Hannah83

my current weight is 225 I started at 261 and I am 5'8" I'm an emotional wreck, however, sobbing myself to sleep.

I have been working out daily and that has helped some. I usually sob myself to sleep. Hoping this gets better.

I know this is normal as far as when weight is lost, it has nothing to do with the weight loss itself. On that count, I'm fine emotionally. I am already clinically depressed and medicated for it. I am picking my cuticles again and it's pretty bad. band aid's on many fingers, it's at night when I pull them and can't sleep. I do get my nails done and have taken to doing them myself to save money. I have high functioning autism, and mild ADHD (the nonattentive kind) I've got IT test's I'm studying for, and anxiety I'm dealing with. Partly because it snowed here last week threw off my schedule, I didn't have church last Friday night due to the snow they canceled but my entire week has been crappy. I've been trying to keep a good outlook, going to the gym working out isn't the issue (that does help my endorphins) Today I'll be at work, and then head over to the gym then home to clean up for church tonight. It's raining out today, and did I mention I am trying very hard to have a good outlook? It's emotionally and socially draining. Blah. Hopefully, church will heal me (I know it will, always does) Just getting my thoughts out. Good news though I am down to the 220's and I had my gastric sleeve on the 31st of Oct. 2017. I did go to support group last night, so that's something.

the ADHD is not being treated with medication. Never has been. I'll bring it up when I see my med doc next month. Also, I might need to adjust the clonazapam. She'd know best.

I'm happy for you, I'm now 228 and I've not seen these numbers for a long long time.

I was sleeved on Oct. 31, 2017, and I'm down 30 plus pounds almost 40 I think. Feel so much better.

I'm happy for you

happy Hanukkah!

I had surgery on the 31st and I'm down 30 plus pounds! Emotions lately today have been choppy biting off my family's head I've stayed up in my room for most of the day under my covers. I have high functioning autism so social things just annoy me in general but with food formally being my go-to stress aid, now I've been napping. I do get to the gym but I find I'm so tired after I workout. Hopefully, that will change as time goes on. I want to encourage all here, we are doing it! keep at it and fighting the good fight!

great job, I am admiring the trash only and towels only fancy signs though more than you...they are just so lovely and abrupt

winner winner chicken dinner! (I kid) I'm happy that you are working through this bump, it's a bumpy ride at first. Propel Water still is a great go-to for me. Highly recommend it.

as everyone else has said yes, the taste the first two weeks just is awful. But water is your number one priority. (I tried propel water and it helped a lot first two weeks for me) Reason for readmission is being dehydrated. (soft hug) I'm day 44 out from surgery and it is getting better albeit slowly. Be patient with yourself and the process (again easier said than done) go for short five or ten minute slow as heck walks find things you love to do sensory wise that will get your mind off of it. I took up knitting 2 years ago and am glad I did. Also, I highly recommend face to face flesh and blood support from those going through what you are.

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The glitz of Victoria's page is very tempting. And as I'm dropping pounds even more so. What I'm discovering is that along with the eating I also would buy expensive lounge clothing to make myself feel better. Yea I paid off my bill each month but the interest rate was higher than heck and now I'm falling out of 3-year-old yoga pants and re-sewing holes for the 4th time because it's the only clothing I've worn for the last 4 1/2 years. Scratch that for my entire adult life thus far it's been lounge clothes. I like comfortable clothing that looks nice, not an issue. I'm on the autism spectrum so perhaps I should err on the side of grace for myself, but when you don't have 2/3's of your stomach the energy goes somewhere doesn't it? I imagine self-discovery of the layers of things food hid and the trappings thereof will unravel as time goes on. I am thankful that I waited 2 years and thought through this process of surgery, did some dark night of the soul-searching and a lot of praying. The thoughts of 'will I regret this' were worn out before I even had surgery on the 31st of October 2017. For that I am thankful, I am thankful for a dad that had me look long and hard at this process. I am thankful for the hard years I went through in my 20's I used to struggle with self-mutilation for about 11 years. I am now 4 1/2 years healed thanks to God, my family and a six month free of charge faith-based treatment program called Mercy Multiplied. We choose to guard our healing, our progress, and to ask for help, to go to support group meetings, to reach out, or to not do so. This goes for more than weight loss surgery, it spills into every area of life. I am a brave woman who has gone through much, before bullying on the internet was vogue I was at the center of it. Cira 2005-2012. I have an encyclopedia dramatica article which used to send me in a cycle of self-mutilation and self-hate which in turn exacerbated my ASD. The scars point to a God who has healed me and a woman who choices to stay that way. By the same token, the weight loss surgery will remain another testament to my commitment to stay well.

