Well after waiting a year to qualify I have finally got a date for lap band surgery, March 19. Still a few months away but there is a light insight. I have struggled with my weight for about 5 years now since developed polycystic ovaries. I suddenly went from being borderline to obese it seems like overnight.
I am trying to start doing the right thing but omg I am struggling. I work at a school and my husband works away so for the passed 2 weeks I have been homebound and unenthusiastic about doing anything. I eat for any reason and boredom is one of them. I struggle with portions and last night realized that I almost feel panicked if I think Iam not going to be able to eat until I am completely stuffed. I an trying to fight with my head but its not easy. I bought scales for the first time ever and as of today I am 129.2kg. I am sooooo ashamed of myself and cant wait for surgery. I need a new life not only for myself but for my kids and my husband also.
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Well after waiting a year to qualify I have finally got a date for lap band surgery, March 19. Still a few months away but there is a light insight. I have struggled with my weight for about 5 years now since developed polycystic ovaries. I suddenly went from being borderline to obese it seems like overnight.
I am trying to start doing the right thing but omg I am struggling. I work at a school and my husband works away so for the passed 2 weeks I have been homebound and unenthusiastic about doing anything. I eat for any reason and boredom is one of them. I struggle with portions and last night realized that I almost feel panicked if I think Iam not going to be able to eat until I am completely stuffed. I an trying to fight with my head but its not easy. I bought scales for the first time ever and as of today I am 129.2kg. I am sooooo ashamed of myself and cant wait for surgery. I need a new life not only for myself but for my kids and my husband also.