Anna N.

On 11/29/2021 at 5:21 PM, rjan said:

Why are you so sure that your symptoms are related to the surgery, since you say they started 6 months later? It certainly could be a Vitamin issue. But there's also other possibilities.

I mean your symptoms sound exactly like the problems I had for 5 years in my 20's, and then for about 2 years now. I was diagnosed with chronic fatigue syndrome back in my 20s. I wish I could tell you what to do about it, because I'm not sure myself. You could certainly seek out a doctor who is familiar with chronic fatigue syndrome. Right now is actually a good time to be looking because a lot of people are suffering with long covid, and some people think that long covid IS chronic fatigue. This doesn't mean that we've always had covid, but the idea is that chronic fatigue has always been a bad post-viral reaction (but can be caused by a variety of viruses.) 

However, I can very much sympathize with you. It's terrible because hardly anyone takes you seriously - not most doctors even. I'd need all my fingers and toes to count the number of people who told me I was "just depressed." But I've certainly been depressed before - and I know this ain't it.

Here's an article I found really helpful. It's about medical professionals with long covid talking about how hard it is for them to navigate the health care system, even though they know it really well, and getting dismissed by their colleagues as "all in your head" or whatever. 

https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2021/11/health-care-workers-long-covid-are-being-dismissed/620801/

i live in a country where the word chronic fatigue system doesn't even exist. and i cant stop crying cause in the afternoons i feel half dead. i cant do anything. and everyone thinks i am super healthy, and i KNOW its not depression. the crying and sadness is a result of this, and i keep telling myself its a phase, it will pass, but its not going away, on the contrary, i feel like i am sinking deeper and deeper. and i know i need to stop with the sedatives like xanax or lexilium that i am taking. but i cant consolidate myself without them.

i am crying while writing this, thank you for your reply, yeah, i take b Vitamins on the regular with magnezium , the latest blood tests showed i am a little anemic, but nothing to be too concerned with. B12 levels normal, but low. i have been suffering for a year now, i need it to stop. so u think i need to increase my b1 and b12 levels intake? cause i read about it and b1 is also important, its just maddening when everyone says u are great when u are suffering so much. and yeah, i have tingling myself, like awful goosebumps. by now nothing has changed except for the fact that i am addicted to xanax and the AD i am taking which i am sure i do NOT need. the depression is a result of me feeling absent minded all the time. its not the cause of all this suffering.

gosh, i don't even know hoe to begin with this. so i already wrote on here once, and things have only gotten worse. i had my surgery september 2019, i was 140 kgs at the time, and after a year i lost almost half my body weight, the lowest i was was 72 kgs. sorry European here, cant do the lbs.

anyways, half a year after my surgery, i was basically starving myself, but feeling great, but at the 6 month mark i started to faint. collapsed the first time at a gathering, and then a year after the surgery, when all this started i collapsed fully again. even with collapsing my brain felt fine, active, working out, and all that. however, at the year mark something changed. i started feeling absent minded, with brain fog. i started checking everything, blood work, hormonal work, all normal, but i was suffering cause i was barely getting through the day. got a dietitian, so i could eat better. that didn't help either.

after that i was convinced i had a brain tumor, so i did an MRI, also brain wave lengths tests, all came out perfectly fine. my father is a surgeon btw. he works with cancer patients all the time, and he is convinced that i am super healthy, for the first tiime iin my life. but i felt like my life was ending. still am. can't do anything. cant work.

they diagnosed me with an anxiety and depression disorder, gave me pills that i have been taking for a year now, that do nothing for me, just make me want to sleep. i sleep for 12 hours and still wake up in a daze, not knowing where i am. thyroid also checked, everything was fine. i have better days, but days like today when i feel more out of touch than ever i feel like i am going crazy. i fear that i am gonna die, but everyone tells me its maybe deprersonalization or derealization, but i know myself, and something happened to me after that surgery.

i did in turkey so i had no pre op or post op. just did it and went home. and starved myself. and now i feel like my life is ending. sorry for the long post.

2 hours ago, BriarRose said:

Please check with the doc that prescribed the medication. Also, antidepressants/antanxiety meds take about 6 weeks to regulate your brain. A low dose SSRI should not make you feel so out of it. Hopefully they started you on a very low dose and work your way up rather than a higher dose and move down.....

it is a low dose, starting to double it after tomorrow actually since i was told to do so after the 2 weeks, and i am taking xanax along side the antideressant.

