Twirpo75

Last night I went to visit my Fiance and in a room with maybe 20 other people he couldn't find. He said I was looking so different. That was an amazing feeling. =)

So a few days ago I posted that I couldn't reach the 100lbs lost mark. Well.. I did it. I finally did it. It has not been easy but if it had, it wouldn't have been worth it. I've noticed so many things about myself lately that I am proud of. With every pound lost, a little more of the fun inner girl comes out. I went inner tubing two weeks ago. I've not done that since I was like 10. I still have about 50 lbs to lose. But do you know the last time I had ONLY 50 lbs to lose?! ME EITHER! My rings are too big, my watch is too big, my clothes are too big. And it's AWESOME!! It's worth all the tears and frustration. It's worth all of it. Fight hard my friends. You are literally fighting for your life. And dammit... WE CAN DO THIS!!

So a few days ago I posted that I couldn't reach the 100lbs lost mark. Well.. I did it. I finally did it. It has not been easy but if it had, it wouldn't have been worth it. I've noticed so many things about myself lately that I am proud of. With every pound lost, a little more of the fun inner girl comes out. I went inner tubing two weeks ago. I've not done that since I was like 10. I still have about 50 lbs to lose. But do you know the last time I had ONLY 50 lbs to lose?! ME EITHER! My rings are too big, my watch is too big, my clothes are too big. And it's AWESOME!! It's worth all the tears and frustration. It's worth all of it. Fight hard my friends. You are literally fighting for your life. And dammit... WE CAN DO THIS!!

So a few days ago I posted that I couldn't reach the 100lbs lost mark. Well.. I did it. I finally did it. It has not been easy but if it had, it wouldn't have been worth it. I've noticed so many things about myself lately that I am proud of. With every pound lost, a little more of the fun inner girl comes out. I went inner tubing two weeks ago. I've not done that since I was like 10. I still have about 50 lbs to lose. But do you know the last time I had ONLY 50 lbs to lose?! ME EITHER! My rings are too big, my watch is too big, my clothes are too big. And it's AWESOME!! It's worth all the tears and frustration. It's worth all of it. Fight hard my friends. You are literally fighting for your life. And dammit... WE CAN DO THIS!!

So a few days ago I posted that I couldn't reach the 100lbs lost mark. Well.. I did it. I finally did it. It has not been easy but if it had, it wouldn't have been worth it. I've noticed so many things about myself lately that I am proud of. With every pound lost, a little more of the fun inner girl comes out. I went inner tubing two weeks ago. I've not done that since I was like 10. I still have about 50 lbs to lose. But do you know the last time I had ONLY 50 lbs to lose?! ME EITHER! My rings are too big, my watch is too big, my clothes are too big. And it's AWESOME!! It's worth all the tears and frustration. It's worth all of it. Fight hard my friends. You are literally fighting for your life. And dammit... WE CAN DO THIS!!

So a few days ago I posted that I couldn't reach the 100lbs lost mark. Well.. I did it. I finally did it. It has not been easy but if it had, it wouldn't have been worth it. I've noticed so many things about myself lately that I am proud of. With every pound lost, a little more of the fun inner girl comes out. I went inner tubing two weeks ago. I've not done that since I was like 10. I still have about 50 lbs to lose. But do you know the last time I had ONLY 50 lbs to lose?! ME EITHER! My rings are too big, my watch is too big, my clothes are too big. And it's AWESOME!! It's worth all the tears and frustration. It's worth all of it. Fight hard my friends. You are literally fighting for your life. And dammit... WE CAN DO THIS!!

Thanks for everyone's input. I realize this wasn't the way to do a "pouch test", but as I said I always could eat more than others. I never thought pre-op that even if I went crazy and over ate that I would be able to eat the amounts that I can. I've made an apt with my surgeons office to get the size of my sleeve checked. I know I will always need to watch what I eat, but was hoping for way more restriction from the sleeve.

