jdmama911

I get hungry about every 3 hours. I try to eat more at lunch and dinner. For my Breakfast and Snacks I don't eat too much.

I'm 5 mos. post op. I have no restrictions at this point from my NUT. Im allowed everything, there was no absolutely never again ruled...which works well for me. Here is a typical day for me
B: yoplait light-very cherry (sometimes I can get a whole one down, but sometimes I only manage 1/2 of it)
L: (frozen food) Amy's organic cheese enchilada (meal comes with Beans and corn. I only eat the enchilada and maybe 1 bite of the beans)
S: 1/2 serving Beef Jerky, 1 small handful of almonds
D: (whatever my family has!!) tacos-I can eat one taco with about 2oz. of meat, cheese, spinach, 2 teaspoons light sour cream, 2T of salsa. I usually have a couple tablespoons of refrained Beans mixed with a T or 2 of salsa.
Another dinner Spaghetti (I take about 7-10 thin spaghetti noodles, 1/2 c. Heart smart Pasta sauce (or chunky garden) with ground beef and green peppers added to it, and a serving of Parmesan cheese on top. I tried a bite of garlic bread once, but it filled me up too much, so I probably wont eat Garlic bread again. (I used to eat a LOT of garlic bread pre op lol)
Another dinner pizza. I can't stomach the crust on most pizza anymore. I can only handle thin crust pizza. I can tolerate any toppings, it just has to be on a thin crust. I can eat 1.5 pieces of a medium on a heavy eating day, and sometimes I only tolerate 3/4 of a piece.
S: 1/2c. Diced cucumber, 2T. croutons, 1/8c. mozzarella cheese, 1 teaspoon Light ranch, 1T light Italian

I tried Jack Daniels with about an ounce of Cherry coke...I stirred the holy hell out of it before I drank it, and it went down fine. Now last weekend, I tried a Mikes Hard Cranberry Lemonade and got down a couple sips. I completely forgot it was carbonated. It was the first thing I drank with fizz, and it didn't agree with me well. Im glad that I quit Diet Coke way before surgery, because I surely could not handle that anytime soon.

Im frustrated and mad at myself! I quit smoking back in May. I did this because I was sick of the consequences of being a smoker. It was also ruining my relationship with my husband, and I didn't want my son to think smoking was ok.
I held strong and didn't even look back. Until 2 weeks ago...I was literally dreaming about smoking, then came the cravings. Well, 2 days ago I broke my non smoking streak. I of course am completely hooked already. I started Wellbutrin this morning, and hoping that will help the cravings....but I fear it's cross addiction. Im raising the white flag. I've never been a fan of shrinks...but at this point I don't know what to do. Im calling my ins. on my lunch hour. Im praying there is an addictionologist that I would be covered to see. Anyone else struggling with cross addiction?

I'm 5 mos. post op. I have no restrictions at this point from my NUT. Im allowed everything, there was no absolutely never again ruled...which works well for me. Here is a typical day for me
B: yoplait light-very cherry (sometimes I can get a whole one down, but sometimes I only manage 1/2 of it)
L: (frozen food) Amy's organic cheese enchilada (meal comes with Beans and corn. I only eat the enchilada and maybe 1 bite of the beans)
S: 1/2 serving Beef Jerky, 1 small handful of almonds
D: (whatever my family has!!) tacos-I can eat one taco with about 2oz. of meat, cheese, spinach, 2 teaspoons light sour cream, 2T of salsa. I usually have a couple tablespoons of refrained Beans mixed with a T or 2 of salsa.
Another dinner Spaghetti (I take about 7-10 thin spaghetti noodles, 1/2 c. Heart smart Pasta sauce (or chunky garden) with ground beef and green peppers added to it, and a serving of Parmesan cheese on top. I tried a bite of garlic bread once, but it filled me up too much, so I probably wont eat Garlic bread again. (I used to eat a LOT of garlic bread pre op lol)
Another dinner pizza. I can't stomach the crust on most pizza anymore. I can only handle thin crust pizza. I can tolerate any toppings, it just has to be on a thin crust. I can eat 1.5 pieces of a medium on a heavy eating day, and sometimes I only tolerate 3/4 of a piece.
S: 1/2c. Diced cucumber, 2T. croutons, 1/8c. mozzarella cheese, 1 teaspoon Light ranch, 1T light Italian

