MistyAnnMoon829

You realize you have collar bones for the first time in your life. Felt them in the shower the other day and now I randomly reach up to touch them to make sure they're still there.

You realize you have collar bones for the first time in your life. Felt them in the shower the other day and now I randomly reach up to touch them to make sure they're still there.

You realize you have collar bones for the first time in your life. Felt them in the shower the other day and now I randomly reach up to touch them to make sure they're still there.

You realize you have collar bones for the first time in your life. Felt them in the shower the other day and now I randomly reach up to touch them to make sure they're still there.

I still keep up with that diary on occasion. I just updated it recently! I can't not be having fun. I'm so happy. I almost bought ANOTHER dress last night! I need shoppers anon. Thanks for your support, you've always been awesome!

SHOPPING!! I feel like I am buying something new at least once a week. I am now small enough to shop on Wish (Chinese app/website) I still have to buy the biggest sizes but at their prices, IDC. Just this month alone from Savers/Goodwill/Wish/Target/Amazon/Ebay I have gotten a new swimsuit, 5 new dresses, several (means I can't remember!!) new tops, 2 pairs of capri yoga pants, French maid costume, peek a boo booty panties, and I can't stop.
I also just bought an epilator to do home hair removal instead of shaving every other day and waxing every 4 weeks at $50 a pop. So saving money in waxing to put towards buying more clothes. >D
Every time I purge my closet I fill it back up in about 3 months. I even shop out of my best friends closet as well. Guys, I think I need an intervention!
Oh, and Sex, definitely addicted to sex now that it is easier to move around.

SHOPPING!! I feel like I am buying something new at least once a week. I am now small enough to shop on Wish (Chinese app/website) I still have to buy the biggest sizes but at their prices, IDC. Just this month alone from Savers/Goodwill/Wish/Target/Amazon/Ebay I have gotten a new swimsuit, 5 new dresses, several (means I can't remember!!) new tops, 2 pairs of capri yoga pants, French maid costume, peek a boo booty panties, and I can't stop.
I also just bought an epilator to do home hair removal instead of shaving every other day and waxing every 4 weeks at $50 a pop. So saving money in waxing to put towards buying more clothes. >D
Every time I purge my closet I fill it back up in about 3 months. I even shop out of my best friends closet as well. Guys, I think I need an intervention!
Oh, and Sex, definitely addicted to sex now that it is easier to move around.

SHOPPING!! I feel like I am buying something new at least once a week. I am now small enough to shop on Wish (Chinese app/website) I still have to buy the biggest sizes but at their prices, IDC. Just this month alone from Savers/Goodwill/Wish/Target/Amazon/Ebay I have gotten a new swimsuit, 5 new dresses, several (means I can't remember!!) new tops, 2 pairs of capri yoga pants, French maid costume, peek a boo booty panties, and I can't stop.
I also just bought an epilator to do home hair removal instead of shaving every other day and waxing every 4 weeks at $50 a pop. So saving money in waxing to put towards buying more clothes. >D
Every time I purge my closet I fill it back up in about 3 months. I even shop out of my best friends closet as well. Guys, I think I need an intervention!
Oh, and Sex, definitely addicted to sex now that it is easier to move around.

You realize you have collar bones for the first time in your life. Felt them in the shower the other day and now I randomly reach up to touch them to make sure they're still there.

My newest NSV, I am wearing a dress and wedges to work/school today, and I am not wearing Spanx under to prevent chub rub! So that right there is a twofer! I'm IN A DRESSSSSS (I haven't worn a dress casually in about 6 years)!!! AND NOT WEARING SPANX!!!! I'm so happy I might burst, guys.