On 11/29/2020 at 8:05 PM, imadethelist said:

I wonder if your Iron is low? Anemia is common after WLS. I had it for the first time in my life about 1-2 yrs out. Dr got me on a temporary Iron supplement and it made all the difference. Now I’m just pretty conscious of my iron intact. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

did blood work 2 times, the second time especially for anemia, everything is fine. even did an insulin resistance test, and i have hyperinsulinemia, but it doesn't explain my symptoms, my endocrinologist told me that my pancreas will get better in time without therapy, she said she could give me therapy, but that in time my body would fix that on its own. even did the ANA test for autoimmune diseases, it showed nothing. but i feel worse with every passing day. i just pray i get better now, cause i have no idea how i am gonna live like this.

On 11/28/2020 at 11:04 PM, MaybeMeow2 said:

Oh honey. You just described anxiety. You have anxiety. It's not uncommon. And most likely exacerbated by your lack of nutrition. Do what your nutritionist says. See a therapist. Try some anti-anxiety meds. It will take some time but you're going to be ok. And when you get better you're going to be ok and TRIM! Hang in there.

hey, yeah everybody says its textbook anxiety / depression. but its been almost 3 months now, nothing has changed. i will hit my 2 week mark with antidepressants tomorrow, but dont feel much difference tbh. they just make me numb, make me complain less. i feel like my head will explode, i still feel the absentness, i sleep like i am in a coma, and when i do wake up i feel like i havent slept for years. its a nightmare. the only thing i havent done still is a lumbar puncture. all the other results seem great, everybody keeps telling me that i am great. but i feel like i am dying, slowly, day by day. and it doesnt matter how much food i eat or how much Water i drink. its horrible.

On 11/8/2020 at 5:05 AM, MamT said:

I had similar issues and finally insisted on going to a hematologist/oncologist to look at my blood work. I knew something was wrong because I know my body. He was amazing and saw that I had no Iron in reserve in my body. I received 2 infusions and felt great. My Iron levels were always a little low, but my other doctors didn’t think it was a big deal. But I knew something wasn’t right so I insisted. Don’t give up. You know your body! Good luck!

so all your blood work, even the iron was normal, ok maybe a little low, yet a hematologist saw that something was wrong and helped u?

they did find something with the insulin however they wanna fix it with the diet. i dont know why, since i keep telling everyone nothing changes no matter hat i eat. i still feel so absent, it gets worse every day. i cant function properly anymore. yet nobody is concerned. they have me on antidepressants that only make me worry less, but the brain fog, the fatigue, and the general disorientation get worse every single day. i dont know how i am gonna live like this.

7 hours ago, Luna805 said:

Congrats to you on the weight loss and sorry to hear your not feeling good. I just wanted to give some person to person advice. Have you had any type (and you don’t have to share) of trauma in your life? I ask because extreme weight loss can open up emotional wounds for some people. Some people deal with pain by over eating and when that’s no longer possible, past pain can resurface. This can be a time of revelations and anxiety when we go through big physical changes. If anything like that feels true I would definitely seek out help for emotional support through a psychiatrist. — if none of that feels true, then keep at it with the Doctor’s until they can
Help you feel better. Best of luck to you.

thank you! i did go to another neuro psychiatrist that once again gave me a diagnosis of depression and anxiety, saying that that aside from the physical aspect of the whole thing, i didn't have psychological help and support either, so she gave me xanax and some other organic calming pill in order to help me. honestly, not feeling any improvements, all the contrary, it keeps getting worse, however she told me to give it time. willing to try anything at this point. and as traumas go, the life in a 31- lbs body is never easy, so i was heavily bullied growing up, however, i always thought i dealt with it.maybe not. idk.

4 hours ago, MamT said:

I had similar issues and finally insisted on going to a hematologist/oncologist to look at my blood work. I knew something was wrong because I know my body. He was amazing and saw that I had no Iron in reserve in my body. I received 2 infusions and felt great. My Iron levels were always a little low, but my other doctors didn’t think it was a big deal. But I knew something wasn’t right so I insisted. Don’t give up. You know your body! Good luck!

hey, so i did another blood work and once again everything seemed to be perfectly normal, with the exception of the insulin resistance test that i insisted on doing, which showed that after they gave me sugar to drink i started feeling sick and faint again, the blood work showed that the insulin had dropped significantly. this test is done in three hours, and the way it works is they take blood each hour but in the meantime they give u sugar to drink to see how your insulin and pancreas react. so i need to see an endocrinologist once more, since the first one i saw laughed at me and told me i was perfectly fine.

