notmyname

I know I've posted a couple times that I'm not sure I'm actually going through with it. Today is the last day to cancel my surgery without a hefty fee and I've decided I'm going to do it. My therapist helped me reframe it as this is something I'm doing for me (ease in travel, health, being able to stay in my multi-story house, comfort), even though I really don't want to. It's helped. My SIL bought her plane ticket and is coming up and this is actually happening. This board has been a real help.

I know I've posted a couple times that I'm not sure I'm actually going through with it. Today is the last day to cancel my surgery without a hefty fee and I've decided I'm going to do it. My therapist helped me reframe it as this is something I'm doing for me (ease in travel, health, being able to stay in my multi-story house, comfort), even though I really don't want to. It's helped. My SIL bought her plane ticket and is coming up and this is actually happening. This board has been a real help.

I know I've posted a couple times that I'm not sure I'm actually going through with it. Today is the last day to cancel my surgery without a hefty fee and I've decided I'm going to do it. My therapist helped me reframe it as this is something I'm doing for me (ease in travel, health, being able to stay in my multi-story house, comfort), even though I really don't want to. It's helped. My SIL bought her plane ticket and is coming up and this is actually happening. This board has been a real help.

I would give my right arm to be able to eat vegetables instead of all liquid!

Thanks! This makes me feel better!

I did have that thought - especially since I'm early and was scheduled to have it DURING surgery, which clearly would have been worse.

I did have that thought - especially since I'm early and was scheduled to have it DURING surgery, which clearly would have been worse.

PSA for the ladies: lane Bryant is having a bogo $15 on their active wear and tees, plus 25 off 75, 50$ off $150, etc. I was able to get some stuff in smaller sizes on sale.

Spent Friday afternoon cooking a bunch of purees for after surgery - spinach, sweet potato, butternut squash, and black bean. I like to pre-prepare foods and even though surgery is two weeks away and I'll have two weeks after that before I get to purees, I just wanted to do something to feel prepared.
Disclaimer for the following: I'm really just rambling here because I need to say this somewhere, but don't have anyone here to talk to about it (until I meet with my therapist next week), so not looking for anyone to make this decision for me. I am really not sure if I want to do this. I am terrible at making big decisions like this, so I know that I'll never be sure. I have tried everything to lose weight, and nothing has worked. So mentally I know this is the only way to do it for me. But I still just don't want to - I don't want to have any surgery (I've been putting off fixing a ligament tear for 2 years), I'm afraid that as a pescatarian (who really doesn't eat that much fish - mostly vegetarian foods), I wont be able to get enough Protein without shakes (even in the long term) or that I'll have to start eating chicken after 25 years of not), and I have other fears. But I'm also afraid if I don't I'll just keep gaining and not be able to stay in my multi-story home or travel or oh so many things. Anyway, like I said, I just needed to get this out in the universe. I plan to have an extra long session with my therapist next week to talk all this through (she specializes in weight issues and is great).

I’m not telling anyone other than my boss, a friend that has to drive me to/from the hospital, and my personal trainer. I plan to tell people what I’ve always told people - I appreciate your concern, but my weight and what I eat are my personal business. When asked again, I say thanks, but I’ve already said that’s personal. If someone doesn’t get the hint, I say I’ve already said I won’t discuss that and either change than subject or leave.

For work people, I plan to say basically that they shouldn’t be discussing anyone’s body at work.

This is all assuming I go through with it - which I say is about 50/50 right now.

I’m not telling anyone other than my boss, a friend that has to drive me to/from the hospital, and my personal trainer. I plan to tell people what I’ve always told people - I appreciate your concern, but my weight and what I eat are my personal business. When asked again, I say thanks, but I’ve already said that’s personal. If someone doesn’t get the hint, I say I’ve already said I won’t discuss that and either change than subject or leave.

For work people, I plan to say basically that they shouldn’t be discussing anyone’s body at work.

This is all assuming I go through with it - which I say is about 50/50 right now.

October 29, if I don't chicken out. BMI 45, pre-diabetic.

It is interesting the various rules docs give. I ended up seeing three different surgeons to find someone I was comfortable with and due to some insurance issues. Each of the three had different programs on what you had to do before they’d submit to insurance, what pre-pre of diet you needed to be on before they’d submit to insurance, what pre-op rules were, and the stages for food re-introduction afterwards. So interesting. I really hope someone is doing the research to see what is really the best way for future patients. I get the feeling some of it is more art than science at this point.

Never lost any hair... so it looks the same right now as it did pre-op.

To sosewsue - maybe I’m not using the forum correctly? Is this not a place to ask for other’s personal experiences? If I’ve misunderstood, I apologize.

Thanks. I have read the research on esophageal cancer and GERD. Basically about 5-10% of those with GERD get Barrett's esophagus, and Only about 1% of those people will get esophageal cancer. That’s a pretty slim chance. Not 0%, but still low. I have endoscopes every 5 years or so and so far, all is good.

Thanks all. Lots to think about. I've done a lot of research, but appreciate the first hand experiences.

My reservations really have to do with the fact that the couple people I know who have had RNY have had really, really bad experiences and the couple people I know who have had the sleeve have had good ones. Mentally, I know that this is just anecdotal. But it just makes me concerned. And I've read that the RNY has worse side effects than the sleeve, even if the chance of side effects are low.