I smoke it instead of using anti depressants. It evens me out mentally without all the insane side effects of pills. Anyway, I smoked up throughout my pre op and an 5 mos. post op doing great. I do occasionally get the munchers, but I eat healthier Snacks if that happens. I'm doing "excellent" according to my surgeon. It helped A LOT after surgery. I had trouble getting in fluids for quite awhile. But, after smoking I would have a little dry mouth and was able to tolerate more liquids.
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If you think that your honest story of weight loss will help a heavier friend, then I think you should tell them! I have been an open book about my surgery. I even told all 5 football coaches of my sons team that I was having the surgery. Because of my openness, I've had 3 people tell me that I personally have inspired them to do something about their weight. 2 of the 3 are in the beginning process of weight loss surgery.
I feel like our stories are a duty to share to someone who may gain from it. I didn't consider the surgery after my mom had it, but after meeting 2 women that had the surgery I began to consider WLS as a viable option. I don't know if I would have considered it if I hadn't met those women. I wish I could go back and thank those ladies (I met both randomly as strangers who struck up conversations with me) for telling me their stories.

I'm down to 187. My highest weight was 335. When I see someone who is very big or larger than I was, I tend to feel empathy toward them. I also can't stop thinking about myself at that weight. All the baggage I carried around, and how much I hated being in public. I try not to do the things to heavy people that bothered me. ie: people didn't like to stand near me in a line, they would avoid the aisle I was in because they didn't want to squeeze by me, not many people smiled at me or made small talk. etc.
Those types of things have ceased now that I'm down to a more "normal" weight. The world is a lot friendlier, and I try to extend that to people that give me these flashbacks. I have noticed more heavy people being more cynical toward my friendliness recently though (as someone else mentioned). It will not deter me. I just hope they can one day find answers as I did.

I'm down to 187. My highest weight was 335. When I see someone who is very big or larger than I was, I tend to feel empathy toward them. I also can't stop thinking about myself at that weight. All the baggage I carried around, and how much I hated being in public. I try not to do the things to heavy people that bothered me. ie: people didn't like to stand near me in a line, they would avoid the aisle I was in because they didn't want to squeeze by me, not many people smiled at me or made small talk. etc.
Those types of things have ceased now that I'm down to a more "normal" weight. The world is a lot friendlier, and I try to extend that to people that give me these flashbacks. I have noticed more heavy people being more cynical toward my friendliness recently though (as someone else mentioned). It will not deter me. I just hope they can one day find answers as I did.

Having been obese my entire life until now, I try to extend myself to others who are obese. I think I am more compassionate now. I don't talk about WLS surgery or advocate it because that is a personal decision that people have to make for themselves but I absolutely try to be more considerate now. I do find that some overweight people are a bit more cynical towards me now. Before I was regarded as kindred now I am seen as just another 'normal' person who had no idea what being heavy is like. Hence, my desire to be more empathetic.

Thank you all of you for the sweet and inspiring words, it has helped so much!! Thank you for your story too jdmama!

I haven't been on here in awhile. Life has been crazy busy though! Here is a pretty current day after surgery pic and a now pic. Life has been pretty good. The thoughts below are underlying thoughts that I know need addressed and I'm not sure where to start or even if it's as huge of a issue as I'm thinking it is.
I'm scared though. I'm scared because my husband is so in awe of my success he is slightly blinded. If I slip up he doesn't see it. I'm not where I expected yet and don't want to be content. I'm down to 195. I mean, if in a few years, I ended up at this weight and this is where I was happy eating I would be fine, but I have never been lower, and would like to see if I would be happy maintaining around 175. I really am happy with how things have been going, until the last couple of weeks. My weight loss is staying on a consistent pattern, but I haven't been as vigilant with my eating habits. I'm eating more junk food and allowing it to be in the house. I know it's a slip up and will be fixing it the second company leaves on Friday.
I'm also scared because I caught myself emotional eating this weekend after my husband quit his job. He has some temporary jobs/work that is off the books, but this job loss was sudden and he didn't have time to secure a real job before he quit. Ugh, my PA told me at my last check up that I need to give myself more credit for the weight loss. I have been successful on a lot of fronts, but fear and self doubt still are a big battle for me that I haven't been able to conquer yet. This part of the journey is a lot more difficult for me than any part I've experienced yet. Sorry if I'm not making much sense, but I've been up since 6am, tired, and reflecting on my eating habits this weekend which alarmed me...Carry on
HW: 335 9/11/13
SW: 297
CW: 195 6/8/14