3 hours ago, Jeri Lynn said:

It’s has been well established that Bariatric patients can develop orthostatic Intolerance post Bariatric surgery. It is a complication of the autonomic nervous system. Just google Orthostatic intolerance after Bariatric surgery and you will find page after page of articles documenting this syndrome. All the symptoms you mention are there. Autonomic dysfunction is not well understood and many physicians are unaware. I have had this syndrome for 4 years and I have not had Bariatric surgery yet. I ran across all this information while looking for research about my illness. I get shaky, sweaty, nauseated and dizzy with brain fog. I have collapsed numerous times but have never lost consciousness. If I lie where I collapse lift my leg up in the air to allow the blood to return from my legs to my upper body I can get up and be alright for a little while. I specifically cannot stand in place. I must be walking or the dizzy collapse feelings hits me immediately. All my symptoms resolve when I lie down. I understand this has been noted to be a common post op complication of Bariatric procedures. Please take the time to do a little research. You may just be able to tell your physician what is wrong with you. I wish you luck. There is no cure but there are treatments to improve it. I was diagnosed at the mayo Clinic. This is a neurological condition and I was in the Emergency room 27 times before a cardiologist picked up up all this was happening when upright. I was fine lying down. I am a registered nurse and I was absolutely scared to death when I was told over and over you are alright, your test are normal. I did not feel normal and it was not anxiety/ panic attacks as many suggested. I had become very angry with the lack of concern for my symptoms. I was dizzy with a racing heart and all the symptoms you mentioned and more. I am so thankful that I ran across a physician that was knowledgeable of the condition and knew I needed expert care. I struggle, and was unfortunately completely disabled 7 months after my symptoms first appeared. I am so debilitated physically that I have gained 60 pounds and am pre diabetic. I am currently working towards the gastric sleeve. I am afraid it may worsen my condition but I have a glimmer of hope it may improve my situation somewhat. 

I forgot to mention that I experienced the same situation when showering. The mayo Clinic physician explained because of the blood shift and pooling to the legs and lower abdomen upon standing, that the hot Water in the shower acts as a vasodialator which worsens the blood return to the upper body. The dizziness is hypo perfusion of blood to the head. I get short of breath, with chest discomfort and dizzy. The heart begins to pump hard and fast to return blood to the upper body. 

is there any way or any tests they can do in order for them to determine for sure that this is what i have?

1 hour ago, xoxoMeli said:

Honestly, I'm not a Dr. and I'm in the pre-op stage but it sounds like severe anxiety to me.

the anxiety happens when u feel absent and feel weakness at all times, not being able to focus on anything that u used to enjoy. it makes u question how u can function in the real world like that and it comes in, heavy, relentlessly. i never used to be like this.

1 hour ago, Kikikiki said:

Let me know how you go with the nutrition regimen... I have seen 5 dietitians and no improvement yet but apart from that, no I haven’t because every time I go to the doctor all the tests they do come back fine apart from my Iron is low but they never mention that low Iron could cause all this...

how long have u felt like this? is the feeling constant? i am going insane these weeks, i have never felt like this in my entire life. this isn't me.

10 hours ago, BriarRose said:

You are describing anxiety and panic attacks. Which happen to many people and can be helped either with medication or with therapy and relaxation techniques. Please try a consult with a therapist or psychiatrist - I think you will find that some of your symptoms can be dealt with and you will feel much better

i will see a psychiatrist, however, the reason for my anxiety is the fact that i have been feeling absent and not myself for weeks now. and it's freaking me out since it's not going away. if i felt my old self back, i believe i would be ok. but of course i will consult a psychiatrist.

