat it. My advice is to relax and talk with him Don't force him to hide it from you. The fact he has to hide it and lie about it makes it a deceptive act when in fact it probably isn't. You may feel differently if you open up and try to enjoy porn with him on occassion both online and video. Rent some sexy movies together, drink some wine, get frisky and have fun!

Ok, so my weigh in at my 2nd fill only displayed a 6oz weight reduction but since Thursday I am down 5 pounds!!! Woohoo! I definatley feel the difference with the 2nd fill opposed to the 1st. Shew!

Ok, so my weigh in at my 2nd fill only displayed a 6oz weight reduction but since Thursday I am down 5 pounds!!! Woohoo! I definatley feel the difference with the 2nd fill opposed to the 1st. Shew!

I am still in awe of you. I can only hope your proceedure goes as smoothly and painlessly as mine did and that your recovery is as quick! God speed, and look forward to more posts.