Okay, life has been pretty weird lately. Do you ever go through phases where everything you touch just turns to crap? Well... last few days have been like that. Not one single thing was disasterous, but it was like a series of unfortunate events - ha! Really kinda got me down for a bit there. Seriously
This is a partial list of the crap that has happened to me in the last 1-2 days:
-vacuum stopped sucking
-internet started sucking - damn brand new router just restarted itself at random and with some frequency (I work from home and really need reliable internet!)
-Vet called in wrong scrip for my ancient dog (end of life pallitive care) and I had to beg pharmasist to give us enough pills for a few days until we could get scrip.
-Had to wait forever for said pharmacist
-Old dog couldn't get up Monday morning - I had to lift him so he could stand to go potty... poor old man, it breaks my heart!
- and the worst... I sold my beautiful beautiful young horse to a new owner because I have had some health problems that prevent me from giving her what she needs. (like alot of blonde bombshells, she is high maintenance). I actually hired a trusted trainer to sell her and screen the buyer so she went to a home where her talents would be appreciated and her negatives would be managed... I disclosed EVERYTHING about this horse. The buyer turned out to be evil, and not even 2 weeks later is reselling her for way more money and the ad is packed full of lies. She is saying this horse is beginner safe and she is NOT. I am sick about it, what if someone is hurt? What if my beautiful horse is hurt?
Anyway... here is the point of my post. I didn't turn to food even though I felt pretty frustrated and sad and even angry. Especially about my horse.

Today at the gym a woman I've never met approached me and said "I've seen you in a class we take together over the last couple of years, and I just wanted to let you know you look amazing". Seriously made my day! I'm 5 months out.

This is a duplicate post I made earlier......but I think I made it in the wrong section before.
Had a cool NSV yesterday that foreshadows the tremendous NSV potential ahead.......
So.....I'm a dude who gives not two thoughts to clothes.
I pretty much wear cargos or khakis at work with one of our company monogramed shirts. I prefer the polo style. Days off work....same basic deal....just cargos with t-shirts or polo shirts. Suit and tie on church Sunday. This is how it's been for a long time.
I've been out of work just under three weeks now, recovering from sleeve & umbilical hernia surgery.
Most of this time I've been wearing a few pairs of Under Armour long pants, shorts and t-shirts. These have gone from snug & in need of a "pre-wear stretch" prior to surgery.....to now being baggy and saggy once coming out of the clothes drier. Funny stuff. I never wore clothes from the drier.....and I usually did the "shirt stretch deal" as I put them on.
Now it's obvious. Old stuff doesn't fit anymore.
My wife and I had some events we wanted to go to yesterday, Halloween day. I'd gone out earlier in the morning and had a haircut and also got my beard trimmed up (I'd shaved prior to the surgery, but since then it's grown back). Anyway, came home yesterday morning with a ball cap on and wearing my normal UA pants and t-shirt.
After she got ready I went and got another shower (can't stand that feeling after a haircut) and got dressed.
I wore a pair of cargos that I bought the week prior to the surgery....now 3 weeks old. They'd just come out of the drier. Buttoned up they kept falling down as I was trying to find a smaller shirt to wear. Finally found a never worn polo that is made from a no-stretch dry-tech type fabric. It was hiding in my closet among the few smaller clothes that are in there.
Got the shirt on and belt cinched down to keep my freaking pants up. Looked in the mirror as I was brushing my teeth and thought, "Alright, dude.....you look human again".
I walked downstairs to grab a glass of Water and ran into my wife. She looked at me and burst out into tears. I'm like, "WTH ????" and she's smiling while crying and gives me a huge hug. "Have you seen yourself ?", she asked.
It was one of those spontaneous affirmations outa the clear blue that reminded me that I made the right decision in getting the surgery.
Later on in the day she commented....."Have you noticed how you are now walking......no limping". I did notice. I've only needed Advil on 3 occasions since the surgery as opposed to needing it 3 times per day every day prior to wls.
It's only been 2+ weeks since the surgery (down 31 pounds).....and 6 months since my weight loss efforts began (down 89 pounds).......and I already feel years younger.
It's at the point that I can't even conceive of how much younger I"ll feel once I reach the 1 year post-op mark. 47 now.......will probably feel like 27 after the first year.
Looking forward to wearing the same type of of button fly Levi's I wore in college. I've still got the old leather jacket that wore then, too. It's got some road rash from two motorcycle wrecks that I walked away from. It's going to feel great being that same guy once again......just a wiser & worn version.
47 heading toward 27. I'm down with that.