19 hours ago, Katherine K said:

I am Pre-Op so I cannot relate completely to this, but that awful yucky feeling is familiar to me when my Vitamins were off in the past- things like Vitamin D, Iron, the B Vitamins. It's SO frustrating when doctors don't seem to be giving your results full attention. Have you considered an endocrinologist? In addition to Water I'd say make sure you're getting a large amount of Protein because that seems to be the quickest "fix" to post-surgery feelings from my friends who have had surgery. I think it would be good to see a mental health specialist, too. You've had MASSIVE changes to your life and even though they are generally good, any life change is a stressor in a way. I hope you feel better soon.

thank you for your input, i really appreciate it. i did see an endocrinologist, she literally repeated the same things that the doctors that saw my blood work said: you are a healthy young girl, eat more, drink more , find yourself a hobby ( this seemed particularly ridiculous to me since i can't even watch a movie normally anymore ) and in time u will feel better and the body will find it's balance. none of them seemed to care how i felt for days now. so like i said, i am consulting a nutritionist now, hoping to see some changes. also seeing a psychiatrist soon. hopefully i will come out of this.

10 hours ago, California Guy said:

I have a similar experience to share. I got the sleeve in 2013. About 1 year post op I hadn't reached my goal weight and decided to do a liquid only diet for 4 weeks. We all know liquid diets will result in weight loss. Three weeks in, I felt faint. I almost passed out a few times when going from sitting to standing. I lost my appetite and found no pleasure in anything I did. At this point I had lost 117 lbs. I convinced myself if weight loss was going to make me feel so bad, it wasn't worth it. I gradually let my diet slip and over the next few years gained 90 lbs.

This year I went in for a revision to DS. Again, I felt faint frequently. I fainted one time at home and woke up on the tile floor. This time I did some research and consulted my doctors. I attributed the light headedness to a combination of several things. Too much low blood pressure medicine, so we halved it twice. I assumed my blood sugar was low so I added more fruit to my diet. Restrictive diet with many artificial foods (shakes). It was time to advance to a soft food diet so I started eating a great variety of real food and dropped Protein Shakes completely. I needed more calories. Ketosis, I had a lot of rapid weight loss. At this stage the weight loss slowed a bit. Dehydration. I was doing a lot of outdoor home projects in the Summer. I wasn't getting enough Water. 

I tested as much as I could individually and was able to rule out the blood pressure medicine. Even when I didn't take medicine for days, I was light headed. Even when I drank plenty of Water for days, I was light headed all the time. 

From my experience the second time around, I dealt with the problems and changed everything up until I found the right combination. I eat healthy meals, get plenty of food, and lose weight each month. Four months later, I'm no longer feeling light headed. Today I'm at my lowest weight in 20 years. 

I know they call loss of satisfaction a form of depression. I never went to a psychiatrist. Maybe I should have but I don't feel I would get much benefit from them. My advice is to evaluate your nutrition plan and eliminate anything that isn't natural food. Natural sugars in fruit are better than anything with added sugars. Protein in lean meats is better than Protein shakes or bars. 

hey, thanks for your input, it really helped! could u tell me maybe in terms of protein what works the best for you? my nutritionist has me on a lot of fruits and a lot of fish , i just started yesterday, so i hope i will see a difference soon. in terms of protein, Vitamins intake, what works the best for you? how much do u eat in a day now that u have found your balance?

thank you.

9 hours ago, Arabesque said:

First, congrats on your weight loss success. Secondly, I’m sorry you’re experiencing these problems after all your efforts.

I’ve randomly experienced those feelings of light headedness, jelly legs, cold sweats, doughy thinking, etc. For me it signals either a drop in my blood pressure or in my blood sugars. Stressful situations or over strenuous activity can bring it on too. I have Gilbert’s which contributes to my attacks.

I find if I grab a cracker, some blueberries or grapes, etc. it will pass. Drinking Water & sitting or reclining helps if it’s a blood pressure drop. 

Do you have a blood pressure cuff at home? For some people, their pressure goes up & down throughout the day so being tested at your doctors may not reveal what’s really going on. 

Try keeping a snack in your bag. (I snack every 2 hours.) I have bottles of Water all over my house & in my car. This has helped me. I also agree with the suggestion of seeking advice from your nutritionalist to make sure your diet is balanced & providing all your needs.

I hope you can find some answers & solutions to this. Good luck. 

thank you! yeah i have lost much more than i should have in a year, which is what every doctor keeps telling me, and with not eating and drinking well through the year, it took it's toll on my body and mind. i just want a way out of this, especially since i want to get back to work and move apartments, but i can't do any of that now, since i can't seem to focus on anything for more than half an hour at the max, everything takes so much work.

yeah before seeing this nutritionist i tried eating every 2 hours, these last days before i started with the regime that she gave me, not much has changed honestly, but i have faith in seeing the nutritionist now, that i will get back to myself.

i can't live like this, i have even had moments when i have kept wondering was this all worth it?

