porclndoll

hey guys...just wanted to touch base...... i just came home from my follow up visit with my surgeon. i went two weeks ago and actually gainned weight. only a pound, but ummmm not supose to go in that direction. so i had to follow up with him today after I made some dietary adjustments. I ended up loosing three pounds in the week and I ended up with another fill. I am now at 2.75 cc's in a 4.0 cc band. I wasn't crazy over the thought of ANOTHER fill, but I did soul searching and realized HEY DAMMIT I got this band to help me....I NEED HELP...so i got the fill. I have promised myself and my surgeon that by the time I see him again, which will be in four more weeks, i will have busted thru the 200 pound mark. I started out at 272 Im now 206....66 pounds gone!!! :clap2: Its been a little slower than I expected, but I have had a lot of personal issues come up and given the stress that I was under, its AMAZING to me that I ONLY gainned one pound. soooo !!! I got my head back in the game AGAIN....and I am walking with blinders. I can do this!!!!! My personal goal that I set when I started this was to reach 160 pounds. I can do it...... I WILL DO IT...

Lookin at my own boob, I have little lumpy things too around that same area. If your concerned about them see a doctor of course. But it sounds like what I have...They are real close to the surface of the skin? Not painful...just sorta there...Sounds like its just the way you are. I think breast cancer would be more inward that on the surface. I actually saw a dermotologist about a mole I have on my one boob, and he said that some of the other lumps that I was lookin at could possibly turn to moles. He said they aren't cancerous, but if they bother me, I could have them taken off. I dont see them turning to moles just yet...but Im keeping an eye on them. And he said that moles on the breast doesn't connect to breast cancer~~ Absolutely though, have your own doctor check em if they are worrying you~ Hope this helps!

Seeing pictures of myself at Christmas time. I didnt recognize myself. And the extream pain I felt in my feet at all times. I cried to get out of bed in the morning. I knew something had to be done.

hey guys..... Whipple....U are a very talented writer...Thank u for your words of encouragment, and when i catch that damn demon I will let u know Its awesome having a cheering section to come home to. Thank U I am doing Protein shakes in the morn, and in the afternoon, with a meal at night....per the recommendations of my surgeon. I dont have enough time at my lunch break at work to eat properly, and chew, so I end up getting stuck EVERY time i eat a normal meal~ Breakfast time, again same story, so I grab something that is horriable for me and choke it down. dinner time is the ONLY time i get to concentrate on me and what im doing as far as chewing. i dont like it, but it seems to be working. i havent gotten sick at work since i started this sooooo all is good. as far as feeling as though i need a fill, yea i think i do. i can eat me some dinner when it comes time. and when i drink the Protein Shakes its just not keeping me full. time to fill er up. my surgeon said that i should be able to drink the protein shakes and stay full, and not have to eat in between. he is a phenominal doctor and he knows whats best for me. im just scared of the erosion. i have to see him on the 20th. before anyone gets a needle stuck in em, i will definately share my concerns about the erosion. aside from all this, life is pretty damn good! my son has totally adjusted to our move. he has done extreamly well with school. all of his therapists reported nothing but positivity during our last meeting. so apparently my little one has been affected by the stress of our old life, and now that the old life is gone, he is doing much much better. as far as the job, i have just desided that no matter what im doing, I just dont want to work! ahha...im doing good there and i hope to advance in the company, but i would sooo much rather be able to be at home. its a small price to pay for our sanity i guess i will be back around...thanks for the encouragement guys~ I need to come back to keep my head in the game~ talk to u soon~

Hello Everyone....Here I am again. I know I keep poppin up pretty sporatic, but I definately need to get her more often. I am struggling sooo much with these final 30 pounds its not funny. I actually gainned a pound at my last visit. I have been eatting horriable..... I haven't been exercising as much as I should and Im just STUCK. I would like to get back into my support group meetings too,but that hasn't happened as of yet~ I just think I need to wipe the slate and start OVER...as if I am a new bandster and just get these final 30 done. My doctor told me to come back in two weeks to see where I am and if need be he will give me another fill. that will put me at about 3.0 cc's in my 4.0 cc band. I think I need it, but I am soooo scared of it, its not funny. I am afraid of erosion, Im afraid of being stuck, Im afraid of never being able to eat normal foods again. As it is, im on Protein shakes for most of the day then at night I eat a meal. I feel as though my portions are going up and I am not staying as ful as I should be very long. I know I need the fill~ Im just scared thats all. I go back to my surgeon who I love very much and I know he has my best interests at heart, on the 20th. Any rapid weight loss secretes out there? Hell, if we knew em and they worked, I guess we wouldn't be in this boat huh? Aight, Thanks for listening, and U will be seeing my face around here more often Gnite

