Lucrezia Borgia

My gastric sleeve surgery is scheduled for October 22nd. I've been lurking on the site for months though and am grateful for all of the support that is out there; only 2 very supportive people in my life know about my decision. I am about 3 days into the pre-op diet. I am a coffee fiend and a smoker and the withdrawal from both the nicotine and caffeine that my surgeon requires feels like poo; so much so that the diet isn't even fazing me. I've gone back and forth between cranky and lethargic and weepy and anxious. I understand that this is normal. I thought to myself, "Why are you doing this!?" I thought I would remind myself and share with all of you.
I've always been fat. I never used words like curvy or fluffy because they just don't do these rolls and blubber justice. Also, because I just couldn't bring myself to romanticize something that I've always hated; my body. I went on my first diet program at the age of 15 and over the course of the last 22 years I have spent thousands of dollars on infomercial exercise devices and weight loss tablets all so that I could lose and gain the same 150lbs over and over and over. It's crazy how I managed to become comfortable being uncomfortable. Last year, I got a sassy short haircut and while running my hand along the back of my head, I felt a fat roll....on my head. Not my first, of course, but a great dawning began. I realized that my highest weight and largest clothing size had been consistently growing over the years. The pile of smaller clothing that I one day hoped to wear again was made up of garments that were no longer fashionable and began to outnumber the clothes that actually fit. I realized how tired I was after attempting to play with my young child and felt immense guilt at just how many activities I begged out of due to my weight and lack of endurance. I realized that it was becoming increasingly difficult to wipe my own behind thoroughly, especially in tiny public bathroom stalls. I realized how much of my thoughts revolved around food and how ashamed I felt to even raise a fork to my lips in front of others. I realized much of this while carrying a basket of laundry to from the basement to the top floor; I had to stop on the ground level to catch my breath.
Why am I doing this? Because despite how big I am, I feel really small. This was certainly not the plan. I am tired of being a slave to food and I am tired of the bondage of this body that doesn't reflect who I really am. I don't recognize the lady in the mirror and I don't like her. I am doing this because I am ready to stop limiting myself. Because I want to live and not exist.
Please share if you will. Why are you doing/did you do this? What moments were really memorable in your decision making process?

Well, after 3 years on my own following the break up of a 30 year relationship, at the weekend I finally got naked with someone I have lusted after for years....
He didn't run away screaming at my wrinkly, saggy bits. I took my clothes off - ALL OF THEM!!!! And the world didn't end, he didn't laugh and I didn't die of embarrassment.
Something for me to add to my list when people ask how my sleeve has changed my life - I can do naked :-)))))))
Sorry if is is tmi, but I actually never thought at 52 that I could throw my clothes off with such abandon and without stressing -oh how I love my sleeve!

@@JM26 glad your recovery has been so smooth. I was sleeved sept 10. I don't have much of an appetite. I can get more liquids down a lot faster now. 8 oz. in 30 minutes!!! I guess I will never win a yard of ale contest again.
cheers!!!

So ridiculously excited. My mom is discarding some clothes that are too big for her and has insisted I try them on. I fit into a 1X t-shirt pre-op that she was insistent on, and today fit into an XL cami. That was exciting. I have been wearing 4X, sometimes 3X, forever! Yay! Also bought a couple of 2X activewear tanks.

Haven't checked in lately. My surgery was initially scheduled for the 30th. For you medical people you will understand, Joint Commission is coming this week! Plus I have not been approved by my insurance. So frustrated.
I have almost 20lbs, I attended a golf tourney today. I haven't told very many people about my surgery, but most of my friends know after today. It always amazing to me, when people ask/ say, well you've lost 20lbs, why do you need the surgery. Then my head goes crazy and begins to ask if I am doing the right thing!!!?? But I know I am doing the right thing? I have done my research, and am ready for the new me.
Oh, yea, surgery hopefully oct. 7th. Keeping fingers crossed!

Surgery in about 1 hour!

Yes,..had my surgery in the 16th. Really like him and the rest of the staff. So far, no problems at all! :-)

Yes, happy to report that we're both recovering well!

Hahaha! I had the exact same questions! I'm 6 days post op and SO over the liquid "food". Mom was eating an Italian sub yesterday and I seriously wanted to rip it out of her hands!

Hahaha! I had the exact same questions! I'm 6 days post op and SO over the liquid "food". Mom was eating an Italian sub yesterday and I seriously wanted to rip it out of her hands!

I'm a week and change out, and I'm so tired of Soups and Protein Drinks. I'm ready to rip someone's head off lol. I'm starting to wonder if I'm hungry, gassy or whatever. I have gas pains only when I drink liquids too quickly. Ahhhh...when is the next step.

Hey there guys! Anyone else completely confused between stomach hunger pains, gas pains and fighting head hunger? Holy mackerel. ... burning out on shakes but will pick up sugar free syrups tomorrow. I so badly wanted to eat a tater tot tonight. Hard to fight the urges and re-learn eating. Thanks for reading my whine. :-)

Yes, happy to report that we're both recovering well!

I had saggy skin everywhere so I had plastic surgery. I had an arm lift, lower body lift w/ autologous butt flap implant, breast lift and augmentation, and neck lift. I am two months from surgery and overjoyed at the results.

Made it to my hometown. My surgery is in the city about an hour away. 3 more sleeps! My mom hasn't seen me in about 3 weeks and says I look different already...I guess I can thank my month long Water and Glucerna pre-op meal plan.

I'm good too y'all. It's day 2 for me. Bo real pain. Well cause I'm taking pain meds as prescribed. I am also taking pills for nausea, cause I don't want that in my life. They say that the hiccup and all cause it. I do need that one at all.
I'm in a great mood. Not doing too much cleaning of anything, just relaxing. Drinking Protein and Water.

Glad your mum is ok and she has you. Certainly a start you won't forget in a hurry.. Hope it gets better

So today is day 2 of my new life I'm still very sore but I'm doing well and am looking for the future

4 days post op and I'm feeling a lot better. Hang in there, everyone! It's gets better!

Today is the big day wish me luck. So excited to start this new chapter in my life.
Bernie

It's done! Still feeling groggy. The first 12 hours or so felt pretty miserable ; back bad abdominal pain, but not unbearable. The painkiller button is a good thing! Some nausea and my BP was up, but it's coming down now. Can't believe I did it! !!

It's done! Still feeling groggy. The first 12 hours or so felt pretty miserable ; back bad abdominal pain, but not unbearable. The painkiller button is a good thing! Some nausea and my BP was up, but it's coming down now. Can't believe I did it! !!

It's done! Still feeling groggy. The first 12 hours or so felt pretty miserable ; back bad abdominal pain, but not unbearable. The painkiller button is a good thing! Some nausea and my BP was up, but it's coming down now. Can't believe I did it! !!

It's done! Still feeling groggy. The first 12 hours or so felt pretty miserable ; back bad abdominal pain, but not unbearable. The painkiller button is a good thing! Some nausea and my BP was up, but it's coming down now. Can't believe I did it! !!

It's done! Still feeling groggy. The first 12 hours or so felt pretty miserable ; back bad abdominal pain, but not unbearable. The painkiller button is a good thing! Some nausea and my BP was up, but it's coming down now. Can't believe I did it! !!