2 hours ago, jennba said:

I have to agree with seeking the psychiatric evaluation. For many years psychiatric care has had a stigma, but caring for the mind is just as important as the body. You can tell from your initial post that you have quite a bit of anxiety, and sounds like could be leading to a vasovagal response. This is like people that are terrified of shots and pass out. If you were dehydrated or had a B12 deficiency they would have see that on your labs, and why the other test that they ran are normal. It would definitely be worth looking into.

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yeah i am actually going to see one next week. wanna give the nutritionist thing a shot first. i have TREMENDOUS amounts of anxiety but that's just because i have been feeling like this for almost 2 weeks now. and i barely see any improvement. i have started a regimen with a nutritionist so i am hopeful, i have to be. but i will give a psychiatrist a shot, for sure. it is just so hard when everybody says you are ok, give yourself time, find something to do, when they know how active i was before, and now even going to the kitchen to make my meals feels like climbing a mountain for me.

8 hours ago, Kikikiki said:

Hi! I’m very similar to you, since my surgery I have had so many health issues and the way you describe not feeling ‘present’ is exactly how I would describe how I feel... I’ve seen doctor after doctor, had blood test after blood test and in the end they said I have mental health issues - mind you, all this has happened since my surgery. Sometimes I find it so hard to explain how I feel but I just don’t feel ok if that makes sense... my mind feels foggy and heavy, I feel like if someone touches me softly I’ll fall over like I’m swaying on a tight rope kind of feeling... my chest is often tight and heavy like I’m constantly panicking... 

this is exactly how i am feeling! everyone keeps telling me you are healthy, u need to see a psychiatrist, and i keep feeling like this, day after day after day... it's maddening. i started with the regimen my nutritionist gave me since yesterday, i will keep at it, hopefully it will bring me back. honestly i just want to feel like myself again... have u tried anything else? have u seen a nutritionist?

1 hour ago, Alsgal said:

Thank you Ana, I see my nutritionist 6 weeks post op and I will follow your advice! I hope you find an answer and a way for you to feel better. Living trapped in 300 pound body is no life. Living constantly in the twilight zone and zero energy is also no kinda life either, not to mention adding loss of consciousness.

exactly, which is why the most important thing is to find the balance that works for you. i need to remain hopeful, that in some time i will start to feel like myself again, do all the things i used to do and that this is not more serious. all the doctors keep telling me just give it time, months even, the body will find it's balance, but in the meantime feed it properly with everything it needs and of course drink a hell a lot of Water. i am actually starting the regimen my nutritionist gave today to me so fingers crossed it all goes well.

1 hour ago, Alsgal said:

Hello, I am new to this and also new to the by pass group... my surgery was oct 22, 2020. I have felt this feeling you are talking about, I call it "the twilight zone" it feels disconnected and my bp would be low also. I started feeling it some when I changed my diet, I thought it was Keto brain, but when I did the pre op 500 cal shakes only for 2 weeks it got much worse. Now that I'm (almost) 3 weeks post op I feel it less often but add being extremly exhausted. I worry after reading your post that this could be a long term problem. I lost from 365 to 273 pre op, I wondered if I should put the surgery off and do it on my own but I could only imagine regaining what I had lost, like I always have. Sorry this is so long.

I wonder if your bp is low during the times you feel you could pass out?

hey, the times i passed out were different. the first time was beginning of May this year i was at a barbecue, and then suddenly i felt that sensation i had this last Saturday, but on Saturday i controlled it, i didn't faint, i started breathing really hard , but in may i couldn't do that since i had no clue what was going on. maybe i was in the sun for too long, or my blood pressure dropped, but i could barely manage to get inside and pass out. the second and third times were in the shower, and it just make it that much more horrifying. doctors always explain it to me that the steam of the hot Water coming from the shower combined with the fact that my blood sugar was very low and that i wasn't getting enough water , those things combined made me pass out and feel this horribly. however i was always able to come back after those, granted, i always felt tired, always saved energy, never overdid it, but always CONSCIOUS of my surroundings and willing to participate in everything. now it's all changed and it's been 2 weeks and i am freaked out.

