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I can't think of any dramatic moments, other than I go balls to the wall about any new idea to help me stay on track then I veer off like usual. But after my surgery I tried to write in my journal and after the pain meds wore off, I tried to read what I wrote and couldn't understand most of it and it was quite sideways. I know it started off talking about women and eating then it was mumbling. Then ( I had chose not to tell any of my husbands family at first to let them assume I was back on drugs after 7 years clean and sober) I went to text the one Aunt we told to let her know surgery went well and next thing I'm getting a text back from his other Aunt asking who I was. I put the phone under my butt to hide it because I didn't want her to know it was me. I'm still not sure how hiding the phone under me would ensure that, but it made me feel better at the time. My secret was kept safe (and warm). lol

My birthday is next month, and I had told myself and my hubby that if I did good from now until the 8th, I was going to reward myself with some "good" food. Well, I have not done good so I've grounded myself and said stick to the same foods.
When I started this topic earlier (then my computer lost what I had typed) I realized that I don't need to reward myself with food. After all, I got obese by comforting myself with food. That is like telling an addict "if you stay clean and sober a year, I'll give you some heroin." Well, I've decided instead, I'm going to get a piercing. I'm getting it this weekend because my hubby gets paid and the Tattoo studio is having a sale this month.
What kind of rewards do you give yourself?

I have United Health Care and I had forgotten that my surgeon had submitted for my approval. I swear I think they took the full 15 days. I don't know how your dr office works, but mine knew already what I needed to be approved and we did all the requirements and made sure they were made to the insurance specs before submitting for approval.

I've been stuck at the same weight for about 5-6 months. I'll gain about 5 pounds then right back down. I know I mess up my eating sometimes, well a lot. But, I've been going to the gym now and eating less with no change. I thought it was just me

I'm in AA and in the beginning I learned and I share this with my sponsees if NEVER seems too long, that's why we say "just for today" and you say it every day. If I go back to drinking and doing heroin I'll never see tomorrow eventually. The same goes with making changes now regarding my eating. We also say "progress not perfection". I'll never be perfect and as long as every day I'm doing what I need to in order to get better than I'm heading in the right direction. When someone gets upset to give up alcohol that they "only" have a couple of nights a week then something isn't right. Why is alcohol so important? food we need in order to live that's why I have to develop a healthy relationship with it. Alcohol and drugs I don't need to live.

My hubs tells me how great I'm looking, his family does too since they saw me the first time since surgery around Halloween. But, I feel flabby. But it's all about perspective.

Lol. Those of us with longer names to spell are getting the shitty end of the stick in the 'spell your name' workout.

Sent from my SM-G960U using BariatricPal mobile app

Protein is really important. I am sure that as a vegetarian it is still possible to get that much protein.

I use Bariastic. It also has bariatric friendly recipes for different stages. It keeps up with calories, Protein, Water, weight, measurements, etc. It's super easy and simple to use. Not a bunch of bells and whistles. Some people can link it to their program and the dr's can see. Mine doesn't, but it's available for some people. It's a free app as well.

I've been stuck at the same weight for about 5-6 months. I'll gain about 5 pounds then right back down. I know I mess up my eating sometimes, well a lot. But, I've been going to the gym now and eating less with no change. I thought it was just me

Proudest moment 2018 was working on my marriage and losing 50 pounds. Now I gotta get back on track.
I have a better pic, but I can't get it to upload. This pic was Dec 2017. I was 230.

I've been stuck at the same weight for about 5-6 months. I'll gain about 5 pounds then right back down. I know I mess up my eating sometimes, well a lot. But, I've been going to the gym now and eating less with no change. I thought it was just me

It always amazes me the different instructions by different dr's. I remember when I was seeing my primary they said if I stuck to a diabetic diet of 2000 calories I'd lose weight, of course I didn't, but I thought with 500 I would starve and at times that is what it feels like, then I get moody. I end up eating very bad foods. But when I eat about 1000 in healthy foods I don't get "hungry or angry". But 500 literally I don't feel full.