Too early I think! I was allowed a little at 1mo., and he is more relaxed about alcohol than a lot of surgeons.

Unfortunate events and "mistakes" alike are our chance to learn and change and grow. They are learning opportunities in my eyes. Mistakes/bad things happened, so don't dwell on it regretfully. Instead, look back with perspective and eventually hindsight. That way you aren't strung up on bad feelings, and instead you grow.
I'm embarrassed to even say this. No one in my family even knows this happened.
What got me to consider vertical sleeve surgery was when I hit rock bottom just over a year ago. My fat a** broke a toilet seat while I was at my moms. No one was home when it happened. I ran out and bought a new one to replace it. It didn't match at all though. I had to make up an elaborate story about how I stood on the seat to change a light bulb and I fell, and when I fell I broke it because of how I landed. I was so utterly disgusted with myself. I spent a week mourning over the fact that I had let myself get that fat.
Today, I'm thankful that happened to me. It woke me up and told me I needed to take control before I wasted another 30 years of my life struggling only to end up fatter than before. I honestly have lived better and had more fun in the last 3 mos. than I have in the past 3 years.
HW: 335
Program entrance: 312
SW 9/11/13: 297
Today's weight: 194

Unfortunate events and "mistakes" alike are our chance to learn and change and grow. They are learning opportunities in my eyes. Mistakes/bad things happened, so don't dwell on it regretfully. Instead, look back with perspective and eventually hindsight. That way you aren't strung up on bad feelings, and instead you grow.
I'm embarrassed to even say this. No one in my family even knows this happened.
What got me to consider vertical sleeve surgery was when I hit rock bottom just over a year ago. My fat a** broke a toilet seat while I was at my moms. No one was home when it happened. I ran out and bought a new one to replace it. It didn't match at all though. I had to make up an elaborate story about how I stood on the seat to change a light bulb and I fell, and when I fell I broke it because of how I landed. I was so utterly disgusted with myself. I spent a week mourning over the fact that I had let myself get that fat.
Today, I'm thankful that happened to me. It woke me up and told me I needed to take control before I wasted another 30 years of my life struggling only to end up fatter than before. I honestly have lived better and had more fun in the last 3 mos. than I have in the past 3 years.
HW: 335
Program entrance: 312
SW 9/11/13: 297
Today's weight: 194

My mom had gastric bypass about 5 years ago. She dropped about 60-70lbs quickly and then stayed at the upper 190's for almost 2.5 years. In the past 6 mos. she has dropped all her weight! She did change her eating habits (not super drastically though), but it just like clicked for her with her body. She went to the doctors last week and weighed 135lbs. and the doc. told her to NOT LOSE ANYMORE WEIGHT. She went clothes shopping and fit into a pant size 6!
Don't give up and keep plugging away.

My mom had gastric bypass about 5 years ago. She dropped about 60-70lbs quickly and then stayed at the upper 190's for almost 2.5 years. In the past 6 mos. she has dropped all her weight! She did change her eating habits (not super drastically though), but it just like clicked for her with her body. She went to the doctors last week and weighed 135lbs. and the doc. told her to NOT LOSE ANYMORE WEIGHT. She went clothes shopping and fit into a pant size 6!
Don't give up and keep plugging away.