whenever i took my BP it was relatively normal. the best advice i could give you, find the rhythm that works for you, dont push yourself to lose weight, our bodies are already conditioned to lose weight after surgery. whats hard and what i think a lot of people don't realize is that the body needs to find it's balance and where is the weight or the calorie intake it needs in order to function properly. so i would advise u consult a nutritionist. eat and drink all the recommended, because the weight will drop sooner rather than later, but feeling this way, the way i have since Saturday, IS NOT WORTH IT. i sincerely hope that i will come back from this, and feel like my old self again, that i need to be patient, but don't let yourself get here. just take your time and eat healthy. i had unhealthy goals, and reaching them in one year cost me this what i am experiencing now.

1 hour ago, Deemar007 said:

I'm sure your nutrionist already asked you this, but I'll just ask too. Are you taking your monthly B12 shots?

nope , she saw on my blood work that B12 levels were ok and now i am taking it via supplement. everybody just glances over my blood work and hormonal work, sees that they are ok, and just tell me " you are healthy, you just starved yourself for a year and now the body needs to find it's balance " when i feel horrible every single day. i can't focus, no energy, i am not present when i am speaking to someone, it's even hard to go to the kitchen and make something to eat for myself when i loved to cook before this year. i even lost my appetite.

the blood work show some Vitamin D deficiency though. taking supplements for it now. could this be real? did i over do it the first year?

thanks to everyone that answered, i did start drinking a lot more Water these last couple of days, not a lot has changed im afraid. the doctors keep telling me i need to give it time, however as time passes i get more and more desperate and anxious unfortunately. its scary when everyone is telling u that you are healthy but u don't feel it. i really hope that with better nutrition and more water it will go away eventually.

hi everyone, im very new here, decided to join because i had the gastric sleeve about a year ago, September 17th, 2019, and since i left the hospital and went back home to Europe, im not from the states, i started losing weight pretty quickly. the constant not feeling a 100 wasn't a problem for me since i had decided before hand to give myself time and dedicate my time to only this, losing the weight and get myself back to normal. i ever quit my job since i have the possibility of being self sustained for a while. so i just went on, eating very little, resting whenever i could.

everything was going fine, since at the time of the surgery i was 310 lbs and now i am 160 lbs, so 150 lbs are down in a year. however a couple of weeks ago i started feeling faint,couldn't concentrate and i was on vacation at the time and had collapsed a couple of times before that, but i didn't think much of it. drove back home barely with no energy at all, did some house work when i got back ( always resting whenever i could always lying down whenever i could, mostly how spent the last year since the surgery, always saving energy but always aware, always conscious ) until i got a call from my ex boss that wanted me back to work 2 weeks ago. i didn't sleep that night because i started panicking about my future and wondering how i was ever gonna be able to work feeling as shitty as i did, and then i went to the meeting with him, had a coffee, declined his offer because i already decided that i needed to find some place new to work at, since that one was too toxic, and after an hour i felt how my brain felt before it wanted to collapse. so i panicked not wanting to faint in a public place and rushed to my car, got home, as soon as i laid down i haven't been the same since.

i have felt absent, any conversation feels difficult to me, like i am floating, but i am conscious , however not totally present. any physical activity is hell, even though i worked out three times a week before this and walked with no problems. so i went and got my blood work done and hormonal work done, i even got an MRI of my head because i had such bad episodes of feeling like i was literally gonna die, i thought i had a brain tumor. but everything turned out great, everything is normal. the doctors keep on insisting i lost too much weight in one year and that i need to find a balance now, a classic case of malnutrition and starvation. however my brain is still not letting me feel like i am healthy because all the time i am feeling like i am not present. the doctors say that now i am in a state of catabolism, where the body has drained all its resources and it will take time to recover, psychically and mentally. i started seeing a nutritionist that claims that she will help me. it remains to be seen. one thing is for sure i cant live and function like this. its hard for me to tell myself you are healthy , nothing is wrong when i can barely get through the day with ease. i wake up feeling like this, there is always a panic in my chest that i may never recover from this. the doctors even say i need psychiatric help, but i know that's not the case since i need to solve mt psychical state first. i need to tart feeling like myself again asap.

has anyone else ever experienced problems like these? sorry for the long post, i am very desperate for any good advise i may get. god bless you all. here is a pic of me exactly a year apart from surgery and this September, just before i started feeling like this.