I've learned so much. I agree that I learned I don't need food to be happy. I also learned that I am beautiful inside and out. Even if I don't often feel it. The hard lessons came too. I learned what food addiction looks like when you are on the outside looking in. That was a hard one because it made me reflect on my whole family. But I never voice anything negative. My filter is strongly in place.
I've learned how to really love myself and everyone around me. And it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I don't avoid mirrors and I give out lots of free hugs.

I thought my memory issues were just me going crazy!! And I thought I was the only one who had this issue. It's good to know others have struggled with this! I forgot how to spell my nephews name one day. I helped raise the kid. But couldn't remember if it was Tristan or Tristen. Then I started noticing I was forgetting other things. Everyone around me says it's just because I am almost 40 (Shh!) but I knew it was more than that. Depression was a big issue for a while too. That one was a real struggle. It's already something I have dealt with for years. But after surgery I really felt like I had lost my best friend. food wasn't there for me anymore. It was a real stage of mourning. That's something I wasn't at all prepared for. I live 5 hours from my family so it's just my son and I. I felt alone in life and alone in the fight to get healthy. It was hard. But I know from past experiences that Prozac helped, so I got back on it. I feel so much better now. So much negativity has finally left me. This life is defiantly not for the weak. It's a struggle. But we can all struggle together. =)

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Good luck!!

Her approach probably wasn't effective, but she has a point. Maybe consider she actually has your best interest at heart. Or just give it back to her - if she can dish it out, she should be able to take it.

I thought my memory issues were just me going crazy!! And I thought I was the only one who had this issue. It's good to know others have struggled with this! I forgot how to spell my nephews name one day. I helped raise the kid. But couldn't remember if it was Tristan or Tristen. Then I started noticing I was forgetting other things. Everyone around me says it's just because I am almost 40 (Shh!) but I knew it was more than that. Depression was a big issue for a while too. That one was a real struggle. It's already something I have dealt with for years. But after surgery I really felt like I had lost my best friend. food wasn't there for me anymore. It was a real stage of mourning. That's something I wasn't at all prepared for. I live 5 hours from my family so it's just my son and I. I felt alone in life and alone in the fight to get healthy. It was hard. But I know from past experiences that Prozac helped, so I got back on it. I feel so much better now. So much negativity has finally left me. This life is defiantly not for the weak. It's a struggle. But we can all struggle together. =)

I thought my memory issues were just me going crazy!! And I thought I was the only one who had this issue. It's good to know others have struggled with this! I forgot how to spell my nephews name one day. I helped raise the kid. But couldn't remember if it was Tristan or Tristen. Then I started noticing I was forgetting other things. Everyone around me says it's just because I am almost 40 (Shh!) but I knew it was more than that. Depression was a big issue for a while too. That one was a real struggle. It's already something I have dealt with for years. But after surgery I really felt like I had lost my best friend. food wasn't there for me anymore. It was a real stage of mourning. That's something I wasn't at all prepared for. I live 5 hours from my family so it's just my son and I. I felt alone in life and alone in the fight to get healthy. It was hard. But I know from past experiences that Prozac helped, so I got back on it. I feel so much better now. So much negativity has finally left me. This life is defiantly not for the weak. It's a struggle. But we can all struggle together. =)

I thought my memory issues were just me going crazy!! And I thought I was the only one who had this issue. It's good to know others have struggled with this! I forgot how to spell my nephews name one day. I helped raise the kid. But couldn't remember if it was Tristan or Tristen. Then I started noticing I was forgetting other things. Everyone around me says it's just because I am almost 40 (Shh!) but I knew it was more than that. Depression was a big issue for a while too. That one was a real struggle. It's already something I have dealt with for years. But after surgery I really felt like I had lost my best friend. food wasn't there for me anymore. It was a real stage of mourning. That's something I wasn't at all prepared for. I live 5 hours from my family so it's just my son and I. I felt alone in life and alone in the fight to get healthy. It was hard. But I know from past experiences that Prozac helped, so I got back on it. I feel so much better now. So much negativity has finally left me. This life is defiantly not for the weak. It's a struggle. But we can all struggle together. =)

