Angelkeeper4

I'm raising my four grandchildren...my angels

My packet was submitted dec1 2014. My approval letter was mailed Dec 2....HNJH.

I'm hoping for the groin.... the neck thing kinda freaks me out

Blackwood here

I have Horizon NJ Health. My Dr is Marc Neff in Cherry Hill

I too lost my husband when I was 39 and there are times I want to just dive into my old comfort foods. There are plans for my life that had to be rewritten and that pisses me off. But...that said...this is when you have to dig deep and do it for you. Write your own story with a happy ending. God knows its hard....but you are worth fighting for.
I know I am.

@Angelkeeper Oh I pray it happens that fast!

Blackwood here

I got the call today! Insurance has been verified, and my first appointment has been scheduled for January 26th!! The case manager at KC Bariatric asked me to check with my case manager with UHC Bariatric Resources to see if a supervised diet was a requirement. I told her, I'll ask, but whether it is or it isn't you have copies from my PCP of my 6 month supervised diet, along with copies from my OBGYN of my 5 years of weight history, and copies of my sleep study. She said.....well.......you were prepared, weren't you? lol Cross your fingers. I want to give this to myself for my birthday which is Feb 26th! Say some prayers!!

Really well said cowgirl.....I know my loss was multiple years ago and I remember that hopeless who gives a f state of mind. Lisa please reach out...talk to anyone you choose....I've been there so reach out to me if you want.

RJ - so glad to hear that. I remember that thread and I also remember how devastated I was by my first consult and so I hope my experiences help you see things in a slightly different light. What i keep going back to was my friend P being DEVASTATED by the consult she went to me with Dr Sauceda - she didn't have the benefit of 9 months and several consults to get over the trauma...haha. By the time I consulted with Dr S, someone pulling my skin around and pointing out flaws I hadn't noticed yet was old hat.
Lisa, keep posting, nobody is tired of it. I get that you are stuck and that our advice is not very helpful because you aren't really open to it right now because you are just "outta juice". I remember when i got very very very heavy (during the era I didn't weigh myself, perhaps I weighed nearly350) laying on my side and thinking my belly was like it was when I was 9 months pregnant only I wasn't. I remember sort of laughing and poking at it, like it was a surreal pillsbury doughwoman and not me. It was like it was too overwhelming, too impossible and I was so miserable with the rest of my life... I really thought I might just die like that.
What I do think is relevant to you... and goes back to my original post. You have currently regained 44 pounds and are wearing around a size 16. Even IF you don't relose this - isn't this so much better than where you were pre sleeve? I believe you are very near the size of an "average" American woman.... seems alot better to me than being morbidly obese and wearing the 26Ws again. Do you think you could make peace with focusing on getting healthy again and just maintaining where you are at for now and not worry about that dreadful feeling of needing to lose a bunch of weight?
Of course what I think is you are sad, tired, lonely, grieving and all sorts of messy emotions. I went through a time of tremendous loss and my extended grieving not only cost me but my family. If I had it to do over again, I would have joined groups, counseling or SOMETHING to move forward sooner. Being griefstruck for so long didn't bring my losses back and only caused troubles for me and my family... for which I regret now.

I too lost my husband when I was 39 and there are times I want to just dive into my old comfort foods. There are plans for my life that had to be rewritten and that pisses me off. But...that said...this is when you have to dig deep and do it for you. Write your own story with a happy ending. God knows its hard....but you are worth fighting for.
I know I am.

I too lost my husband when I was 39 and there are times I want to just dive into my old comfort foods. There are plans for my life that had to be rewritten and that pisses me off. But...that said...this is when you have to dig deep and do it for you. Write your own story with a happy ending. God knows its hard....but you are worth fighting for.
I know I am.

I too lost my husband when I was 39 and there are times I want to just dive into my old comfort foods. There are plans for my life that had to be rewritten and that pisses me off. But...that said...this is when you have to dig deep and do it for you. Write your own story with a happy ending. God knows its hard....but you are worth fighting for.
I know I am.

Well, I went to the Dr. last Wednesday and had a lot of blood work. My sugar is elevated, my cholesterol is elevated and as of right now I've gained back 44 pounds. Doesn't seem to be an end to my sugar addiction. I guess I either have to reside myself to the fact that I'm going to let myself get back to 300 again or I'm going to fight. Honestly, I don't have the fight in me. I really don't. So, I deserve what I am going to get in the coming months. I don't eat. I drink sugar. I'm addicted to sugar. That said... it isn't cakes, Cookies, etc.. I seem to not be able to get through the day without it, my fix, my frappes, lattes....
My doctor gave me this look like ... well.. you are doing this to yourself and he is right. I wonder if I really want to be here without my husband. Now don't take that the wrong way and start thinking I'm talking about suicide. I'm not! I just don't seem to have it in me to want to fight this any longer. All I care about is having something to make me feel better when I'm in so much pain from losing my husband, my life, my forever. I won't complain about gaining anymore. It is what it is. Caffeine and sugar helps me get through the day. Am I strong enough to give it up? No, I think not. I have size 8 to 16 jeans in my closet. I was a 26.

My daughter bought me this ring to replace my wedding ring. Its my late husband's birthstone. Last time I wore it was about 2006.
It fits!!

My daughter bought me this ring to replace my wedding ring. Its my late husband's birthstone. Last time I wore it was about 2006.
It fits!!

Well lets just say the stool softeners worked!! Id say 90% pain free!!! I'm hopeful!

Wow, you all sound like me except my RNY was 12/17!I am STILL having significant pain in that same area. I got the abdominal binder yesterday and I think it feels worse with that on! I also was prescribed flexeril which is a muscle re!axer and it doesn't help much if at all. I haven't tried a heating pad though so I'm gonna go get mine after this post. Also using pain meds which help except I'm almost out and not sure if Dr will refill.

I am 4 weeks post op and had that sharp stabbing pain in the left for most of that time. I kept going back to my doctor as I was worried. I still get aches and pains but a few days ago the sharp stabbing pain just stopped. It's feels like recover is so slow.

Well I am pleased to see I'm not the only one sorry guys y'all are feeling/felt this way to. Would not wish this on anyone. I hope it doesn't last much longer I am ready to get back to work,independence, and just my life. This pain is really weighing on my emotions. Same thing everyday... Waking up in the middle of the night even fumbling trying to get up solo to get my meds. Over it! Trying to keep a positive mind frame for my future

Hi congrats on your choice to be healthy, remember to get your Protein and Water in you will see the scale move , you will have several stalls as your body adjust but remember as long as your eating right and exercising the weight will come off . Welcome to the losers bench and keep us posted on your progress .

I love when that happens! Good for you.

You have a great daughter and a beautiful ring.
Peace
Laura

My daughter bought me this ring to replace my wedding ring. Its my late husband's birthstone. Last time I wore it was about 2006.
It fits!!