Hannah83

Thank you for your post, seriously. This is one reason I've not been on FB Twitter etc. for the last two years. In all honesty this should be a place for support. Sadly, the natural bent when it's anon on line is venom.
The reason even for becoming healthier is to obtain a better earth suit. At least for me. Not to spit for spat. If I could hug you I would.

I'm so excited for you! And to all those that are going into surgery soon and or have had it!

My date is the 25th of July! Cannot wait.

Well to the OP I agree on some level. Everyone is a case by case basis. Perhaps take a forum break? Come back with fresh perspective and new eyes if that makes sense? I've been hazed big time on the web and it can get ugly, so for what it is worth I hear you and wish I could reach through the screen and hug the crap out of every poster.
And opinions for the most part I liken to a butt hole, everybody has one. Take care and lighten up.

I'm so excited for you! And to all those that are going into surgery soon and or have had it!

Hello all! Just had my sleeve yesterday. All went mostly well! I haven't been hungry since waking up so that's a relief! I do have terrible diarrhea (tmi) but at least I'm not on the other end of things. Awaiting my discharge as we speak!!!!!
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Dear Minnie,

I keep glancing over the spots your dog beds used to be. I keep expecting to hear your tap dancing toe nails across the kitchen floor to beg for whatever I am eating. I look over my bed in habit to check and see if if you're upstairs or downstairs so you can be let out on the deck. (She used the bathroom on on our deck)

I keep expecting out of habit to save bags in order to pick up your poo's. When I am walking Wally (The bloodhound I'm dog sitting for a family friend) I think on our walks. They became shorter as you aged, but you didn't mind. This past winter are cherished memories of the last walks with you.

I regret not walking you more. But now you are running with God's creatures above and eagerly wait for your family to someday join you.

I thank God you were able to see me 'well' in your last three years of life. I am glad God gave me you. You walked with me through a lot of darkness with the assurance of your cold nose.

You always made me laugh. Be it dragging your rear across the carpet or hiding under a table with your furry butt sticking out when things became emotionally tense. You were the emotional barometer that made all of us laugh and forget why we were upset in the first place.

You touched a lot of lives, but you know that now. You can now see our family that is in heaven. You've gotten to see Mr. Belle, Best a Mor, Ken, Hazel, Howard, Nelson and all the others that are the cloud of witnesses.

You ran the race well Minnie, you finished strong. Well done good and faithful dog, enjoy Glory until we meet again.

-Hannah C.

Thank you all for your lovely support! I mean that, if I could physically hug each and all of you I would.

yes, yes!! I was going to say that you should imagine that someone sneezed all over the food...or worse, licked it all. Really...it's a head game and anything goes. I swear...that's what I do when I walk into the kitchen and something yummy is sitting there.

I also like to imagine certain foods taste awful or are super greasy and this seems to work. Avoiding the communal food table can be tricky.

@@Sophie74656
Can you possibly walk a different way to avoid even knowing it is there?
What seems to work for me is I convince myself that certain foods taste horrible and feel worse in my tiny tummy.
Trust me, I swear my husband goes to McDonald's every single day. I use to love McDonald's and now just the smell of it turns my stomach and makes it very easy to say no dear, I don't want anything.
I play tricks with my brain every single day.

I started a new job and I am really enjoying it. Great commute, nice people, fairly low stress work. But.....there is always junk food!!!!
There is a table close to my cubicle that is the community table where people put food. In the three weeks I've been here there has been pizza three times, a giant chocolate cake, a box full of mini bags of chips, donuts, Cookies, Bagels, cup cakes and bags of microwave popcorn. It has been so hard not to chow down on all these slider foods but I've only had one mini bag of veggie straws. Everyone is like come on have some.
Other than that I am really liking the new job (just wish it paid a little more)

I've got my surgery date for 7-18-16. Nervous. Anyone else have a July surgery date scheduled?

Dear Minnie,

I keep glancing over the spots your dog beds used to be. I keep expecting to hear your tap dancing toe nails across the kitchen floor to beg for whatever I am eating. I look over my bed in habit to check and see if if you're upstairs or downstairs so you can be let out on the deck. (She used the bathroom on on our deck)

I keep expecting out of habit to save bags in order to pick up your poo's. When I am walking Wally (The bloodhound I'm dog sitting for a family friend) I think on our walks. They became shorter as you aged, but you didn't mind. This past winter are cherished memories of the last walks with you.

I regret not walking you more. But now you are running with God's creatures above and eagerly wait for your family to someday join you.

I thank God you were able to see me 'well' in your last three years of life. I am glad God gave me you. You walked with me through a lot of darkness with the assurance of your cold nose.

