Mel G

Thank you so much for this. I have been feeling so alone...[emoji3590] Sent from my SM-G991U using BariatricPal mobile app

It has been soooo long since I posted here, probably not since I was a few months post op back in 2016. I am now 6 years post-op (July 26) and have found myself really really struggling. I have gained 15 lbs. I know that may not seem like a lot to some people but I feel like I have made it so far and damn, why is this starting. I mean I know why. I'm eating poorly, I am relying on my sleeve to trigger my full feelings but I am def eating whatever I want, dumping, and doing it again. I am going through a rough time emotionally and I have restarted therapy but man I am finding it hard to not to eat my feelings. And what I eat is what I call punishment or self hate food: anything fried, fettuccine Alfredo, pizza...etc. I'm just so in it right now and the weight gain is compounding it. I stopped working out because of the pandemic, my studio shut down...sorry feeling so sorry for myself but I am scared I will end up looking like I did 6 years ago and hating myself even more.

My surgery date was 6/21/16. Since then I've lost 22 lbs. I've had ups and downs, cheating consequences (nothing surgical - thank God) and many crying fits. This week I've hit a plateau, to be expected especially since I haven't really been physically active. Today I took my very first cardio-kickboxing class. It sucked. I sucked. It was hard and painful and I felt nausea and dizziness and short of breath. I almost walked out, my eyes watered and I was ready to cry. I thought to myself, I hate this - I hate exercising. I feel uncomfortable, self conscious, ridiculous - I compared myself to everyone in the room. The looked great, didn't have to stop as much as I did, and I felt inadequate. I kept going though, mostly because of the encouragement of the instructor who kept coming over with words of support and showing me alternative ways to do what the class was doing. I started feeling better but wished I was there alone. When the class ended I signed up for 3 months and plan on going again tomorrow. As great as I felt after the class, the dread is already starting for the next day. I'm so scared I will drop this. I need this, I need to exercise and this is something I have enjoyed in the past. How do I stop caring about other people and focus on me and not get discouraged as people lap me? How do you do it? Why is this so hard?! Sent from my iPad using the BariatricPal App

Thank you all so much for the words of encouragement and support, it is just what I needed. I guess I just feel alienated from everyone right now, never realized how much food is a part of EVERYTHING. I'm back on track and feeling...OK. I see my therapist tomorrow and doc and nut next week. It helps to not feel so alone.

Hi - I'm new to the forum and I just need to hear from people like me. I had gastric sleeve on 6/21/16. I'm three weeks post op and am having a bad day. I've always been an emotional eater and today my anxiety has been at an all time high. I did the unthinkable and ordered Chinese, beef fried rice, shrimp lo mein. Not only did I order it but when it arrived I just plowed in, without thinking. Then I threw up and have been crying ever since. I'm not in pain, I hope I didn't hurt myself but I am so frustrated. I've hit a stall in my weight loss and my cravings are taking over, I'm so sick of the endless food commercials on TV and wonder what the hell I am doing. I feel like nothing fills me up, eggs, Protein shakes - I have just had it! Please help.