summerset

"Leisure time" is getting more and more scarce lately as it seems somehow. Too often too tired from being on-call and I definitely need to start studying for my second board certification and there will be some rough times ahead I guess.

Going to bed soon. The work day after a 24 h shift always feels awful (like jet lag) so I better get to sleep soon to get my zzZZZzz in because I'm being on-call again tomorrow evening/night. Who else hates vacation time when half the department seems to be on holiday?

I have a follow-up appointment on Friday so I took Friday off. Also not working on the weekend and being on late shift next Monday. That means three days in a row without an alarm clock, lol.

Finally going on vacation tonight!

Fi-nal-ly the equipment for my homegym arrived. Delivery times are insane these days.

Since moving to my new flat in another town I actually have the space for a treadmill. I planned on only getting a treadmill because I already have enough stuff for sufficient training at home but decided to get a power cage as well because I can't install my aero sling to the ceiling in this flat and installing it into the wall just plain stinks because no pull-ups or inverted rows etc. possible.

Anyway, it took four guys to carry that treadmill upstairs in its package - they definitely earned their dinner that evening!

24 h shift on Sunday was just plain awful. I still don't feel recovered and going to take it slow today. I'm taking some overtime hours this week.

Playing with my newest gadget: an oura ring.

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Anxiety is through the roof right now and I vacillate between "I want to eat and self-medicate with food!" and "I'm too hyper and nauseous to eat right now! Btw, where is the caffeine, b*tch?!"

This seems to cancel itself out calorie-wise. Two more weeks of this crap. Then I'm going to sleep for three days straight I guess. Or maybe not.

Anxiety is through the roof today. Things are overwhelming when looking at it in sum at the moment. The big picture is just, well... too big.

We walked the dog today and just like yesterday I wasn't really in the mood.  Today even less so than yesterday because I knew what was going to happen. I tend to mull over things in my head and start ruminating when walking in quiet. The conversation with my husband will inevitably turn to these things, raining my anxiety even more.

It's different when going for a run or a bike ride. Thoughts are not as present then. I don't know if it's the higher heart rate, the fact that I need to be more aware of the movement when running or needing to be more aware of the environment because of moving faster when riding a bike or a combination of it all.

Fact is, I hate walking for this reason, even when not alone. I start ruminating and start to feel like crap when there's something going on.

Blood work came back normal. My GP office called today. Yeah!

Having a sore throat since a few days (all corona tests negative so far though). Damn! I need a negative PCR-test on admission day! 😷

COVID is on the rise again. Hopefully you all had your shots if eligible for them. It's not only the sick and old dying from it. 😕

Damn, watching Mukbangs really is kind of addictive, lol.

Err, we have COVID positive people in the department, me being one of them. I received a call from the lab 10 min before I planned leaving and they said that I had a "slightly positive test". Whatever that means. My first test on Tuesday was negative.

Anyway, 14 d of quarantine for me. So far a slightly sore throat that I only notice in the evening hours and a bit of a headache.

*sigh*

😷

Everything is "corona" as it seems. Like there is nothing else anymore in the news. Stopped reading most of the stuff. Watching the news, I stopped long ago. It's depressing without end.

For me it's not only "corona" but several other things that are on my plate IRL, even though "corona" is a huge thing in its own way when you're a medical worker. I got my second vaccine shot yesterday and now I'm hoping that these shots are really worth something.

Anyway, I'm not going to be online much during the next time except for studying online as I still have this exam pending (no date set yet).

Feeling kind of tired today. Went a little grocery shopping for soy yoghurt and wanted to get frozen fruits for green smoothies - most of it was gone. *sigh*

At least I could get some of these little round pumpernickel breads. Looking forward to eating some of these bite sized things tomorrow.

Feeling quite tired today. The weather is matching my mood. Cold, rainy, windy.

Felt like crap on the last miles of my bike ride. My stomach decided to start hurting during the ride and I couldn't hydrate properly and I also couldn't eat my energy bar. Puked up the bite I took a mile later. I felt a little weird to the stomach since noon but I didn't think it would become that bad.

The last 10 km felt like hell. 😩

I feel better after coffee, a carrot-ginger soup and a protein pudding but still... wasn't fun. 

Finally mustered up the courage to write that letter to my insurance about plastics. Now it's wait and see.

I'm sick today. Diarrhea, stomach ache, eyes slightly burning, feeling a bit sub-febrile, being cold all day. Went to the doctor's and got a sick leave until Thursday. Seems kind of silly during vacation but one gets the vacation days back later.

Finally two weeks off! Going on vacation this night!

First day without any rain today. Of course I went on a bike ride. It could be a tad warmer and more sunny but as long as it isn't raining, it's still ok.

I wonder if my husband will really come with me on this planned about 40 km bike ride. I invited him on komoot and I wonder if he's really going to rent an e-bike. Let's wait and see.  

First week of new/old work is over. It felt quite exhausting in some way.

Abdominal plus mons, breasts and thighs will obviously be covered by my insurance. I'm going to self-pay for butt and arms in combination with one of the other surgeries. The later are not really medically necessary but pure vanity so it's ok for me.

I'm going to get the first shot of Biontech/Pfizer vaccine on Monday. Three weeks later the next.

Follow-up yesterday was ok. That is, I have to wait for the labs though. This will take a few days.

Surgeon was pleased and told me to wean off the PPI. Ultrasound was fine. There was no nutritional counseling because vacation time but I could schedule an appointment should I want one.

I'm going to wait for the labs coming back and if there should be anything off I'm going to make an appointment. The question I had can be asked and answered via e-mail.

Free weekend ahead! No alarm clock in the morning, lol.

GL, I feel like a hammer has hit me on the head. Sunday's 24 h shift was beyond awful and one day of recovery is not nearly enough. I hate that jet lag feeling I often have after these shifts. Everyone deals with it but I doubt something's going to change.

I'm leaving at the end of December. No more of this **** after that. Time to bring in the new **** then though, lol.

Going home again this afternoon. I guess we will be home at about midnight. Luckily I don't have to go to work until Tuesday. I hate going to work the days after one comes home from vacation.

Going in on Tuesday. Things are arranged (need to order a cab to the station because it's too early for a bus going there) and I'm getting more nervous by the hour.

Going in tomorrow. Will be back sometime next week.

Got just diagnosed with iron deficiency. So it's high dose supplements for a few weeks and another blood work. Plus testing for occult bleeding to make sure it's really a nutritional issue (most likely the cause - after all bariatric surgery is now regularly listed as a possible cause and given the fact that iron absorption occurs in the duodenum and upper jejunum...).