You always made me laugh. Be it dragging your rear across the carpet or hiding under a table with your furry butt sticking out when things became emotionally tense. You were the emotional barometer that made all of us laugh and forget why we were upset in the first place.

You touched a lot of lives, but you know that now. You can now see our family that is in heaven. You've gotten to see Mr. Belle, Best a Mor, Ken, Hazel, Howard, Nelson and all the others that are the cloud of witnesses.

You ran the race well Minnie, you finished strong. Well done good and faithful dog, enjoy Glory until we meet again.

-Hannah C.

@@Hannah83 Minnie will be forever grateful for the love and kindness you showed her - especially in the End. Although her body has left this Earth - her Spirit will be with you always!!! Godspeed, Minnie! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Hannah!!!

Hannah, I'm so sorry. Be very gentle with yourself. ((Hugs))
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IM SO SORRY

These are tough times. So many of us have been there.
We and our pets deserve all the love we give each other.
And we deserve to love and be loved again.
Hugs.

Wow, *tears in eyes* thank you guys for the tender outpouring. Words cannot convey my thanks for the support. She's doing a tad better, but she's going to pass by the end of this month I think. she looks up like 'I'm scared I'm breathing fast' I just pet her and slept with her last night. It's funny because she's been living for the three years after I've been home from Mercy to get to enjoy the 'well me' and I know it's a gift from God. I told her last night "Wait for me in heaven and look over the banister, I'll be their someday." Again thank you all for your condolences and support.

I'm a right blubbery mess as I type this out. We had hoped she'd bounce back, but her breathing got harder and harder. I went with my parents to put her to sleep. Went over to the home of the bloodhound I'm watching and got in his face crying. Dogs know when something is wrong, big dog that he is he laird down beside me. I imagine I'll be a mess for a while as far as greif coming and going. It's in spurts.
I'm not a pretty crier, blubber, red face snot bubbles etc.
Again thank you all for the support.
Tomorrow my dad is coming with me to my last pre op appointment. He is wanting me to try natural things etc. and if I'm honest after the stomach returns to the normal size the habits could come back. but I'm a determined woman and it has been about 10 days of not binge eating at night.
In memory of Minnie I want to get well physically. I could care less about the dress sizes, numbers etc. I just want to be healthier for a life lived to the full.
For those that pray, please keep me in your prayers for tomorrow so that my dad will feel more at ease.

I'm sorry to hear that re:your sister. The thing is no matter the way one chooses to become well in any area the person themselves must want to get better we cannot want it for them. I used to cut my body to shreds but thanks to God's help and Mercy -----> http://mercymultiplied.com/2016/03/hannah-2013-graduate/ I changed because I chose to.
It's the same with weight loss or a deadly habit or even something that is 'good' but takes up too much time.
You get my point dear one.
The sleeve for me is a bit like when I went to Mercy, a kick in the right direction. It's more then that actually, it's a jumper cable start in the right direction.
I've done soul searching, prayed about it, am bringing my father to my last appointment with the surgeon (she's great) so that he himself can see what is entailed and to ease his concern because he is my dad.
I've prepared for this life change for about a year and one month, so it's not something that I haven't been prepping for and not known what I'm doing. Surgery is major, but I am tired of having back aches when I workout and lift weights. I love working out, and cannot wait to get back into slowly lifting at some point afterwards! I won't be yawning on my way out of the gym anymore, I won't miss that!
All of this to say, chin up. Your example could affect your sister as you constantly stay the course and when you mess up get back up. I am here support wise as are many others here.
I recommend looking into a bariatric support group if the surgeon and team have one where you are at. Local help from folks in the same boat help tons. I've been going about two months now the 1st Tuesday of each month. The topics have been funny actually but I've gotten emails of others and have accountability with them.
Take care.

All the best - keep us updated
On the bright side, least you no longer have to be on the pre-op diet - it sucks!

Wow, *tears in eyes* thank you guys for the tender outpouring. Words cannot convey my thanks for the support. She's doing a tad better, but she's going to pass by the end of this month I think. she looks up like 'I'm scared I'm breathing fast' I just pet her and slept with her last night. It's funny because she's been living for the three years after I've been home from Mercy to get to enjoy the 'well me' and I know it's a gift from God. I told her last night "Wait for me in heaven and look over the banister, I'll be their someday." Again thank you all for your condolences and support.

@@Hannah83 You and Minnie are in my prayers! My heart breaks for you - I know how difficult this is. Stay strong!

So very sorry...it's never easy losing a fur baby. They become your family. (((hugs)))
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