Unfortunate events and "mistakes" alike are our chance to learn and change and grow. They are learning opportunities in my eyes. Mistakes/bad things happened, so don't dwell on it regretfully. Instead, look back with perspective and eventually hindsight. That way you aren't strung up on bad feelings, and instead you grow.
I'm embarrassed to even say this. No one in my family even knows this happened.
What got me to consider vertical sleeve surgery was when I hit rock bottom just over a year ago. My fat a** broke a toilet seat while I was at my moms. No one was home when it happened. I ran out and bought a new one to replace it. It didn't match at all though. I had to make up an elaborate story about how I stood on the seat to change a light bulb and I fell, and when I fell I broke it because of how I landed. I was so utterly disgusted with myself. I spent a week mourning over the fact that I had let myself get that fat.
Today, I'm thankful that happened to me. It woke me up and told me I needed to take control before I wasted another 30 years of my life struggling only to end up fatter than before. I honestly have lived better and had more fun in the last 3 mos. than I have in the past 3 years.
HW: 335
Program entrance: 312
SW 9/11/13: 297
Today's weight: 194

Ana..how many times have I encouraged you to drink G2 Gatorade. It helps keep your electrolytes up and will make your trips to the ER disappear. 17 months later and I still drink 1/2 of a bottle diluted with Water and I can feel it if I don't drink it..Oh yes I get my 64 oz of Water in as well. But that really makes a difference.

Thank you all for your replies, I'm staying strong and distracting myself with other things. It's given me an excuse to start sewing again lol x
Love to all

That's not a bad loss for 12 days. I've lost slower than that in the past.
Your weight loss after the sleeve will be different than before. It could be fast, slow, or anything in between. The important thing is...it is coming off. You will lose and you will win. The stalls and gains mean nothing. They are just part of the process. In the end you will lose the fat.

I'm getting the sleeve done. (Tomorrow!!) I'm 5'2 and was 314 when I started this, I'm currently 296. My surgeon and I chose the sleeve. He said that while I might be able to lose 5% more of my excess fat, that the sleeve is just as good, and he does a majority of them now. I wasn't a huge fan of the rerouting of my innards, so I'm fine if I don't lose that 5% more.

Your post reminded me of a re-occurring dream:
I have garnered the ability to fly with nothing but the power of my will.
I fly around friends, relatives, and strangers and they just look at me indifferently.
I am screaming in self promotion, "I can fly..I am unique...no one else can do this!"
No dice. Nobody cares. I am swamped by the feeling of frustration.
What I am missing in my dream is the sheer joy of flying. I have risen to a challenge that I had considered impossible. I am doing what I thought I could never do. But I am missing the joy of my new freedom to see the world from new perspectives because I waste my dream trying to get elevated approval from the earth bound.
Back into the conscious world, I have experienced this. My wife got the gastric bypass a short time before I got sleeved. Our weight loss was similar and we reached our goals.
We moved to Florida and met with relatives here. They went absolutely nuts about how great my wife looked...to me they just said, "Good for you." Mrs.Astounding Transformation and her husband, Chopped Liver. If I weren't the mature man that I am I would have been jealous but I was happy for her and didn't let it bother me.
Peoples is peoples.
Grab your joy where you can find it.

I smoke it instead of using anti depressants. It evens me out mentally without all the insane side effects of pills. Anyway, I smoked up throughout my pre op and an 5 mos. post op doing great. I do occasionally get the munchers, but I eat healthier Snacks if that happens. I'm doing "excellent" according to my surgeon. It helped A LOT after surgery. I had trouble getting in fluids for quite awhile. But, after smoking I would have a little dry mouth and was able to tolerate more liquids.
PM me if you ever want to

I smoke it instead of using anti depressants. It evens me out mentally without all the insane side effects of pills. Anyway, I smoked up throughout my pre op and an 5 mos. post op doing great. I do occasionally get the munchers, but I eat healthier Snacks if that happens. I'm doing "excellent" according to my surgeon. It helped A LOT after surgery. I had trouble getting in fluids for quite awhile. But, after smoking I would have a little dry mouth and was able to tolerate more liquids.
PM me if you ever want to