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I have Nothi,g Bad to report about. Medicare- never gave Me me one- quarter the grief United Healthcare gave me when I had IT as my Primary! Been 3 1/2 years and I still have BAD MEMORIES Of Those Folks!

Y. I P E S !

Well wilt my Kale with Bacon🍳 Grease Dressing and Call Me A Salad, HONEY😝!

Well Mic I am very proud to👂 hear this; I understand S all of us do, how HARD it is to lose Down That Way, some days You Wonder if it ever Will Happen but slowly and steadily it will. happen.I remember myself how it felt to Break 300, and then 200 and now, on my my 13 month Surgiversity I am 181 this Morning, really only 6pounds to the Goal I Set Myself. Was it Worth it All? Most Days I think SO, this AM I sure didn't , I am So Weary of Emesis and it seems to be my Constant Companion. Restriction- that's a Fine Idea- Yes Indeed but never feeling quite WELL, to gain all the benefits I relinquished a LOT and sometimes it bites BIG instead of a gentle gnawing. But I Have Survived a Lot in my 73 years of LIFE, I'll make it through THIS CHALLENGE As WELL As I CAN and I do wish that for YOU. TOO.

Did well with my cataract SURGERY- took a lot longer than eye#1, Dr Koehler told TOMKITTEN, my son, it was More Complicated than He Planned, probably needed it last year when. I had my Bariatric, went back Yesterday for my One Day AFTER appointment He told me my eyesight is now 20/20, don't think it was That Good even when I was a Mini-Frustr8, now once the intraocular swellings go down I May Be Able to read my paperback books once again. I have no trouble watching TV at all, now I only have to wear my eyepatch at night, out in public where I could get bumped or when there is dirt or dust blowing in the air. So GOOD PROGRESS there. Right arm is still distended and sore, much to tell at G Surgeon about THERE. And that is my Latest Update. Until my next Posting- Frustr8 Out!

And @ SISSYJ I am over here at 73, 13 months past an RNY, yes we 1940- types can and do DO IT TOO- and any time you want a peer to peer talk---I AM HERE!

Wow You are a Lucky Ducky- wish I had been there with YOU!

Please Update us @Nacfsu- I also have been wondering how you are doing?

And I am out here in Central Ohio, my smallish- 20,000- city is called Mount Vernon- my family has lived in this area since leaving New England in the Early 1800s? Know family legend was that they traveled down the Erie Canal And down into Northern Ohio, and across my state to this area. Much farther along , 13 months today, trying to make it down the last 5-10 pounds, depending how your scale weighs-- to my goal of 175-- sounds like STILL an amount of weight? Not when YOU started at 365+ like ME and I'm 73, never gonna be Slim and Sleek unless you're hoping for Emaciation , which I am NOT. Blue, almost periwinkle blue TODAY, it gets LONG and tedious at times, but I was BORN to Triumph and I am still not ready to Give Up. So I do ❤ reading each of your Stories, 🙏pray for Each of You, keeps ME from fixiating on Myself!

And I Just Bet 🐼333 and I will be THERE hoping and praying 🙏All Goes Well!

And 🐼my Friend, I will be following your story, like all of us in Life, You Learn as You Go, and We All Will Have a Story to Tell as T8me Goes On!

Done them All except for the friends Sibling-every one I can think of was 1. Rotten Disposition 2. Belched, picked their nose or scratched private area in public 3. Gay 4. In colleges 3 states away or 5. were too much like the Rotten Little Brother I never Wanted! But, the rest -Yep did them ALL- I even dated a guy in another country so I guess I trumped Sheribear68 after all!

I ❤IT -AZhiker- it is So True and that's the Way I want it to BE and I suspect it Will BE.

Well it's 12:27 AM and I am officially NPO for a 7:30 AM surgery. I have been a busy little elf or victim, depends on your viewpoint. This will be my Third surgery in a little over a month. August 27th I had an ganglion cyst REMOVED from my left wrist, it was pressing on the nerve underneath, either pain or numbness in my fingersz- THAT ONE wasn't all that bad and besides I do like my "ortho", he's a cutie pie but I didn't tell him THAT, like many surgeons he's a tad conceited already. Then on September 24th I had a Lipoma(fatty tumor ) removed from the outer surface of my upper right arm. Yeah, Dr Pimple Popper does these in her office, not My Surgeon! I'm plunked on my back in an OR with blue sterile cloths blocking my view- at least Ron the Nurse- Anesthesia dude was passable fair, only flipping thing I could look at! And WTF she was doing to ME I am Not Quite Sure, I am bruised from elbow up to my shoulder, I have a big hard hot lump where she removed it, no sutures- just glued/welded shut and UGLY. The old joke was "Beauty is Skin- Deep while Ugly goes through to the Bone" well this is wicked nasty in appearance. Looks almost like hand and fingerprints, did one of the crew steady my arm That Way? Don't you think with as much as insurance pays they could have put it on some sort of support or put sandbags on each side to stabilize IT? Now today, October 3rd, I have my Left cataract REMOVED by my Opthamologist Dr Koehler, which means I have to show up Bright- Eyed and Anticipatory at 6 AM and I am NOT a Cheerful Happy Bluebird when it is still DARK out! My Bariatric Surgeon had THAT SAME WARPED SENSE OF HUMOR- planned it also for 7:30 AM, the only TIME I really relished being ripped from my bed was to produce an new little human being and THAT SADDLE was put away years and years ago! And TRUTH be TOLD I still was crabby then TOO! The same day next week ( October 8th) will be my one week with Dr Koehler and also my two week with Dr Mc Laughlin, the surgeon who wreaked havoc on my unsuspecting Arm. It looks like she got revenge for man- stealing and I never even met the Dude. I have been through a lot in my time and I have never seen Such an Odd lump like this- not infected- No discharge or ANYTHING but it's weird- looks like an misplaced Breast implant- honest IT DOES! She is an General Surgeon, want to bust her down to Private First Class, 3 World Fairs and A Punkin- Chucking contest and THIS IS A NEW ONE For ME. And I had hoped to have my Left💪 Rotator cuff repaired before the End of the Year while my deductibles are met. Dr Doolittle ( my ortho() says it won't be a mere repair after all but a Total Reverse Shoulder Replacement, due to my degree of arthritis envolment. Anybody know if Google Play Store has a Masochistic App, thinking of having One installed because it appears I AM A GLUTTON FOR PUNISHMENT Currently. Well I got some clean loose comfy clothes laid out, refuse to Sleep in THEM- if you have any Spare🙏 Prayers laying idle Send Them My Way, okay? Time to take a Deep Breath and Try to get some Sleep. FRUSTR8 OUT- zzz zzz.

