Daydra

Well, here goes... I'm going to risk the jinx! Goodbye 240's your dirty bastids!!! I don't think I've ever been so miserable losing weight as these last 10 pounds! Onward to greener pastures and smaller clothes!

Starting to buy clothes that are no longer plus!!! And for the first time in a long time, I own more women's clothes than men's!

Uhhh, I've apparently reached a place in my weight loss where I'm no longer "fat enough" for people to be uncomfortable referring to being fat around me. Not sure I like this stage...

Yoga class yesterday and spin today. It feels really good to get back to the gym, but holy atrophy, Batman! I am weak!!! Trembling during down dog and afraid my legs were going to give out when standing on the spin bike... At least respiratory fitness seems okay still...

Oh my! Totally started a storm of fecal matter for myself with a rant about an unpleasant interaction with my surgeon. I provided too much background, too much info, too many words. Totally my fault. Lesson learned... check!

Note to my bod: You are really beginning to test my patience! Just yesterday, after 4 weeks, I finally got about 2.5 pounds below my weight when I began to eat reasonably again. Today, you brought back almost 2 of those pounds! So, for the last 4 weeks, despite posting an average 1000 cal daily deficit, my net loss is .6!!! Not cool, man, not cool. I'm telling my surgeon on you! And my pcp! And my nutritionist if I have to! Don't make me do it! I wi...

Cautiously updating my ticker... Cautiously optimistic that it will hold...

I don't really want to say this prematurely, but I think my body might possibly be beginning to think about quitting freaking out about the semi-starvation and tentatively be allowing just a smidgen of weight to begin to come back off... but I'm not sure... could be too early to tell... Maybe. :-)

This refeeding thing has been so weird! Gained 10 immediately after beginning to eat at nutritionist recommended cal. Lost 3 last weekend, gained almost 3 last Mon-Tues then held steady all week. All while posting 700-1200 daily deficits. Bizarre. Beyond ready to normalize...

This refeeding thing has been so weird! Gained 10 immediately after beginning to eat at nutritionist recommended cal. Lost 3 last weekend, gained almost 3 last Mon-Tues then held steady all week. All while posting 700-1200 daily deficits. Bizarre. Beyond ready to normalize...

Today is the first day I haven't gained since I've been able to eat again. 8 pounds up. We'll see what tomorrow brings, but it feels like I've stabilized and am starting to get some energy back. Now to start going back down again...

Oh, sweet relief!!! Several days under my belt of drinking and eating the best I have since surgery! I managed over 50 oz of fluid yesterday and near 1500 calories!!! Felt so good! Energy is really starting to come back as well. Now for strength and endurance...

Doing much better. Bigger/badder antinausea meds making all the difference. Ate pretty high carb yesterday and today I have a bit more energy. Hoping this pattern holds...

Unable to keep anything down all weekend. Today: 8 hours in the ER, Bloodwork, Cat scan, 2 liters of fluid, injected and IV antinausea meds. Diagnosis: Nausea with vomiting... Go figure! (nothing nefarious going on according to all the tests) Starting tho think maybe my stomach lining is simply still too irritated? Or some other simple explanation. Need a different ppi maybe? Not sure. Will talk to surgeon tomorrow.

Goodbye 260's and 250's! With luck and diligence, I hope to never be tortured by your presence again!

Ok. Seriously... Enough with the feeling crappy already. Still really struggling to get in enough of everything and the fatigue is the hardest thing to deal with. Seems like a full time job to get enough food, fluid, and sleep and I am not terribly successful at it...

So... my surgeon says that my labs show that I was never dehydrated. She thinks I've just been starving... awesome... At least I know how to fix that one...

So hard to tell what's "normal" these days. Still struggling with fluids and fatigue, but it's not too bad. Just hoping it gets easier soon...

Endoscopy today. Some torsion in addition to kink. Doc was able to straighten out a bit, but not fully. Followup on the 9th, but feel sooo much better. Just have to pay close attention and call if anything gets worse.

Turns out my inability too maintain an appropriate fluid intake is due to a kink. Endoscopy tomorrow to hopefully fix it.

Dehydration... Please go away. You are really annoying me...

Totally got checked by my clinic's nurse during my 1mo postop... The second I started in with the "my weight loss hasn't been stellar..." Good reminder that 1-2 lbs/week is the goal, not 5 or more...

Finally popped over the 1/2 way mark! (From my high weight, not surgery weight, but I'm sure as heck taking credit for it!)

Looks like I've hit my first stall. Boo! Bouncing up and down about 1.2 pounds for the last week. Just waiting for it to break... I'm sure it won't be much longer.

I ate real food that actually resembled real food today!!! I've never been so excited about canned green beans and plain ground beef!