Boredom,stress and thinking it was necessary to eat THAT before it spoiled and turned bad, that's My trifecta of Weight Gain. The refridgerator and cupboards stayed empty, but neither told me how much they were grateful, did they? LOL through my tears!💦

Some people seem to have had success with saxenda (its a daily inection though and can be expensive if your insurance won't cover it).
I am not sure about OTC weight loss pills...fine print usually says to use inconjuction with a calorie controlled diet and exercise....it would seem to me that its the calorie controlled diet and exercise that gives results and not the pills.
There are the more extreme weight loss drugs but I thought they would need a prescription, though that may vary from country to country.

I don't know whether to laugh, like, or hug this because I feel like you just spoke for me. I don't have a procedure. But I know the feeling of NPO until late in the afternoon. And I have a pet turtle and I tell my hubs my body is looking like Bill's (our female turtles name)

This is why I needed to post on here. To get uplifting messages from people who understand the struggle. I do try to revert back to my beginning days and even then I was horrible but not this bad. My addict brain kicks in and justifies my negative behavior. When I mess up, it tells me "ef it, you've done bad might as well finish off the day." I know I can do this. I might have to be uncomfortable in the beginning, but the results are worth it. Thank y'all for the encouraging words.

I have been doing a lot better since the new year. I still do wrong, but I'm slowly getting back on track. I'm drinking more fluids and getting those back where they are supposed to be and taking my Vitamins. I am not looking forward to going to my dr and getting weighed. I think I go this month for my next visit. I get so angry and you would think that would be enough but all that does is give my warped mind a reason to indulge in comfort foods. I'm trying to drink a Protein Drink for 2 of my meals and then a nice dinner that is mostly Protein. I'm getting at least 1 protein drink in so far a day.

Sorry I didn't post a fridge pic, but nothing as spectacular as all the beautiful fridges that look like they should be shown in homes and garden. My fridge is dirty and kid friendly with lots of Snacks (healthy and not so), lots of leftovers for the family, stains, etc.
I have been doing so much better this month. Still not completely doing what I'm supposed to, but in AA we say it's progress not perfection. As long as I'm moving forward, I'm moving in the right direction.

Sorry I didn't post a fridge pic, but nothing as spectacular as all the beautiful fridges that look like they should be shown in homes and garden. My fridge is dirty and kid friendly with lots of Snacks (healthy and not so), lots of leftovers for the family, stains, etc.
I have been doing so much better this month. Still not completely doing what I'm supposed to, but in AA we say it's progress not perfection. As long as I'm moving forward, I'm moving in the right direction.

Sorry I didn't post a fridge pic, but nothing as spectacular as all the beautiful fridges that look like they should be shown in homes and garden. My fridge is dirty and kid friendly with lots of Snacks (healthy and not so), lots of leftovers for the family, stains, etc.
I have been doing so much better this month. Still not completely doing what I'm supposed to, but in AA we say it's progress not perfection. As long as I'm moving forward, I'm moving in the right direction.

Sorry I didn't post a fridge pic, but nothing as spectacular as all the beautiful fridges that look like they should be shown in homes and garden. My fridge is dirty and kid friendly with lots of Snacks (healthy and not so), lots of leftovers for the family, stains, etc.
I have been doing so much better this month. Still not completely doing what I'm supposed to, but in AA we say it's progress not perfection. As long as I'm moving forward, I'm moving in the right direction.

Sorry I didn't post a fridge pic, but nothing as spectacular as all the beautiful fridges that look like they should be shown in homes and garden. My fridge is dirty and kid friendly with lots of Snacks (healthy and not so), lots of leftovers for the family, stains, etc.
I have been doing so much better this month. Still not completely doing what I'm supposed to, but in AA we say it's progress not perfection. As long as I'm moving forward, I'm moving in the right direction.

Sorry I didn't post a fridge pic, but nothing as spectacular as all the beautiful fridges that look like they should be shown in homes and garden. My fridge is dirty and kid friendly with lots of Snacks (healthy and not so), lots of leftovers for the family, stains, etc.
I have been doing so much better this month. Still not completely doing what I'm supposed to, but in AA we say it's progress not perfection. As long as I'm moving forward, I'm moving in the right direction.

Sorry I didn't post a fridge pic, but nothing as spectacular as all the beautiful fridges that look like they should be shown in homes and garden. My fridge is dirty and kid friendly with lots of Snacks (healthy and not so), lots of leftovers for the family, stains, etc.
I have been doing so much better this month. Still not completely doing what I'm supposed to, but in AA we say it's progress not perfection. As long as I'm moving forward, I'm moving in the right direction.