Thanks Darktowerdream, I believe you do understand and I'm going to see what I can find out about this "Mell of a Hess" life I'm leading. Oh I do try to remain upbeat, optimistic, but sometimes I just Feel so bone-ass weary of it All. Like the happy optimistic twin locked in a room full of manure, if I look hard enough there's got to be a pony SOMEWHERE!

And you're living up to your Name, suspect you always were- but now you're looking like Arm Candy- congratulations on all Your Hard Work- it's paying off!

Poor Dragon- looks like the critter might need a filter there- but I bet it will be Uber Cool when it's All Done!

My wellbutrin got changed from 150mg ER twice a day to 100mg three times a day SR if that's of any help with your question. Probably the dosage and timing may change but you'll still be receiving your therapedic dosage. And congratulations on your RNY , I am also a member of the Kangaroo Klub myself- we are Kangaroos because we all have pouches- a little RNY humor for YOU!❤

And they will fade and grow smaller- at one year m8ne have all faded into the stretch mark scars I had from 3 9 pound babies once upon a time. If you weren't another bari- patient and knew where to look, you'd never find them. Only one really still evident and it's such a mini one is the one. between my breasts where the liver retractor was placed. There had not been stretch marks so high to hide it. Its my little battle ribbon from it all. Means my skin rated me a SUCCESS so I wear it with pride!

I like the Nutra Family- I have a Nutribullet and use it almost every day.

And May You Work to make It so- I have passed Doctor's Goal- anything below 200 but I am still trying for My Dream of 175- so so close- really am hating My At3as of Gauntness- 2 of my,Major Doctors SAY I'm Looking Fine- but I am Doubting Myself at This Point- maybe a Crisis of Spirit- it the Emesis, underlying pain and the knowledge I inately now feel " Gastrointestinally Crippled" and it is a Life Sentence without Parole, maybe it is time to seek some Bariatric type consultation SOMEWHERE- people keep saying "I'm Just Fine" nobody actually seems to Listen- and a Niggl8ng Voice wisps for the days of Tummy satifactionn oh it Wasn't Always" Binge City" for Me- I just wish i DIDN'T HURT ANY MORE- yeah the scale does Read Lovely but have I, like the Biblical Esau, sold my soul for A Bowl of Pottage_ And were the deminishment of size worth the pain and perpetual nausea state I have now? I went into this to regain health NOT to lose it in the process- the Brave Little Cowgirl is feeling Midnight Blue this AM- even watched the Bypass reversal. Videos on YouTube- DON'T Think I'M QUITE THERE YET but am teetering towards- even IF it killed me and an Open Abdominal surgery at 73 just COULD I might die with the sense of peace I don't feel TODAY- I am weary of the struggle, my friends, and too too depressed over what I elected to have done to ME. But I can't commit to suicide for ME - I couldn't hurt my family, friends and BP friends by THIS, my uncle did kill himself before I was born and my Daddy carried emotional scars to his own death 50+ years later, mourned his brother that was his "Irish Twin" only 11 months between them and when He told me of Uncle Clement, He Cri3d and I did TOO-! So where does One go from Here? Sorry to Vent- maybe there is PEACE Ahead? Some Say :Give Yourself at least 18 months to Feel Healed" Well I'm still less than That, maybe I will be Okay?

But it is starting to return- and THAT is A Good THING in the Grand Scheme of Life!

Love This- Cat is thinking : "If. I EAT THIS- will it make me feel FAT again? Am I getting enough exercise to balance the calories out? Maybe I should Just ask " Dear Tabby?" Yeah that's what I'll Do!"

And happiness and belief that you've made the RIGHT choice for you- Priceless!😝🐭❤

Don't worry- things may still be fine- wait ( yeah i KNOW that's hard!) And talk it over with your doctor, unless you are a professional , they can be hard to interpet and after all ,you DID have a nice little weight loss and 5hat is a GOOD thing. Don't tie yourself up in. " nots" until You really have to- things are not "lost" as yet.