I am so excited and pleased for you! Keep up the good fight

A week after I was off of the pain medication I slowly started back driving again. I have been pleasantly surprised that I've healed as well as I have.

Hello all, I've been a member here for about a year and some change. I've been through pre-op stuff for a sleeve for about 2 years now. Tomorrow the 31st of Oct. is my big day! I'm with Dr. Terasena's office and they are great. I am looking for a support buddy who can hold me accountable as well as just talk to. My father is very worried, my mom is supportive as is my grandmother. However, nothing beats having someone to email or speak with online. Thanks again.

I have ASD as well and just had the sleeve done on October 31, 2017.

I started taking uppers in general in the form of ephedrine throughout my 20's, in the end, I was manic, short all the time didn't lose weight and had more energy to eat and be pissed off. I did try phentermine about 4 times in 10 years and it lent to my psychotic break. Had I not been on any type of uppers I believe I would not have started cutting myself to shreds. Now 4 years healed of self-harm I must live with the scars as a reminder of that awful time of poor choices. I do not recommend phen or any other stimulant from caffeine pills, bitter orange, to ephedrine (still behind the counter) to Rx uppers for myself they lead to a dead end. Now that I've had the sleeve done, I'm not speeding out of my skull and thinking about what I eat and also confronting the issues that I was masking with bloody arms, uppers, and overeating.

Hey, I'm glad you had your surgery done! Condrads. What is a good day and time for you? I inturn on Tuesdays, Thursday's and Friday's.

(waves) this forum isn't the only place to get advice from. actual face time at a support group does wonders. As others have said for each it's different. I was sleeved on Oct. 31st and am day seven out. I don't regret it because well I took my time, 2 years to be exact. And I scheduled the surgery 2 times as well. So, I'm ready for the road ahead. But all the views given were good.

thanks for your kind words and thoughts.

day 4 post op, having some brain fog, and I was kickboxing before and now am taking the stairs slowly. It's like going from 100 mph to 10 mph. Then again 2/3's of my stomach was removed duh Hannah. (facepalm) I'm doing OK getting in about 50 some odd ounces total of fluid. I am swollen today probably because of the shock to my body and getting used to the new stomach. I've been doing OK getting my pills in my stomach slowly in the morning my antidepressant and others. Pain is actually not too bad, I've been passing gas and that's been a huge blessing! Means stuff is moving and working. There has been some tension at home just from my dad being sick getting over the flu and he's a bit grumpy. (he was really fearful of me having this surgery done and the stress has gotten him sick I think) what can you do? I just stay out of the way and have been walking in my room slowly and then outside on the driveway slowly the stairs very very slowly. I've had praise and worship music on in my earbuds or on my speakers speaking in tongues/praying while walking and farting in my room. I'm getting about 40 to 50 some odd grams of protein but the main goal at this point is staying hydrated. And that I am doing fine at, all day job but it's getting done.

My poor dad, I love him to bits. I struggled with in the past borderline anorexia as a teenager and young adult. then it moved into cutting myself. He is concerned about the 'head hunger' and actually I love him for that. But, I am trusting God to get me through this just as God helped me recover from cutting myself I'm 4 years healed thanks to God and my family. They are worried about the 'happy Hannah' going away because for a long time I struggled with extreme depression, of which now it's under control. Their concern is real and they are a good family but I know that this will be a reset physically yes but mentally as well. 'What if this does not work Hannah' is not even on my radar because I'm going to be going to group meetings monthly counseling I'm doing already but will probably go weekly for the first six months. I hear them, and respect their views, but I am still going forward with this because at the end of the day I will pull through and only I can make the choice. I will pull through, there will be though days yes, will I have awful days yes, but I will pull through and triumph. I know it's asking a lot of them my family, but they will be pleasantly surprised. The 'head hunger' has been given its 2-week notice to get thee behind me.