Quoting myself to address your ad hominum tactic, it's clear you missed it above even though I basically laid it out in a bullet point.
This isn't reddit. This isn't yahoo answers. This isn't 4chan. So I'm going to stick with compassion. You want snark, you want rudeness, you'll have to find that from me on a different corner of the internet. On support forums I provide support. The harshness I gave you after your OP was deliberate, and was as harsh as I'll get on here (except maybe when we are talking about Penny). You can provide whatever level of discourse you like, just don't fool yourself when you do it. Text or in person, mean is mean. If that's what you think people need, have at it. My posts will stand to let them know that support is out there. Feel free to reply, but I'm done, repeating myself isn't going to change your mind, and vice versa.

I just finished reading a couple of posts and I couldn't do anything but say to myself, "Seriously? Really?"
I know there are going to be some people that will probably what to take my head off for this one, but I just have to ask... Are there really people that frequent this website that are so weak-minded and sensitive that they can be absolutely devastated and sent into an uncontrollable bout of depression over something someone wrote in a thread?
If someone that you don't know, have never met, and they know nothing about you, can cause such an emotional reaction in you, I personally think that you don't even need to be considering WLS at this point. You really should be seeking out the services of a therapist to figure out what makes you give away your personal power to a complete stranger.
I hear people say how "mean" some people are, and how rude others are. People are only to you what you allow them to be, and they can only take control of the power you give them.
I have never testified that I know everything about everything, but to the contrary I'm not dumb as a box of rocks! Bottom line, stop letting the things these people on this site upset you, or even get your dander up. You never know, they may come here just to see what type of drama they can get started. If you find something of value to you, keep it and cherish it. All the rest of this mess is nothing but chatter.
This post may not have been directly toward you, but if the shoe fits, feel free to lace that b i t c h up and wear it.

I, too, worried about whether or not my boyfriend was a chubby chaser and would value me less if I got to a healthy weight. But I was so sick and miserable (and have already had one stroke) that I would have done the surgery regardless. As it turns out, he wants me to be healthy, whatever that takes, so that we can enjoy each others' companionship as long as possible.
Go into the search box and type in "Last straw". It will give you some threads on how stubborn we all are and what it took to open our eyes to the fact there is no disgrace in using surgery as a tool to help us get there.
You could walk five miles to the supermarket and carry you groceries home in a backback, but isn't a car a wonderful tool to get you there and back home? Spring is here now, and it is time to plant your garden. Are you going to cultivate the dirt with your fingernails, or are you going to use a spade or maybe even a rototiller? Those are tools to help you get the job done. Sure, a rototiller is the "easy" way out, but look how much more efficient and effective it is for getting the job done.
True, weight loss surgery will expose the dynamics of your relationships. Just tell your hubby that you have decided to get the surgery so that you can be healthier and happier and more involved in your life. And if he doesn't want to do it for himself, that is his business, but ask him to increase his life insurance.

I hate her too! Because she whines and she is in control of her life. She can't try for herself her son or her husband. Even if she lost half the weight she would have my empathy. Her it's the doctors fault pisses me off. But all the guilt she puts on her husband and son is what I hate. Her husband may never leave her but her son will get really mad when he gets older. He will say wasn't i enough reason to want to life? I love the girl Zysann I think is her name. She had the husband who was stupid and told her she was nothing without the weight. She finally left him and got into therapy. Her and her daughter are doing great. I was hoping her husband would come around. But since he didn't she needed to leave him not just for herself but her daughter. He was toxic in the way he treated her.

I watch because I find most of them inspiring. People coming back from the brink, people rediscovering a value in themselves, being able to live a life that has meaning for them. I often think there but for the grace of God... I could never imagine going over 200 lbs, and then over 250 and then as I approached 300 I realized there may be no end unless I had an intervention. I love seeing the changes some of these folks are able to bring about for themselves.
I feel sad for Penny and her family but I do understand the grip of that addiction and feeling food is her only solace. Alcoholism runs in my family. My grand father died for it, and I've watched several cousins lose everything- spouse, children, job, houses, and one sweet shy beautiful lost cousin her life to it at 37 - and who want so much to change but cannot. My one cousin knew she was dying and was leaving young children; she cried every day that last summer, and still could not stop, even when she was at deaths very door, found ways somehow to sneak it in. The food addiction is similar in many ways. Any addiction that strong is heartbreaking.

