andrastesgrace

I think it is really important to address the idea that you are "giving up on doing this on your own" because truthfully there are a lot of unkind people who may say this to you. Truthfully it does sound like you cannot do this on your own, according to what you're telling us about your past, and you know what? That is really and truly okay and there's nothing wrong with you. The vast majority of overweight/obese people can't lose and maintain a lot of weight long-term either. There's nothing wrong with having completely normal limitations in one area and you aren't obligated to suffer through a much harder and more difficult path to treat your medical condition just because society idolizes that path. A key factor in my decision to get gastric sleeve was realizing that people were always going to judge me- whether I stayed fat, lost weight through surgery, or even if I lost weight the traditional way, because some people will judge me from being fat in the first place. Ultimately I think its much better to be judged for something that makes you happier. For me, for a long time, what made me happiest was being fat and loving myself, now it is choosing gastric sleeve and loving myself, and I'm happy with both choices because they were what I chose. I hope whatever path you choose brings you joy ❤️
I totally get where you're coming from though. Obesity is weird because its one of the only medical conditions where people think less of you for using medical interventions to cure it. It is really easy to internalize those types of thought processes.

Ya, I think you may be adding unnecessary worry on your plate, lol! (But it get it, change and the unknown can be anxiety-inducing).
Stay the course, keep your eye on the prize and do the honest best you can do...its totally worth it. ❤️
Complications may or not be in your future, but I figure its better to leave the worry on those if they actually happen.