Ive always been pretty honest with myself. I always knew I was a big guy. when I look in the mirror, or take a picture of myself. to me I always look like what I think in my head. its probably a mental thing.
In the past this certain thing has happened quite a few times. I'm at a convenience store standing in line waiting to pay for my goods and out of the corner of my eye I catch a glimpse of the security monitor and I see this huge guy standing there and I think to myself "I'm big but I don't think I'm that big yet" then I look again and that guy is actually me. then I'm in a bad mood the rest of the day lol
The other day I was going to a different location for work. in this building there's a hall where the elevators are that all the walls and elevator doors are mirrors. I was walking to the elevator and I noticed this guy out of the corner of my eye and thought I should be that size soon. when I stopped and pushed the elevator button I realized that was me in the mirror. the reverse of what Ive experienced before! good mood the rest of the day :-)

None scale victory. I'm questioning this one.
I ran into my son's friends in the grocery store. He did not recognize me until I started talking to him. He say's I looked great. Thanked him for the compliment. Suddenly I see a perplexed look on his face. He asked me if I went to a specific gym in our city. I said yes. He commented that he also is a member of the same gym. He blushed and said he had checked me out not knowing I was his friends mom. Awkward moment. But made me laugh.

Five months out today
* My wedding ring (that I had to have cut off and resized a few years ago) now slides off my finger
* Can walk miles without being out of breath - while holding a conversation
* Smile more and receive more smiles and "hello"s from strangers and acquaintances
* Got a pair of size 16 jeans in the mail yesterday (I have NO jeans that fit me right now) and they were too big. I could wear my original size 20 for the first 3 months, now a 14 two months later.
* More confident at work and seem to be more respected in meetings and in general
* Many more - this is an amazing tool we received!

I now do not recognise the person in my old photos.

Putting on my size 18 pants and realizing they are just not even going to stay up anymore, so then I grab a size 14 pants that I thought were 16s and said let's just see how far til I fit in them, and seeing that they fit NOW! Best day ever.

Summer NSV!
Had a great day with family and friends on the Boise river today. We rented innertube's to float the river. The park staff called my name to pick up my equipment. He handed me a child's life jacket to wear. He said the adult size would not fit me.

I have an NSV I'm excited to share. Yesterday I went to the store to return some things and while there, I saw some jeans I liked. I had some issues with pants since I've lost everywhere except my hips and tummy.
I worked up the courage to try on but had no idea what my size is now after losing close to 50 lbs. I selected a range from 16-12 and took them into the dressing room. Size 16, too big, size 14, baggy and I finally ended up in a size 12. To my amazement!!
Of course I bought those puppies because they fit perfectly!!
These little NSVs are my "rocket fuel" to keep on going on my weight loss program. Still have 35 pounds to lose.

My NSV this week - I ordered new jeans from the Old Navy clearance section online. Was wearing 24 before I started the surgery program in March, ordered a 20 & a 18 thinking that should take me though Christmas (had the surgery on July 1). Got them in the mail on Saturday, tried them on and they were both too big! I have to go to the store and exchange them for 16 and 14 maybe! My elation really comes from the fact that I ordered them from the normal women's section, not plus size, so I CAN go to the store to exchange instead of having to mail them back in! Both aspects make me happy! Woohoo! I also order a clearance skirt in Large thinking I would be there in a few months, would be nice to have ready for then. Well, it fits NOW! Double woohoos!

I'm not loving my loose skin, the batwings and Panni/tummy are not super sexy, but the guy I'm dating right now doesn't care at all. He actually seems to really enjoy my body completely. I HATE HATE HATE my boobs, but he keeps trying his hardest to make me okay with them. I am planning a boob job in the next year/two years, or after I have a kid. Not sure if I can wait that long. I can live with the rest of it, in fact it doesn't bother me overly much, but the boobs...Oy.

That's NOT trivial, its,AMAZING! YAY!!

I am sorry you are going through this. My EX was not gay but had no interest in physical intimacy of any kind. There were signs early on, but over the years it became soul crushing to not be hugged, kissed or receiving any intimacy. i blamed it on my obesity for a long time, but turns out that WASN'T it. I have no answer for it because I still care deeply for him, still miss him. I am single now and at times regret that decision, but truth is I was so terribly lonely being in a relationship where i felt neither part of a couple nor free to be single. This was way beyond the sex part, it was the whole way we interrelated with each other and the world.
Since you clearly love her, i hope you are able to give the process time before making any "permanent" decisions. This must be terribly difficult however.

The jeans I posted about less than a month ago are getting too big!