Hey guys...Im back again...Droppin in to say HOW DO I go back to my doctor on 6/6/06 for the official weigh in. I dont weigh myelf on my scale at home. I dont need the added stress...the last time I weighed in was at 208. I hope that I can drop that 8 and weigh in this time at an even 200~ If I meet that goal that would be awesome, but if not....there is always next time......Then I would be down 72 pounds and weigh less than I have my ENTIRE adult life. I have been upping the exercise, but I have cheated diet wise here and there...nothing toooo bad. So I know if I didnt make it, the heres and theres is what did it~~~ Well, I hope u are all doing fine. I have to go tear up my house now, I gotta find my bank card that is lost AGAIN....I hate being so disorganized. I will talk to u all soon~ CIAO Porclndol~

well here are my one year stats: POUNDS LOST: 64 POUNDS PER WEEK: 1.23 INCHES LOST FROM WAIST: 9 INCHES LOST FROM HIPS: 9 I HAVE TO ADMIT I LEFT THE OFFICE ALITTLE UPSET THAT I DIDNT HIT THE 100 POUND MARK.....BUTTHEN I REALIZED HOW MUCH I HAVE BEEN THRU....HOW WELL I HAVE PULLED THRU EVERYTHING AND HOW MUCH I HAVE GROWN AS A PERSON. NOW I AM FEELIN QUITE PROUD!! I COULD HAVE CURLDED UP IN A BALL SOMEWHERE....BUT NOPE!!!! KEEP ON KEEPIN ON JOE DIRT!!!

hey guys. im sorry i haven't been around much. restarting your life is hard work dammit! well, tomorrow i go to my surgeons office. i am coming up on my one year. i had my surgery on 5/5/05... i guess this will be the final weigh in. im sorta nervous and anxious. i had a goal of 100 pounds in one year, i didn't make that.......but thats okay. so long as i met the second goal that i set of 70 pounds. i had 4 weeks to loose 9 pounds to meet that goal. one of those weeks i had MAJOR pms and ate everything i walked past...so i have a funny feeling i didnt quite meet that. i am okay with it because i know no matter what tomorrow brings, i am still less than what i was when i started this adventure and i feel amazing~i will letchyall know how i make out. i would be very interested in taking my measurements again. that would be something to see....whoa~ okay all, im gonna go browse some posts that i missed while i was on hiatus. i will talk to you all soon ~Porclndol~

Thanks Jana I JUMPED OFF WITH BOTH FEET.... I really hadda pull my head outta my butt. My friend helped me with that. I had been going thru so much crap that I totally lost focus.....I WILL MAKE IT

Hey guys. I just wanted to pop in and share the news I got at my dr appointment today. Well for the last three months I was stuck on a pleteau of 215 pounds. Didn't gain during the holidays or thru the bullsht of my life .. so that was good. I got that fill that my doctor and I were uneasy about and GUESS WHAT I am off the plateau~!!! I am down to 209 pounds from 272 when I started this journey~ Thats a total lost to date of 63 pounds~ My bandaversary is coming up soon.....its in May......I haven't accomplished the 100 pounds that I wanted... BUT the game isn't over........ My goal is to be UNDER 200 or at 200 by my next doctor appointment. Its gonna be tuff....BUT IM TUFFER~ If I can accomplish that.....then that would be 70 pounds with in the year~ I would be very happy with that~!! I now weigh less than I did when I got married over 10 years ago!! Hope everyone else is doing well~ Talk to you soon

EEEWE BIG PAUL~~~~~ Thanks for reminding me......DAMN what was I thinking getting outta the gutter....Now, how many things to do with Syrup and Alone Time....hummmm I may have to think hard on that...now if the gutter only had some play mates. Tommy O...I think your right. It is the feeling. I like coffee in the morning so maybe I can go for a cup o joe instead. I like summer mornings...all though the sun shine kills me... That warm moist feeling in the air....aaaa Maybe I just have the winter blues and Im craving SUNLIGHT AAAAAAA IM MELTING!!!!

Hey guys thanks for all the support. I have desided to stear clear of it all together. My band is odd. One day it likes me and the next day it doesn't. So if I get away with eatting pancakes today, doesnt mean I can do it tomorrow. Soooooo I am just going to avoid them all together...and just suck down another protein shake. I am a little over half way filled and I just dont want to chance getting stuck. Being stuck hurts...and the slimes and BP's are just not worth a sucky 3.00 breakfast....I will just avoid it at all costs. Thanks for joining me in my memories of McDonalds

I really miss waking up and going to McDonalds for breakfast, ESPECIALLY now that the warmer weather is coming. I use to love going for breakfast in the morning, and sitting in my car watching everything and eatting my favorite hotcakes with sausage and washing it down with a big ol' orange juice..........Ahhh the memories make me warm on the inside. I use to love starting off any adventure or trip with a breakfast at McDonalds~ dammit and now i can't. I remember one time my husband, son and i went on vacation to his grandmothers house. It was like 8am and everyone in the house was SOUND asleep except for my son and I. We couldn't really do much because we didn't want to wake everyone, so I got us dressed, SORTA and we went to McDonalds for breakfast. We snuck out of the house while everyone was asleep and came back about an hour later. Everyone was still asleep. You know whenever you go to a fast food place you are swamped with orders from everyone else. I didnt need to deal with that as we snuck out...eheheheheh Isn't this horriable.......having FOND memories of a crap for food place like McDonalds ~~ its no wonder i got as large as I did.........but damn, the craving is STRONG this morning. I dont want no damn protein shake today~ I did have turkey sausage with a little bit of maple syrup,just for flavor.......but I needed to vent this craving. Sooo with that, Im going to get in the shower. Its amazing where our minds take us sometimes. Usually my mind is in the gutter or on Halloween or my son.......nope, this mornings fantasy, HOT CAKES AND SAUSAGE...Im a looser