When the episode originally aired, I was just a few months out of WLS. I was yelling at the tv. I was so f-ing angry at her. I know so many people who were turned down for WLS after multiple appeals and who really truly needed the surgery and would have been excellent candidates, and I feel like she pissed her opportunity away.
The episode stuck with me for awhile, though, and slowly I started to realize that could have been me. She has an eating disorder, no questions about it, but so do I. What's the difference, though? Well, I feel I am fortunate enough to be a psychology student (now in graduate school for counseling psych), so I had access to so much more information than a lot of people did on assessments, abnormal psychology, etc that through my training I was able to recognize my own eating disorder and seek help. For years (my therapist and I place the start of my disorder around the age of 3) I honestly didn't know that I was any different than anyone else. I thought everyone ate the way I did, I was just unfortunate enough to get fat.
She is wife and mother to her disorder, not her family members. She is so deep into it that I honestly think only inpatient care would help at this point. I don't think she wants to be the way she is, and I think she probably senses something is wrong, but for some of us having a food attachment that strong can be the same as someone trying to get off heroin or narcotics. Your disorder will convince you of all kinds of things, mainly that you don't need help. Its incredibly difficult to live with.
I fully empathize with her, not for her choices but her lack of ability to make good choices due to her disorder. It must be hell living inside her head.

Of course she doesn't actually reflect on US, we're trying and succeeding. I just meant that uneducated people who fat shame and fat hate see her and think all WLS patients are just like that. We don't need any stereotyping than we already get.
I'm really just mad because she has failed her son. I lost a son, he was stillborn, he died in labor, and I have a son who had a rocky NICU stay, and she just takes for granted the gift god gave her. I work my ass off to lose weight so I can be a better mom and model healthy eating behaviors, and she's a miserable excuse for a mom. Her son deserves better.

A woman on My 600lb Life who got sleeve surgery and was completely noncompliant. She's a total train wreck and makes all of us look bad. It's sickening.

@TWIRPO75 GOSH THAT SOUNDS SO MUCH LIKE ME, I TAKE MELATONIN BUT IT DOESN'T HELP ME TO sleep LATER. THE BEST TWO NIGHT sleep I GOT WERE OVER THE WEEKEND WHEN I TOOK A WHOLE NAUSEA PILL PLUS THE ANXIETY PILL. MY MORNING ACTUAL NAUSEA HAS SUBSIDED BUT I STILL HAVE THAT WEIRD FEELING AND FEEL LIKE CRAP. I'M SURPRISED I CAN ACTUALLY MAKE MYSELF GET READY FOR WORK FEELING LIKE THAT. HOW FAR OUT ARE YOU??????????

I usually wake up between 3 and 4 feeling like total crap. But only for a little while. It's a strange feeling. Like so hungry that I feel like I am STARVING, but nauseous too. I hate it. I just drink some juice and it calms down. So I calm down. Then I watch Netfix until my day starts at 630 and then drag my tired butt to bed at 8pm. Even with Ambian or Lunesta I don't sleep like I did when I was younger. I don't think mine is surgery related though. I hope yours gets better soon!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!
You are not the first or last to freak out about the surgery. Take comfort in knowing this makes you normal! I was pretty freaked out. But it honestly wasn't the most horrible thing I've been through. It wasn't Disneyland, but it's managable. You can do this! Just stay calm. You won't regret it in the long run. I know I don't. But I'm almost 6 months out. Everything is going to be fine. And you now have a bunch of really amazing friends you can come to for help. We get it. And we are all here for you.
Good luck tomorrow! You're gonna do GREAT!! *HUGS*