coolcrystal

It's hard to believe my 2 year bandiversary was last week. I believe on the 28th? It has been a weird two years. I gained about 18 lbs back during the summer when I was eating a lot of Hormel Chili. Bad mistake. With all that sodium, I wouldn't lose anything. I also stopped working out. So, around December I cut the chili completely out of my diet and got a gym membership to 24 hour fitness. I have dropped that 18 lbs and a few more on top of that. I feel like I'm back on track. I don't think about the band anymore.. it's just part of my life now and I don't miss anything I use to be able to eat like Burgers and stuff like that. I do miss scrambled eggs though, but I can still eat sushi with no problems. Thank goodness. Anyway, I think about this site a lot.. I use to be hard and heavy on it, but with losing my job after 13 years and starting anew without the same perks I had before (ie, the ability to get on line whenever I wanted), internet usage has taken a backburner. I still feel like this surgery has been a blessing and I know that had I not gotten it done, I'd probably be 350-400 lbs now. At the rate I was going, I was gaining 5-8lbs a month. I started off a size 28 and I can now wear some 18's and 20's are semi-baggy. Is it scary to say I wouldn't care if I lost anymore?? lol Hope everybody is doing well...

Thank you all! And Tapshoes, I loved that long reply you made to everybody! that was so cool! I can't even see everybody's reply, so I 'm not sure how to copy others things. I use to know like a year ago, but it's been so long, I forgot. lol. Ezma, I sent you a personal email... And Shiny, I had thought about doing the Sleeve, but I don't think my insurance would cover it. But, I think about it all the time actually. People with sensitive tummy's like me, this might not be a good solution for them. But, again, I don't want to give up. Slight bad news.. I went in to get my fill yesterday and they said my insurance no longer covers my visits and I have to pay full price for the fills now. I was very upset. I was expecting just the normal $15 copay. Apparently they were charging it as an office visit, but the insurance companies got wise to that and cancelled those. Sadly, they didnt' even tell me when I called or else I could have gathered the money up and transferred things and had the money... I might call my lapband doctor and see if he'll give me a fill at his office so it will be like a real "office visit" so to speak. It feels good being back on here. When I stay away, I feel like something is missing that I need to help me succeed with my band.

Thank you St. Louis Gal! You have always been non-judgemental and wonderful with me! I always say that I gained weight because I was happy, cuz when I'm happy I eat! When I'm upset I can't eat. THis was even before the band I had problems eating when I was upset. So, add the band in there and it makes it even worse. I don't know why the first 5 months I was banded I didn't go through any stressful event because I was losing like 8 -10 lbs a month and it was perfect; then that one event with my friend, and bam, it's never been the same since. But, I'm really not going to give up, which is why I'm getting this fill today. I didn't go through all that time researching this surgery and 6 months of doctors visits and all that for nothing. I won't let this band in me be a waste of space. Huggs, Crystal

Hello everyone! It has been a while since I've logged into this site, but I immediately wanted to come to my group. I have really missed all of you! I pretty much stayed away because I have come to the realization that my band just can't work for me anymore due to my sensitive stomach. I had gotten back on track earlier in the year and then two of my good friends died two months ago in the same day. I couldn't keep anything down for 3 days and had to get an unfill immediately. That was on May 19th. Then I found out I might get layed off from work... According to my doctor the stomach is a muscle and with the band around it, when I get upset it tightens badly and then I have to get unfills. With the constant back and forth, I've just maintained... I can't seem to lose anymore weight because everytime I do, some stressful crap comes up and bam, UNFILL. I'm going in today at 3:30 for a refill to get me back up to my sweetspot, but, if I get layed off in a few weeks I'll just have to get an unfill again. When I came on to look at all the newer pictures I just wanted to cry when I see people who were banded after me already down 120 lbs or whatnot.. i feel like a failure, but I just don't know how else the band can work for me anymore. To maintain??? maintain me at still an obese weight I guess.. I refuse to live puking all the time... Anyway, that's my update. Huggs to you all! Crystal

Well, and that's the sad part. I know so many bandsters that are scared to go back to their doctor for fear of rejection, lectures, and being berrated. So, they never go back.. never go in to get their fills. My doctor has never been anything but sweet to me, so I shouldn't have just assumed he'd be mean to me or lecture me; but perhaps people just feel bad about their weightgain or lack of weightloss so they won't go. When you hear of doctors who do make people feel bad, I think it scares all of us. Just the fear of not losing anything, I'm sure is self sabotaging.

Well, my doctor was very sweet. Before he remember that I had no restriction for three months at first he was like "oh, did you have a little setback?" and then when I reminded him he was like "oh yeah, that's right, I'm sorry".. After I told him that he thought I did very well and was proud of me for not gaining hardly anything. He thinks I'm right on track and doing well. St. Louis - I actually have a fill center I go to that is separate from my doctor's office. He is the one who gave them the order to take half my fill out though. I actually do have great restriction now, but I've been building up to it for the last three months. I had been getting .4 put in every month. This last one put me at a good restriction. And I had lost weight. It just seems like I have my cycle right at every 3 weeks now and it's such a pain. Really its a two week ordeal if you think about it. lol. Such a pain.

In 20 minutes I'm going to see my lapband doctor that I haven't seen since my big unfill back in November. It's been a little over 3 months since I've seen him. I only just got restriction back on the 19th of February, and I've lost 4 lbs, but of course, last night I started my monthly cycle. Thus making me gain 3 lbs as it ALWAYS does. And I just want to scream, because when he weighs me, depending on which of his crappy scales I step on, it will look like I've gained weight and if I have to hear a lecture from him I just know I'm going to go off. If he asks me to "keep a food journal" I'm going to go off. I didn't get this surgery to live my life in fear of doctors or fill people or to keep track of every morsel I put in my mouth. It's self sabotaging and I refuse to do it. The sucky part is.. I've been busting my hump working out everyday and eating right.. I mean seriously, I even turned down the chocolate banana shake my hubby wanted to buy me this weekend! and thanks to my monthly cycle, my hard work has gone out the window on the most important day ... litterally, yesterday morning I was 3 lbs less!! Sure, I can tell my doctor that, but how many other people who ate tamales and chips and queso say the same thing! "Oh, I'm on my cycle".. he probably hears that every damned day and it will go in ear and out the other ear. I'm so furious right now. I wish I could cancel my appointment and wait for it to blow over, but, it's litterally in less than an hour and you have to give a full days notice to cancel or else you are charged a fee. I'll report back in when it's over...

This line sort of disturbs me: "I am sore all over and feeling weak but the good news is my new total weight loss is 71lbs!" I don't see how this is good news that you have lost weight due to starving and being dehydrated. It reminds me of the post somebody made that they only ate two tablespoons of food all day and were excited and somebody congratulated them. It's not anything to Celebrate. Starving. Throwing up all the time, etc. That's not what the band is for. Sorry.

Wow, that's just amazing that a nurse would even think about talking to you like that. I'm surprised not more doctors send their folks to fill centers, like what my doctor does. Anytime there is a problem they can get me in that same day. I just can't believe a nurse would be so mean to you. I'm sorry that happened but don't get discouraged. If there is not a fill center you go to, then you might have to go to an ER. Especially before you start fainting from lack of food and water. You could have a slip or stretched your pouch or just be too tight. They should probably do a barium swallow. All of these things are fixable with an unfill though; so you should be fine. Oh and if you are considered a slow loser, then I guess I'm SUPER slow loser. LOL. Cuz I was banded before you and you've lost more than me.